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That one in a million guy will get me

 

Driving with my son this afternoon from Vernon back home to Armstrong, we had the windows rolled down as if to welcome the sunshine and spring into the car. The sweet smell of animal shit came wafting in and I said to my son as he made a face ” That sweet smell of the country.” it was like a welcome home. Both me and my boy are learning to leave the pretentiousness of Kelowna behind us. Later that evening we decided through a friends advice not to dye his hair metalic blue because Armstrong isn’t Kelowna and his farm kids friends just wouldn’t get it. Then my girlfriend said to me ” Gracie the real you isn’t like the person you post online. I mean it is and it isn’t. The Gracie I see is low key and nature loving. You didn’t fit into Kelowna because you are not high maintenance. Like I understand why you do what you do online, but other people just will not get it especially guys. But I get it because I have to run a business and but on my business face just like you have your online profile ego and I know that it is both sides to the coin for both of us, and that we are just country girls at home.. but to other people who don’t really know you they just will not get it.” than I said to her ” But you found a guy that gets it, you found that ( one in a million guy ) that guy that is the redneck, country boy at home but the high flying business dude at work.. so if you can than I stand a chance of meeting a man that can get me and my two sides of the coin just like all of us? Or at least I hope so, because the work I do online is important and I need the ego or the persona to get the attention for the message.”

But yes she is absolutley right, it is going to be very difficult to find the man or have the one in a million man find me going by my online profile. Women’s sexual empowerment and equality, and calling myself a feminist is going to scare off a lot of men or attract men who get the wrong idea. When I was in Kelowna W. Brett Wilson called me crazy and pretentious because he is used to women like that obviously, but I think he spoke for most men who would judge me the same way going by what I post online. He told me I was attention seeking, and by a base line one size fits all defintion he was correct. The online Gracie does want attention to get the message out that a woman getting attention for her sexuality isn’t evil, slutty or shameful; but the Gracie at home in her daily life.. well I am actually quite simple. I am a little jock/nerd/mommy/country girl. Yes I am an intellectual as I can tell you that the feminine archetype I am describing here is the Artemis/Venus. You see Artemis is the other side of the coin of Venus.. so Venus would be high maintenance and very sensual and Artemis is the chaste, athletic woman or girl. A woman goes from both one to the other and that confuses men, a psychologist will know exactly what I am talking about.

I have been in my inner Artemis for a few years now as I haven’t had a sexual partner for 2 1/2 years now. I know that seems like a total contradiction towards what I put out online towards women’s sexual freedom and empowerment. Of course many men and women will assume by my online profile that I have many partners and lots of sex; but it is also my freedom to explore being chaste.

I have had a very similar conversation  with another girlfriend of mine who is working on becoming a psycholigist; as to how in my daily life and upon getting to know me personally how I am both the Artemis and the Venus and as to how I am very much the Artemis right now in my daily life. Artemis is also very grounded and intouch with nature and children.

Another of my girlfriends was telling me how awful it is that a woman cannot say she is a strong woman and than say she also wants a relationship with a man, without the world judging her as weak. She is right. I believe a strong woman can do it on her own but she is also strong by letting a man do for her, and a strong man will not want her to do everything for herself but will want to help her and show her love by helping her. I am not an old school feminist who believes that wanting and having a man in her life is weak, I believe becoming a couple with the right person can make you stronger in many ways. Most men and women will judge me online as not being open towards bring in a masculine man or country gentleman towards me for calling myself a feminist.

I am a very spiritual woman but I can’t handle spiritual flakery; I don’t want to attract a spiritual nutcase either. I think he will be my opposite and even possibly be an atheist to counteract or balance me. That is why opposites attract. I guess my one in a million guy will be like me in the fact that he can be all business and serious about his work out in the world like I am with my book and blog; but be a sweet, and chill redneck country boy at home.. He will be the one that is smart enough and brave enough to understand why and what I am doing online, and stand by me; but also he will have the wisdom and common sense to see that I am really a pure and simple soul.

As a mom it’s really hard to write, it was really difficult to take the selfie I posted here; as I try to write someone always wants and needs something and when I was taking the selfie my son kept banging on my bedroom door. I was lucky to get the pic first try. Trying to edit my blog and to edit the image… ya right.

In real life, my life is very nitty gritty. I don’t party because it’s just too much work and I like my sleep so I can get up and lift and workout in the mornings. I am actually quite basic, very loyal to my friends and family. I have never cheated on a man and I am a one man, woman. I like my daily life simple and sweet. In many ways I  can be quite old fashioned.

A good omen

I was running Knox Mt, Kelowna BC Canada.. when I saw a bald eagle sitting regal at the top of a tall pine.. He was level with me as the tree he was roosted on was growing down the mountain side that I ran the trail above.. I stopped to jog in one place to get a good look at him.. the morning sun gleaning in his beaming yellow eyes.. we were up close and personal.. he was huge! Just then a group of women came walking up the trail..as I jogged still in one spot ..to keep up my heart rate; they stopped to see what I was looking at.. they awed ..and we talked about what he was thinking about.. I said for the eagle ” I am hot because I am an eagle and your not cause I am the eagle ” we had a little chuckle.. because seriously this guys body language was pure pride.. and so I continued on to run hard down the rest of the trail.. out running the guy in the water..in the canoe that was trying to out run me.. I won.. just as prideful as the eagle I guess..cause not only did I beat him to the beach but I ran past the beach..to the top of the Mountain..then back down the trail to the beach to have my swim..on my return I was the only one at the beach.. I stripped down to my jog bra.. I was already wearing short marathon shorts..that was my swim suit.. country girl fashion all the way.. no make up.. and red faced I ran into the water..and dove in head first.. as I was face up doing the back stroke I saw the eagle flying over me.. something was in it’s talons .. it seemed to spiral as it fell right onto my belly.. I thought it was just a stick.. as I continued to splash about I felt something wrap around my arm.. I thought I was being a paranoid silly girl.. so I just kept moving until I felt it let go..whatever it was..but after my 20 min swim.. I saw the dead snake in the water.. the eagle had given me a gift.. I am sure he didn’t mean to .. I am sure he meant to keep the snake for himself..but the poor snake gave it a good fight.. I fished her out of the water with a long stick.. poor snake had drown.. poor thing..

I did think of it as an omen at the time but I hadn’t really taken the time to analyse the significance until today.. I talked to some women at my gym that were visiting tourists .. they were doing a intense strength and conditioning workout.. much like the workouts or training sessions that I do.. many similar moves.. and the two chicken leg male bodybuilders that make fun of my moves were mimicking them as well.. I went over and apologized for their immature and insecure behavior.. then they said to me.. ” If only those guys knew we are both apart of the Canadian Olympic Team” They then introduced themselves.. and one said ” My friend here won a gold medal in cross country skiing” we shook hands and they asked my name.. I then told them to go to Knox Mt for a hike..to see the beauty of the Okanagan Valley..then I told them about the snake and eagle.. they said ” That is a good omen for you Gracie.. you have great energy Gracie..we really like your moves ” They were from Alberta…. but ya I thought ” If Olympiads..and or gold metal winners are saying it’s a good omen..well then hell yes it is! ”  ;)   they are another good omen LOL

But just last night my daughter had a very vivid dream that I was going to meet someone that was my direct opposite..someone with worldly authority..someone not like me at all.. in her dream he was my boyfriend..and he didn’t look anything like me..but he was really nice..and liked her.. ( I am tying this together with the symbolism of the eagle and the snake.. just bare with me here )

This is what I learned from this source https://misfitsandheroes.wordpress.com/tag/eagle-and-serpent/ 

“”The Eagle and the Serpent as One Entity

Pliny the Elder (c.100 AD), in his work Natural History, refers to a certain large serpent that fights with eagles.  It tries to steal the eagle’s eggs.  In the struggle, the snake wraps itself around the eagle so tightly that the two look like one animal with two heads.  This is a very early reference to the eagle and snake involved in a match of equal, opposite powers.  It’s also a reference to what seems to be the combined animal – the winged serpent.

At this point, when the eagle and serpent are perfectly paired opposites, they represent not victory or defeat but dynamic cosmic completion, the union of spirit and matter, as shown in the Japanese emblem (illustration).

This is the same combination as the American Indian winged rattlesnakes, the Mesoamerican feathered serpent, the Egyptian winged snake goddess Wadjet, and the paired winged, serpent-tailed creator beings in Chinese myth.  This is the force that drives the universe as the celestial bird and the serpent wheel forever, in perfect balance of opposite energies, around the portal of heaven.

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It is such an interesting and very ancient symbol.. like yin yang..or the masculine and the feminine.. it shows to powerful people combining forces to create something very dynamic or shape shifting..being able to shape a new reality..

I really hope it comes true!

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