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Grace and The Goddess Within


I have learned many things since publishing me book and website several years ago. I learned how innocent I was to the ways of the world, I was silly to believe that I could change the world suddenly with my book and message about freeing women’s sexuality from male based religions and government rule. These structures based on the worship of male gods, male power and male archetypes have been in place for 1000s and 1000s of years and so it will take many more years and even centuries for humanity to evolve past these concepts that are causing the self destruction of humanity and this earthly realm. Most people have less than average intelligence at best and many people are brainwashed or too programmed into these belief systems and cultures to know how sick it is actually making them.

I realize now that I have been fighting a loosing battle and that I lost the beauty of myself and my own divinity from time to time in the battle. I have been needlessly combating when I should of just sheathed my sword and stopped casting my pearls upon swine. I am humblingly addmitting that my spiritual guides told me that fame and all that comes with it were never to be mine; that was the spiritual agreement that I made long before coming to this earthly realm; if others choose to believe me or not it doesn’t change the spiritual agreement. My spiritual family has told me many times to let go and flow with the divine as everything and everyone is in divine order and timing. I lived out my contract and completed my mission and now my life is mine. So with that I am choosing self preservation over being the female savior; as it is done. I sacrificed so much of myself and my personal ego identity and of course others will not see it or even be able to contemplate this spiritual work. But it doesn’t stop the power of the seed that has been well planted for future generations to reep the rewards of the fruit of it’s maturity, when the divine decides it is time.

My life has become very spiritual in the last few months and that is why I have not written on my blog because I wish to savor it and keep my soul close to my heart. My heart has opened and bloomed towards The Divine Feminine even more as I remain still in the womb of her and her in me. But of course, when I am in my most human moments I do fear the politics of division that are further dividing women and men through chaos and lies, yet I pray to a power that is much higer than the Gods that man’s ego greed has created as they blocked out the sun and the truth from all of us, because I come from them and they tell me they are coming here and they are here; because it is time. They that are of this world will soon face divine judgement; they speak of time being up but they are hiding the truth still as they have hidden the ancient of ancients behind false gods and lies built upon these false gods. There is a power far greater than the ideals of men and this is the true father and mother of creation. And so time is bending in on it’s self and what was old shall be new again and justice; the justice of the divine will be given in the way of the shining light of truth. And this gives me comfort to know that I helped make this way for them to usher in, as I am and we all are a part of this great plan.

Now I am walking into the light and I am being love, as I am seeking love; and now I will emerse in my Divine Feminine Goddess and let the Divine take up the sword.

Spiritual Ego Persona


The spiritual ego persona is the branding of a person or persona towards the marketing of a spiritual practice. Examples of spiritual practices – yoga, meditation, reciting and creating mantras, fasting or vegan diets, prayer, sweat lodges, spiritual retreats, readings and vision quests. The marketing of these practices turns the spiritual practice into dogma and even into fundamentalist beliefs and perspectives. Spiritual practices are meant to be given by a spiritual teacher towards helping the seeker find away towards breaking negative and destructive patterns of behavior. Spiritual practices are meant to be uniquely crafted by the spiritual teacher for the seeker so that they can make their specific unconscious patterns of behavior conscious, or raise them up towards the surface of awareness to be healed.

I am writing this because I am seeing an online trend towards just about anyone picking up a deck of tarot cards or oracle cards and doing live videos on Facebook, then projecting a spiritual ego persona that is leading people away from true awareness and ¬†spiritual health. I was working for a YouTube famous astrologer who had a media lady take over her marketing. I learned through her trying to create a spiritual persona for me, to market me, just how fake spiritual marketing can be. It is dangerous. Many people who are hired by people like this media lady are often just as misguided as the people they are selling their guidance to. I was hired by the astrologer before the media lady came on board, and because I wouldn’t lie I was soon phased out and given no promotion by her and so I quit to go and work on my own; choosing to release myself from the negative energy. The people that her media specialist chose to hire after she phased out the many like myself that had a true talent and connection to a higher place; well they are desperate people who are willing to be puppets of manipulation just for money. I am sorry to tell you that many spiritualists and readers online have a persona and are willing to sell you endless readings leading you in circles just to keep you paying for more.

I recently had a client tell me I was wrong in one of my readings, she was upset. I told her the truth ” I am wrong sometimes because I am a human being. I am not a guru but I do have a natural talent and high intuition.” but many of the fake spiritualist online will tell you they are 100% accurate all the time. I see people as paying for my time and my 90% accuracy and so that is why my rates are affordable. A reader or spiritualist cannot affect your free will or the free will of others, we can only tell you what our guides and the cards show us.

And so as synchronicity would have it,  as I was thinking about writing this post I asked my guides and angels to help me find more information towards confirming my thoughts and towards helping me explain myself, or to clarify. I came upon a page on Facebook called Tantra where they posted a video bite from Stephen Wollinsky called ( Nothing comes from Nothing ) on Youtube, were he was talking about the spiritual traps or the illusions of spirituality, then by comments they sent me to the full video, that is just over 2 hrs long. I took some short notes on what I gathered from him and his wisdom to share with you.

The spiritual ego or persona perpetuates the need for perfection or purity for the sake of lifestyle or trends, as to how you look, the clothes you wear, how you act or behave that leads one more towards the material world than awareness.

Spirituality or the trap of being caught in spiritual practices for the sake of ego persona leads to ego illusion instead of towards the nothingness or absolute. Spirituality becomes a game and it leads to dogma and manipulations when practiced through a persona rather than as a path towards higher paths that lead to the state of zen, that brings us to the absolute or cosmic mind.

The place of zen or the way towards the cosmic mind is through the paradox of ( I am and I am not ) ( There is everything and there is nothing ) it is the space between the breaths or the cracking of an atom.

False Gurus or spiritual teachers are about who they are rather than about who you are, they are about you following their spiritual personification or ego rather than helping you find the right path towards becoming your own Guru or awareness.

Real Gurus are not popular because they practice the zen of being within the paradox; not being within their personifications. They know I am and I am not. I real spiritual leader or teacher will not sell you instant gratification or glamour, they will not sell you on sugar coated words; a real Guru will crack your ego personifications wide open. A real Guru or teacher will show you the unconscious parts of your soul and help you expose them to the light. There is nothing glamorous and glitzy about the real teachers.

A false Guru or teacher traps you with spiritual games such as dogma and guilt trips; a real Guru sets you free.

We also see some that preach about manifestation, really preaching about desire that promotes lack rather than abundance as it draws our attention to what we don’t have, rather than gratitude. Some abundance manifestation is really the greed of the material world rather than seeking the abundance of love and health as well as worldly wealth. Some abundance manifestation practices can lead us to attachment rather than awareness and true enlightenment.

The awakened do not desire through the perception of the ego for there is nothing to desire in a world of illusion but to become aware and conscious of the dream or illusion.

The dangers of New Age Marketing is that it is leading us away from the soul’s journey, and towards more ego density or desire.