Making LOVE out of nothing at all

The best part about anger is that it is really creative stuff. Just like mucky clay; you can use a negative angry experience to your greater good.

Everytime something gets messy in my life I get busy creating something out of it. I have writen down my thoughts and feelings since I was a small child, since I can remeber I was able to paint and draw. One way of dealing with difficulties it to develop a sick sense of humor, if you can learn to laugh at sorrow you got it beat.

It was anger that pused me into finnally starting this blogging site. I had writen my book, but I just couldn’t get a publisher to pick me up LOL. I want to self publish but right now I am waiting to see if the College will refund my tuition fees after my ex made it impossible to attend classes by refusing to pay for his share of day care expenses.

I was interested in this guy who is a writer; one again our stupid little email chit chat; got stupid again ( do I sound angry LOL ?) It ended with him calling my Phyco, guess I was for trying to be friends and having romantic feelings for a ghost. I say ghost because I met him twice in 10 months but we exchanged many emails that always ended up with me saying something wrong. This time I wanted to meet him in person for a coffee. Turns out I was being coniving cause I told him we had to meet in person or just stop the silly email stuff. Then coniving turned into phyco cause I basically told him to get his head out of the clouds or his ass.. were ever it was; cause I couldn’t tell by email LOL. Now that I am writing it all out its really making me laugh; it sounds so silly. All that time I was trying to convince him that I am perfectlys sane while sounding to him like I was going slowly crazy. Damn thats funny!

Right now Iam on POF as a writer tying to get information from guys about what they want out of women for my next book. YOU WOULDN’T BELIEVE HOW MANY GUYS TELL ME THEIR LAST GIRLFRIEND WAS CRAZY!!! Its true! All women are fricken nuts! Hahahahahhaaaaaaa LOL

I read this book cover at Chaptes titled ” WOMEN ARE CRAZY MEN ARE STUPID” LOL that is how we percieve each other when we are pissed off. Cause you know I think he is damn STUPID; yup I told him so too LOL. I know I am not chopped liver; common! I have been told I got it goin on LOL

But anyway I digress; the piont I am tring to make is that I went on his blogg all sad one night; the night I started the blogg; and I thought ” what the hell if he can do it so can I” ” I have more talent in my big toe than he has in his entire body.” I am saying that very indignantly LOL.

That anger pushed me into doing this FINALLY. I picked-up my ” WORDPRESS FOR DUMMIES” and I taught myself how to do it in one night SOOOOO HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! LOL

Cause my friends; SHIT grows stuff! You can plant as seed in shit and it will grow very well because of the shit lol; then it will bare fruit, and more seeds with drop from that fruit and more life will be created from those seeds…. and so on!

So don’t waste it! Everything can be turned into a positive….nothing is shit!

Now I am going to sound sorry for myself a little bit. I just can’t seem to find a guy that really wants to get to know me. I seems to me men want women to fit into their lives; it doesn’t seem to be a question if they fit into our live or my life. I have never met a man that has been interested in really getting to know who I am as a person. They like to tell me who they think I am though or who the would like me to become for them. I really hate it when guys tell me who I am when they never took the time to listen to me in the fist place. I think at this piont in time I am going to remain single for those reasons. Its like hello my eyes are up here stupid.LOL I said STUPID lol. But really when my lips are moving how about listening to what I am saying instead of thinking about what you would like to put in my mouth. You know they are thinking about it when they get this dreamy look in their eyes while staring at your mouth as a creepy little half smile crosses their lips. STOP IT STUPID and listen to me. Like DAMN!

Oh I am enjoying my rant; I hope you did!

  • the shark

    you are a dumb fucking bitch……….

    the shark

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      OMG I am laughing so hard.. yup the Shark just tried to take a nice bite out of my ass.. that is just priceless :) :) :)

      • the shark

        yes it is priceless, because you need a life….blogging on your own, like anyone gives a shit about what you have to say…

        you are talking to yourself in a room by yourself….that is the true definition of fucking nutz….

        shake your head dumb fuck

        • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

          Honestly Rob (AKA.. THE SHARK) I am glad to see your comments.. if you didn’t care about what I had to say you wouldn’t be commenting or reading the blog..POINT PROVEN.. with your need to comment.

          Many historical works were writen by writers in rooms by themselves..that is how many of the great thinkers of the world come to their conclusions.. through solitude and meditation.. Your comments show you your true nature..you are working in the EGO and you are showing this to yourself and to others who read this blog.. thank you for the insight and for being a great example of the EGO in action…:)

          • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

            This is why I chose to use you as an example I knew that you couldn’t help yourself..

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      Educate youself and read it

  • the shark

    i didn’t read your fucking blog…and my name is rick you dumb fuck….

    get a life

  • Glen

    sounds like Rick or Dick or whatever has some anger management issues . . . sad . . .

    So Grace, has this blogging been helping . . . I find writing helps bring the thoughts into perspective

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      hahah ya Rick or Dick has some problems with women LOL.. yes the blogging has been a wonderful experience.. I love interacting with my readers.. I look forward to the comments.. good, bad and even the ugly! It helps my creative energy.. Every person that has been apart of my life has helped to make me who I am today. I hope to give others insight and to give myself more insight into whom I am and what my purpose is. Thank you for the comment :)

      • Glen

        Morin . . . I worked with a Kevin Morin . . . interesting . . . not worried about your spelling, I find when I need to pour out thoughts that the letters trip all over each other . . . something to sort out later . . . good fortune on your journey

  • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

    Thanks Glen.. it is a brilliant journey!

  • Just Passing By

    You can self-publish hard copy books on lulu.com
    For an ebook, try amazon.com

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      Yes I am aware of this Just Passing by.. as soon as my house sells and the assets are liquid,, I plan on doing just that… but the FUN part is that.. this work isn’t finished yet.. it is still unfolding.. like a beautiful adventure.. this is real life!!! I am loving every step of the way.. the path spirals out before me with each step ( each POST ) this is my life’s work.. I am loving every miracle that I encounter along the way……..LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!!! One day; this will be published.. I hope to publish it raw.. with spelling mistakes and bad grammar..( my poor english teacher.. he is one of my facebook friends LOL) put I want the work to represent REAL LIFE! I love the raw creative potential…OHHHHH I just can’t express how THRILLING this is! JOY!

  • Jesus del Torro el Jesus Ramses III

    You write like this, and you’re trying to get published? Good luck.

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      I just read this one.. from Jesus..who’s real name is Mike Tremblay.. who I had a fling with until..I saw his game..very early on.. tried to establish the best friends with benifits crap.. very poor attempt Mike.. it just shows that you need to work on your own life..

      • http://fromscott.wordpress.com Scott Mitchell

        hmm, Mike. The friends with benefits thing has to be mentioned in the beginning, not as a game switch… :)

      • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

        Yup Scott.. he turned into a jerk very fast.. it went from.. a relationship starts with friendship.. I slept with him and then it went to.. I don’t want a relationship… just a friendship.. I call that bullshit.. LOL.. it didn’t work..I got mad and ran him off..then he wrote all over the blog.. you can see his handy work on the post ( Women of the world today).. he still will not admitt that it’s him commenting under a fake name..

        Ohhhh the games… men like this..are the kind that I have attracted into my life..that’s why I wrote the post ( Stupid..me) last night.. I am so finished with trying to impress Mr. Unattainable.. he can play his games by himself..cause I fold.. I am in.. I want a healthy love ;)

  • http://fromscott.wordpress.com Scott Mitchell

    I’m liking your blog more and more. Lol, and to see negative reactions from those written about even makes it more interesting. I love your calm handling of the matter.
    Us guys are bad. Even after ending something we have little outbursts of negativity and sometimes insults. Allow me to apologize for him. It just shows he has a pain for the loss of you in his heart. I hope he heals soon. I’ve done the same recently, but not as dramatic. Maybe I have issues, lol.

    Take care

  • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

    Thanks Scott.. We all have issues.. don’t be hard on yourself.. there is courage in just facing them..forgiving them… we are all human..these men that have wrote these things..they secretly wish they could own me.. and I know that..they wish they could be half as brave as I am..they wish to take a piece of my courage for themselves..but they need to realise they have their own light..we all do..we just need to own our own power..concentrate and cultivate the light of our own soul..to move into the power of our own greatness..

    Little did they know they waisted their time concentrating on trying to take pieces of me..when they should just see that they have their own divine light :)

  • Chris Richards

    You know, I stumbled upon Gracie’s Blog quite by accident, we have a mutual friend on Facebook. I found it to be an interesting perspective on her own life and trials. Her vision and outlook on life and her life experiences is refreshing and entertaining.My comments, however are for the two guys who took the time to comment on her blog. Before I begin, however, I strongly encourage you to grab a dictionary….It’s the big brown book on your Mom’s bookshelf. I am assuming you still live with Mom because after reading your comments, it is hard to imagine that either of you are capable of functioning on your own…First off, as far as Grace’s pictures go, they are sensual, not sexual….A little life experience would help you to determine the difference. I also note that everything Gracie does and says is under her own name. She does not hide behind a pseudonym, unlike you.Just in case you did not find the dictionary, A pseudonym is a name that a person or group assumes for a particular purpose, which differs from his or her original or true name. She is not ashamed of herself or her choices in life. She freely admits she made some poor ones, just like all of us. Now, I need to explain how choices work because you are incapable of understanding. When something comes on TV, that I don’t like, I change the channel. When someone posts something on the internet, I can choose to click and read the link or not. If I think I have something constructive to say, I may even comment on it. In this world, too many people deal with anger and frustration in unhealthy ways, usually involving handguns and tequila…Gracie chose to deal with her challenges by writing about them. I don’t condemn her for that, I applaud her for it. You know, I have been continuously amazed by my male species perspective on sex. If a guy beds down a hundred women, he’s a stud in the eyes of his peers. If a woman has the audacity to explore her sexuality, she’s a slut? Not sure where the logic in that comes into play but I strongly suspect it is rooted in your own insecurities about your own sexuality. You can actually get help with that. So many people lack satisfaction in this area of their life because they fail to understand what a promotes a healthy satisfying sexual relationship. It has nothing whatsoever to do with your body, your attributes or your “technique” . Virtually every human being is capable of engaging in sex. We all have the same equipment whether you are male or female. True satisfaction comes from Passion. If you lack Passion for your partner, there is no relationship and no true pleasure.

    Keep up the Blog Gracie. And, if you write the book, let me know, I’ll buy it. As far as you two guys go, seek some help before you self destruct. You need to find some way of dealing with your issues and anger that don’t result in raging outbursts that make no sense.

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      Wow Chris! Thank you so much.. and thanks for educating these men.. You are a true man in every sense of the word and the understanding of what a real man should be.. I just can’t say thank you enough.. I am truly humbled and touched by your honesty and bravery at writing such a amazing and intelligent comment! :) <3

  • http://fromscott.wordpress.com Scott Mitchell

    Quite a friend you have there Grace. Friends committed in such a way are truly a treasure. Continue being blesses sweetie

    • http://fromscott.wordpress.com Scott Mitchell

      oops, blessed** :)

      • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

        Thank you Scott.. I am blessed to have you reading my blog as well..and to have your comments and support.. please feel free to find and friend me on facebook if you have a account.. I am under the same name.. Gracie Ackerman.. I use my Boudior photography as my facebook profile pic..so you should find me easily ;)

      • http://fromscott.wordpress.com Scott Mitchell

        Ok, got you :)
        You’re right. Your profile was the immediate one to appear. Talk soon I hope!

  • Chris Richards

    By the way Gracie, your spelling does not “suck”. It is a proven scientific fact that many writers think faster than they can type or even express themselves. Mark Twain was a prime example of this. If you read his rough drafts, they were almost gibberish. He had dozens of people who went over his work to put it into context. Thought patterns are never linear especially when you try to describe events, thoughts and feelings. It tends to pour out of you…….Nothing wrong with that…..Oh, and you are correct…., all women are a little crazy…It comes from trying to understand men…… :)

    • http://gracieackerman.wordpress.com Grace

      Very true Chris.. my thoughts run fast and firey.. watching and checking my spelling only frustrates me. It is a show of my rebelious artistic nature to leave it as is.. I love that it shows my unquiness..hahah I think I spelt that wrong LOL..

      It is had for all of us to understand the oposite sex.. men think like men and women like women.. I love the difference.. I don’ t want him to be just like me.. I want a man to be a man..and I should hope most men feel the same about women.

      please send me a friend request on facebook if you like.. I would love to have you as a facebook friend ;)

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