JUDGMENT

My sisters email to me on July 15, 2012
Early this morning I heard your voice like in a dream call out to me.
” Chrissy, I don’t think I believe in God anymore!”
I was never going to respond to your website in which you e-mailed me the link, but after early this morning I have a few questions.
One day you will stand in judgment before God and he will ask you some questions, one of which might go something like this. “Grace I sent my son, a perfect ransome to die in unbearable pain to take on not only your sins, but the sins of this world. What have you done to uphold this?”
 What will you answer?” ” My Lord I brought glory back to myself and awearness to others about thier sexual stuff (as stated on you web page), using  the God & Goddess of archetypical ( caues that is important), I spent a good portion of my earthly money in order to do this, thinking I was covering up shame, but know standing before You, the most might one of all time, I feel so muchshame. I led people astray who didn’t really know You and obviously desperate men by using my sexuality, after that they pretty much believed anything.
 I was frusterated and impatient to wait for your answers, so consulted psychics ( as I found them more reliable and quicker than You, I learned to read tarot cards, crystal balls, ouija boards and studied spell casting books ( these I thought could come in handy if someone crossed me). I took your word the Bible( I didn’t trust nor believe it could hold up after all these years, and all the different translations) so I threw a warp into it to justify myself, and give me better leverage ( what could it hurt I didn’t believe it at the time anyhow). I worshiped other God’s andGodesses and proclaimed myself as one, higher than all other men that all walk the earth and your very own angels. I also worshiped Idols made of the very elements of the earth you created, not taking into mind that you are the Creater and this goes against your word ( which again I did not believe). I leaned onto my own understanding creating a world all of my own, inviting as many others to follow. I refused to believe I only needed You and that I was sad, lonely, lost, angry, confused and often hopless like many men. The truth seemed harder to face and I wanted to be and feel special, so instead of jumping over all these hurdles I decided it would be far to much work and going around them would be easier. Lord may I still come and live with you in your home, and will you grant me eternal life?”
My Reply to her July, 15, 2012

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

T’was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
‘Tis Grace that brought me safe thus far
and Grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me.
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

When we’ve been here ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun.
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we’ve first begun.
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

I believe in God; in your ignorance you just don’t see, you are blinded by hate but my eyes have been opened by love. I was once blind like you, I was once asleep, but now through LOVE I AM AWAKE AND THROUGH LOVE I TRULY SEE.

I have done the work of the divine, I sacrificed my privacy, I gave up my flesh for the world to see, not an act of the ego but an act of humility. It is only sin you see as shame you cling to in your fear of the hell you live in daily my dear; this hell it is your perception plain and clear.

Your prejudices you cling to, as they give you a false sense of power, like a security blanket that a small child clings to, you cling to age old perceptions that have kept humankind in the dark for centuries. You judge me and call me a sinner, while doing so you sin yourself.. therefor are we not equal, if I sin then so do you.. the point is equality. Ignorance is judgement.. you have no right to judge as I have no right to judge.. live and let live.

  • No Judgment Sister

    Christina says
    Oh I expected you to publish it – anything for attention.
    QUESTION- So you are saying you are guided by a higher power and I am not?
    Hummm if your answer is yes then who preytell is the judger?

    From: Gracie Ackerman
    To: Christina
    Sent: Sunday, July 15, 2012 9:29:22 AM
    Subject: Re: Website

    I published your email on the blog with my response; in actuality you are just helping push the message forward by your judgments disguised as questions. I will not call you Christina. I had a dream about you a few nights ago, in the dream you were sticking knives in my back.. you would not stop. It is what you are doing now. It is not about my book it is about you sister doing something good with her life and standing out from you, you are just trying to use religion and dogma to control me and shame me. It will not work, I am guided by a higher power, and it doesn’t matter if you believe it or not. It is power of light and love, not judgement and hatred.
    I gave you the website link hoping that you would be open minded but knowing in my heart that you wouldn’t not. I just got the knife throwing over with, that way I can see them coming.

    From: Christina
    I don’t judge what you read was concern about your judgment from God, therefore there is no hate. I have no huge ego, I practice humility and try to be meak. I don’t live in hell, I live closely and learn everyday to develop a even closer relationship with my saviour, becaues of this I have no fear, my life belongs to him. I am all His and He has the greater plan for me and my life, n ot nice of you to judge that God would choose fear. I never judged you, read it again I asked you some questions and asked if that is how you would answer them. Nice try though. It’s a slow fade when you give yourself away
    It’s a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
    Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
    When you give yourself away
    People never crumble in a day
    It’s a slow fade, it’s a slow fade

    Be careful little ears what you hear
    When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
    Be careful little lips what you say
    For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
    [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/casting+crowns/slow+fade_20445103.html ]
    It’s a slow fade when you give yourself away
    It’s a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
    Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
    When you give yourself away
    People never crumble in a day

    The journey from your mind to your hands
    Is shorter than you’re thinking
    Be careful if you think you stand
    You just might be sinking
    It’s a slow fade when you give yourself away
    It’s a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
    Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
    When you give yourself away
    People never crumble in a day
    Daddies never crumble in a day
    Families never crumble in a day

  • http://twitter.com/goddessofsacred Gracie Ackerman

    Christina you just sound nuts!

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