I am sick of playing nice for men..I am sick of being the nice little girl sitting around waiting for ” I am sorry” after a guy treats me like dirt..this is something that every woman has done..and the these types of guys never say that they are sorry..because quite simply they are not.
To them we are the yummy litte white bunny and they are the sex starved ravenous wolves..they arrive in your life to make a kill..you are that kill.
But the same is in reverse for men..these are the beautiful seductresses that have no interest in you as a person..they arrive in your life..to steal your money and to break you heart..to them it is your fame and fortune that they want..not the real you..you they could careless about..just the hard cold cash and the diamonds please..and then when your gaurd is down..they will sleep with your best friend..so yes it goes both ways..this hunting of people.
I went for a drive on Christmas day..alone..I revisited my past..as I have lived in the area since I was 13..I had a lot of reliving to do through my memories..I drove past all my old boyfriends houses..I remembered what a good girl I used to be..how they would go out drinking with their buddies and forget about me..I remembered my ex walking all over my feelings..treating me like less then him..I remebered it was a year ago that I met the man that groomed me to abuse me..and how it had just happened again with Mikey.
I remembered how I remained silent in my abuse of the man the year before..how I swallowed the pain and felt shame for how he treated me like a few pounds of flesh..and now here I was again..waiting for Mikey to tell me he was sorry for what he had done..it was by revisiting my past that I could see he was the same man as the last..he was the type that had no remorse or shame for hurting me..and like the man the year before..Mikey left me floored..that night when he told me he didn’t actually want a relationship..and he left after I told him off..I was so broken by the shock..that someone could be so cruel…that I felt like I couldn’t live..for 24hrs I fought with that intense pain..the same had happened the year before..I was in a place of need..I was feeling alone and heartbroken..and this other man did the same as Mikey..he took advantage of the fact that I was blinded by my pain.
That’s what people do that hunt other people they..wait for the opening..they smell out the weakness..and for Mikey it was very easy as he was my facebook friend and he had first hand knowledge of my struggles..that is the utter cruelty of it…that is the shock.
In my new revelation of recognizing the pattern..I decided that this time it would be different…this time..I am not going to be stupid..and wait for a call or a knock on the door that will never come..because there is no remorse this time I was going to have my say..
In these text messages I have had to edit some information out..as it would not be fair to his privacy as something very private happened between us..With Adrian Taylor I had to do the same as some of his text messages were so crude even I didn’t have the stomach to publish them..
So the following is our conversation by text.
ME – women are not lucky as usuall we get all the shit
MIKEY – Ahh..
Me -I would like to call you a slut but I slept with you so I guess that makes me a slut..I was stupid
I saw your POF profile. You say you want a relationship you lie and then you say you don’t lie. You said you were my friend then you took me off your facebook and never put me back on before you had sex with me again. You said you wouldn’t use me for sex but you did. You are a lier Mike. When it comes to guys like you I never stand a chance. I just can’t believe people can b so cruel, fake and selfish. You especialy knew what I was going through and you used my vulnerability against me. That is very cruel and cowardly.
I don’t care how much you ignore me. I am going to keep telling you what I think of you until I am sick of it.
MIKEY – Grow up
ME – I am the grown up that’s the piont. You don’t want to face the truth of who you really are or what you have done. If I shut up and go away you will just keep doing this to other women. You hate women. You are bitter.. Because you are afraid to love. Because you think it is weak.
MIKEY – Keep going and the rcmp will have a copy fo these and all the others
ME – you would rather keep your heart protected instead of feel. That’s why you have been alone for so long.. Because you don’t love yourself you can’t love another.
MIKEY – I will have you charged if I have…
ME – How else could you be so cruel and cheap to me unless you saw yourself and cheap and worthless. I suppose you only see yourself as a cock?
MIKEY – Do you want the cops involved
ME – And thats why you are dead from the waist up Mike. It must be hard to fuck and never love? You should have guessed by my writing that you read who I am that I wouldn’t let you walk away without having you meet my mind after getting away with using me. You did get away with it but karma finds everyone even you. I don’t know about the others that you did this to? I hope they told you off to.
MIKEY – Do you really want to be charged with harassement especially with everything else going on
ME – go a head Mikey do you really think I am scared. DO IT! I am not agraid of your games and I am not afriad of you
MIKEY – I will
Me – I don’t care
MIKEY – you will
ME – How about I show them how you groomed me off of facebook with the messages that I have from you How about I show that you said you were not useing me for sex but you did
MIKEY – Yah..and even better when I have all your texts
MIKEY – You are man crazy remember..
ME – you lied to me you lied about everything
MIKEY – that don’t means shit..Enough
ME – why because the truth hurts
MIKEY – I m calling
ME – You said you were a pig
MIKEY – you are nuts
ME – I should have listened to you.. yes I am nuts I believed you, that makes me crazy as hell
MIKEY – get help
ME – this is my help
MIKEY – get help
ME – reaming your ass out is helping me greatly
MIKEY – explain that to the cops
ME- I am starting to feel so much better
MIKEY – Its illegal
ME – giving you back what you gave me..take back your lies..take back your excuses for being a pig..
MIKEY – Grace fuck off.. you need help
ME – what you need to do is see who you really are..see your reality Mike..You are raising two young women while you treat women like shit..that is your karma Mike. You grow up and start acting like a man and a father. Stop being a pig an a slut..No woman deserves to be treated the way you treated me. If you want your girls to know how men should treat a woman start living it yourself.. You behave like a fucked up teenager overdosing on his own hormones. Coward.. you cant take back what you have given out. Beacuse you simply are not man enough to handle the fucking hard cold honest truth as to who you are. How you treat others and how you even treat yourself by treating other human beings with cruelty and lack of remorse for that cruelty.
It turns out he did call the police and they did call me..telling me that it was harassment..as it was considered unwanted communcation..I told the police what the text messages were about..what the communication was..that I was not threatening his person..that I was saying my peace after what he had done to me and how he had treated me..the police officer thought he was a whimp..for calling them over a 115 pound 5ft woman telling him off..he thought it was the funniest thing..but he still had to tell me that it was harrasment and that I had to stop…I told the police man about Adrian Taylors text messages to me and how he had threated to come over to my house to confront me infront of my children and how I had not called the police then as I thought I could handle it..unless Adrian knocked on my door was I going to call the police to bother them with BS..the police man said I had more balls than MIKEY LOL
I read these following teasing text messages to the police officer..that I had also text messaged to MIKEY…as I love to use humor in everything..they made me laugh my ass off..I will write out the text so you can read them before I share with you the police man’s reaction.
ME TO MIKEY – I just went and re read all the text. I think the cops will think I did a good job…Lets hope they are women cops…they will want to play with your bum MIKEY..MIKEY with a baton up his bum..LOL..I wonder if they will make you lick it after? They may tie you down. I will have to tell them you don’t like it…it makes you scared..scawwwed little MIKEY with a baton up his bum.
I could hardly get past the first sentence with..the play with your bum MIKEY and the police man just couldn’t stop laughing..I am sure he was putting all the police women that he knows in the senario..he just couldn’t stop laughing..then he made me laugh cause he was laughing so hard..he said to me ” you are going to be all right with that attitude..damn your funny.”
So anyways my readers that is my SHADOW my darkside..I explored it well with MIKEY..AND I DON’T regreat a thing a said!
I spelt his first and last names wrong on purpose..so that he could retain some privacy