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An Organized Goddess Religion

 

 

Why would we want an organized Goddess religion when we know what religion has done to the world by causing inequality and wars? A Goddess religion could create a balance in society by being a fair and just religion that is equal; creating equalities and justice for all the people by the way it is practiced and by the way it’s dogmas or rules are formed to support all of humanity. The patriachial religions that exist today uphold a few men; by sex and sexual orientation. The patriarchial relgion particulary hates women causing great inequality and the war of the sexes as women and gays sexuality is judged as file by the following scriptures.

Leviticus 27: 3 -7 God defines the value of women as 60 percent of men’s value

Leviticus – If a man lies with a man as one lies with a woman,both of them have done what is detestable, they must be put to death.

Islam – don’t marry a women that are already married unless they are slaves that you stole in war

Hindu – Males aged 24 and 30 should marry females between the ages of 8 and 12

Judaism – A womanis a sack of excretment

Buddhism – Nuns have one third more rules to follow than monks in the vinaya-pitaka. The failed man becomes a woman in the next life.

Jainism – Women cannot achieve liberation without being reborn as men first.

Anyone who knows anything about religion can find passages like this riddled throughout patriarchial religions text or scriptures of multiple different religions that were created by men in the name of a male god. For thousands of years these religions that clearly teach hate and sexual repression have also created societies that act in tern. We see this hate and bigotry seeped into governments legislation and laws. If a religion existed that stood up against this religion’s bigotry we could create a more balanced and psychologically healthy world or society.

So my dear reader lets create it. First every religion needs deities; because The Goddess is about justice and balance she chooses to stand with her God, and their children and so we have The Divine Feminine, The Divine Masculine and all their creations, including all of nature. This is a religion based on seeing sex as sacred rather than as evil or sinful. This religion is based upon loving all that is natural including the needs and wants of the body. The body is seen as the sacred holy temple of the divine light of the soul. All races and sexual orientations are welcomed and loved in The Goddess Relgion as sacred. The Goddess Religion respects that all people have a different lens that they understand the divine through and so many God and Goddess archetypes and templates are given symbols, rituals and scriptures to help us to all rise towards our divine nature; towards the highest aspects of one’s own specific divinity or soul.

Unlike the patriarchial religions that preach women’s bodies, wombs, menstruation, breastfeeding, childbirthing and ovulation as dirty and unclean; The Goddess Religion will honour the miracle and the wisdom in the life and death giving powers of the feminine body. Saying ” There is power in the blood,” will take on a new meaning. The Divine Masculine and the Divine Femine will come together once more in sacred worship. The war of the sexes will end when sex is sacred and bodies are not dirty but of love and light.

In The Goddess Religion no one will be put above others as it will be a cirlce of light rather than a ladder of success to climb in the wordly sense of powering and ego tripping above others; those who are self taught, and wise seekers will all be able to lead and organize the worship.

It will not be a place of business or of social competition as this will take away from the zen, peace, manifesting and inner soul work. It is a place were all are welcome and filled with energy not stripped of it due to wordly ventures.

Being that the church has to be established the first services would be held in rented halls; community buildings or private homes, backyards and parks. The problem with establishing the religion is getting enough people together who are brave enough to stand against the social stigmas and who have the will power to put in the time and effort to organize and execute. We have to understand that the main force behind the patriarchial religions was to control and conquer masses of peole and it still is the main force behind it. The force behind The Goddess Religion is love and acceptance or true spiritual healing vs world domination; so would that be enought to get people together to actually make it happen?

This is an organized model of a Goddess Gathering or Service

Music and singing to welcome the worshippers – they all say together under the priestess and priest ” We all come together in the Divine Light of the Eternal Mother and Father ” as this is a unification and a invocation or invitation that the God/ Goddesses join us

There would then be introductions and hugs and announcements of births/deaths/engagement/weddings/birthdays etc.

More music or even a solo performer and then there would be prayers and a guided meditation.

There would be writing and or scriptures written of the specific God or Goddess that would be a part of the specific spiritual lesson or ritual of the service. There would be symbolisms used and those making living testimony of their own spiritual experiences towards the message or meaning of the God/Goddess choosen for the worship.

More praying or specific ritual towards that diety as to close the service

An offering would then take place to support the church

The worshippers would then be sent off with more singing and music to be dismissed towards coffee and refreshments for more unformal socializing afterwards.

The services would be held in the evening of Friday 13 as this is the day of The Goddess or the feminine. There would be specialized gatherings for new and full moon rituals as well as astrology and other spiritual but not patriarchial beliefs would be included in much of the worship and ritual.

Same sex marriages would take place and open sexual relationships would not be judged. Misogyny, emasculating and child abuses would not be tolerated as all members of the church would be treated with respect and equality.

” Do unto others as you would have done unto you.” would still stand as valuable spirituality.

Of course the reality is that this religion doesn’t exist today; we still have male religious leaders giving women allowances over their bodies like ” It’s ok to breastfeed discreetly in church but don’t have abortions or use birth control.” we still have churches that refuse to let women minister and churches that refuse to include gay and lesbian people. But wouldn’t it be wonderful if this relgion existed and you could taylor God and your worship of God/Goddess to be just as unique and special as you are? It would be lovely to see us all in heaven.. but what if we created some heaven on earth?

Just maybe one day this will happen.

Justin Trudeau and the Patriarchy

 

Dear Mr. Trudeau the patriarchy is a system of society or government which men hold power and largely exclude women from it. The patriarchy is also religions based on the rule and worship of male gods that exclude female gods. It’s interesting how what we believe governs us from above manifest as governing us on earth. The worlds first spiritual or religious practices were governed by both female and male gods. The seat of religion, historically is the Middle East; this is were the three most powerful worlds religions were formed and of course were there is the highest concentration of war and violence today due to these religious beliefs or dogmas. But before Roman Times ; Gaia was believed to have been the first God or Goddess to have given birth to the cosmos and all of it’s creations. When the Middle East and Rome began to grow and expand it’s empire through war, Zues the god of war began to take over the belief systems of mankind. With the belief of all male gods men on earth began to use violence against women and their children to enslave them into being property vs being equals. We see that to this date in dogmatic beliefs that make women sex and sexuality evil, tempting, seducing and distracting towards causing men to rape them, beat them and or miss treat them. Women today in our western and eastern cultures are blamed and abandoned by a male based society that vitimizes them and then chastizes them for being victims.

To this very day men of power like yourself use women issue;s like feminism as a means of self promotion to then further control women by promoting patriarchal religions like Islam, Christianity and Judaism ( just to name the three most powerful ) as being pro- feminism or pro- diversity when in fact, the fact of their specific and fundamentalistic dogmas, these dogmas written into their scriptures as a belief system; these religions and others like them are anti-woman, anti- gay and full of hate speech – is a speech which attacks a person or group on the attributes such as race, religion, ethinic origin, sexual orientation, disablity or gender – yet you have termed the phrase Islamaphobia as a potentially hate speech to label those who appose it’s sexism or misogyny, or terrorist attacks done in it’s name as racist. What you are attempting to do is to silence freedom of speech, freedom of thought and to disolve democracy – a system of government by the whole population – there is a reason why government and religion must remain separate. Clearly government and religion must remain separate because the dogmas in religion cause hate and division by causing inequality. That inequality obviously all ready existis in this so called modern society that isn’t really modern or evolved. Women have yet to see equal pay for equal work, the law has yet to be equal or fair to women as sexism and sexual harassment exist deeply within our judicial sytems. You have yet to address in depth the sexist judges, police and courts who still further victimize women and girls for being victims of men. Yet you use your time in power to further relgion that is sexist, enslaving and violent towards women and children.

Canada is still a country that doesn’t support it’s women in children with far wages, child care and programs that help average families with, health and education so that women, children can flourish, and so that all of Canadian’s can experience a greater quality of life. It seems to many of us that you are more concerned with your own social, global profile towards other world elites than you are concerned about the health and safety of every Canadian citizen. This isn’t a populatity contest this is real life. Most Canadian’s were not born to privilege like you and it seems that you have never understood that you are not a King you are a Prime Minister of Canada, this means that you work for the people. It seems you need to be reminded of the fact that our tax dollars pay your wages and that accepting gifts of vacations from your filthy rich elitist Muslim friends ( Who of course is a man ) has erroded the people’s confidence in you. You have not put all of our interests into perspective but simply a select few whom you can use to further your own political goals and strategies. Going by the history above it is easy to reason that your goals along with the other powerful men of the world is to keep the power over women;  by confusing them into believing that patriarchial based relgions support feminism by having women internalize misgyny by being brainwashed and slut shamed by their dogmas. Having women believe that they are responsible for enticing men by exposing their bodies or expressing their sexuality is misogyny. It starts in the school system by sending young girls home for wearing shoulder bareing dresses; saying they distract the boys while teaching them that they cannot be distracted by male sexuality. These are double standards and they are inequalities; this is sexism. The government or system is teaching boys that they are not responsible for restraining themselves but that girls and women are responsible for being sexualy harassed by what they are wearing or doing. The system is not teaching men and boys not to rape but is teaching women and girls how not to be raped; this then leads to victim blaming that we see in the relgious and court systems when women and girls are raped or abused.

Religion isn’t spirituality. Spirituality is truely diverse as it doesn’t judge or condemn by dogmas as everyone has a right to believe in what they like as long as it doesn’t infringe on the personal rights and freedoms of others. Religion doesn’t allow freedom to those who don’t follow it’s dogmas; those dogmas are to condemn and to cause physical harm to others who wish to be free of them. Religious freedom is an oxymoron as it doesn’t allow freedoms to those who do not follow it or even to those who do. Religion hates women as it condemns them for their wombs blood and sexual pleasure.

If you were a true feminist like you profess to be you would not be promoting religion over women’s rights or gay rights.

The only thing that you should be speaking out about is that everyone deserves not to be terrorized by religion or for their beliefs but also no one should be able to use their religion to take away the fundamental rights of others. People do have a right to speak out and to protect themselves from anyone or group that wishes to take their rights and freedoms from them in the name of their relgion or god.

If you really want diversity than how about we include some female gods in the state holidays. On my calendar I only see holidays that pertain to male gods and male worship. But that might just be too feminist for you?

Seeing Through The Spiritual Bullshit/ Spiritual Warrior

 

My personal spirituality started in a very humble, simple and quiet way. As a child I had very vivid dreams, my dreams were so real I sometimes didn’t know if I was awake or dreaming.. so did I really see and hear angels or is my memory playing tricks on me? Ancient images spoke to me so that’s why I taught myself how to read tarot cards by studying multiple books. I taught myself  how to decifer dream images. I taught myself yoga through old books and even as a small child I enjoyed nature walks alone to commune with the Earth Mother. But now all of that has changed. Spiritualiy is becoming a trend on social media and in the publishing world. Now to be trendy you have to pay to do yoga and be seen doing yoga. You have to be a certified reader by someone whom has been published by Hayhouse. Everything in the media influenced Spiritual Community has become ego driven rather than driven by the purity of The Divine Spark Within. Just like religion we are being taught to look outside of ourselves rather than within. Spirituality is really rather simple; it is being present in the moment and being your true authentic self. There is really nothing flakey about spirituality. Tends make spirituality into flaky, bullshit.

I got caught up in the bullshit too, and I know many people in the spiritual community have been and are caught up in the shit. It is shit because it is based on greed, ego and competitive fuckery. Last year this time I worked as a reader for a YouTube famous astrologer. I really liked her and things were going well with our spiritual relationship until she hired a media assistant to work for her. This lady wanted to promote me as well as her other readers but she wanted me to be anything but authentic, she wanted to promote tinsel rather than truth and so we clashed. To make a long story short, I quit and went to work out on my own. This lady is now working with another YouTube famous astrologer and so soon she will have him cleaning up his act and lossing himself in his ego rather than shinging his authentic self. I saw my own ego through this and that was the spiritual lesson and I also saw what I didn’t want to become and that was another spiritual flaky fake. At the time I was competing in Women’sBodybuilding, I learned about my own ego this time last summer and about how the ego can lead you away from true spirituality and inner peace. I was not living in the moment and I was not comfortable in my own skin. I had let a male trainer seduce me by using my own ego to get his high and money from me, to feed his ego.My zen type fitness turned into stress and pressure rather than a simple pleasure that gave me happiness. I became wise to the fact that working toward things for others approval was a certain way of falling off the spiritual path; and that path is the true path to inner happiness. True Happiness is simple, just like real and authentic spirituality it doesn’t need any special bells and whistles. 

I think the flakery in spirituality is when we think everything is a special sign from God or the Divine. Simply, this reality exists with us and without us. Most of the time we become truly intuned with or we commune with The Divine when we have reached a state of humility, gratitude or when we are in our greatest need. Not everyting, including the stars exist to please our every whim and whimper.

I know for a fact that even without paying for an expensive yoga class or reader certification that we all have the ability to commune with the spark within and the cosmos outside of us, I know for a fact that you don’t need and app for that. You don’t need an app to contact The Divine within or in the Cosmos.

You don’t need YouTube, you don’t even need cards or images, you don’t even need me as a reader to read you, you just need to meditate and pay attention to your dreams. You just need to get outside in nature, shut your ego mind down and do a few yoga poses on a mountain. I am not saying don’t listen to astrology or don’t get a reading from me or someone else, but I am telling you to put it into perspective. Spiritualists are people too,so don’t go for all the hype and media candy; that is the bullshit.

As a spiritual person it is my first perogative to lead you towards the real light rather than the shining spotlight of the ego. We all have the priest and priestess within us just waiting to be called upon.

My main focus now is to get real with my own bullshit; and to ignore or rise above the bullshit online. I belong to very few spiritual online groups, I just can’t stand watching all the fake and flaky, egotistical guru Facebook videos people post constantly wanting to be the next biggest thing in the spiritual community.. selling snake oil much? 

 

I find myself detaching more and more from the flaky spiritual community off and online. There have been times that I have walked through a spiritual fair to feel like I was Jesus walking through the Temple full of thieves.. not everyone that owns a deck of tarot cards and crystals has a gift, everyone does have the ablity to tune in but not everyone has that extraspecial talent. Spirituality has become a trend, its now what you wear, what you eat and even how you talk. It has become a costume party for some.

I have learned a lot about letting go. I just can’t pretend to be what I am not. I believe being a true alchemist is done by accepting your humanity and human experience as your spiritual walk and lesson on this earthly realm. It really is that simple. We are here to make mistakes, have fun, cry and yes even suffer to experience the fullness of life and death. It’s just not that complicated or grand. This life and it’s lessons are humbling and in that humbing there is great beauty and love.

That one in a million guy will get me

 

Driving with my son this afternoon from Vernon back home to Armstrong, we had the windows rolled down as if to welcome the sunshine and spring into the car. The sweet smell of animal shit came wafting in and I said to my son as he made a face ” That sweet smell of the country.” it was like a welcome home. Both me and my boy are learning to leave the pretentiousness of Kelowna behind us. Later that evening we decided through a friends advice not to dye his hair metalic blue because Armstrong isn’t Kelowna and his farm kids friends just wouldn’t get it. Then my girlfriend said to me ” Gracie the real you isn’t like the person you post online. I mean it is and it isn’t. The Gracie I see is low key and nature loving. You didn’t fit into Kelowna because you are not high maintenance. Like I understand why you do what you do online, but other people just will not get it especially guys. But I get it because I have to run a business and but on my business face just like you have your online profile ego and I know that it is both sides to the coin for both of us, and that we are just country girls at home.. but to other people who don’t really know you they just will not get it.” than I said to her ” But you found a guy that gets it, you found that ( one in a million guy ) that guy that is the redneck, country boy at home but the high flying business dude at work.. so if you can than I stand a chance of meeting a man that can get me and my two sides of the coin just like all of us? Or at least I hope so, because the work I do online is important and I need the ego or the persona to get the attention for the message.”

But yes she is absolutley right, it is going to be very difficult to find the man or have the one in a million man find me going by my online profile. Women’s sexual empowerment and equality, and calling myself a feminist is going to scare off a lot of men or attract men who get the wrong idea. When I was in Kelowna W. Brett Wilson called me crazy and pretentious because he is used to women like that obviously, but I think he spoke for most men who would judge me the same way going by what I post online. He told me I was attention seeking, and by a base line one size fits all defintion he was correct. The online Gracie does want attention to get the message out that a woman getting attention for her sexuality isn’t evil, slutty or shameful; but the Gracie at home in her daily life.. well I am actually quite simple. I am a little jock/nerd/mommy/country girl. Yes I am an intellectual as I can tell you that the feminine archetype I am describing here is the Artemis/Venus. You see Artemis is the other side of the coin of Venus.. so Venus would be high maintenance and very sensual and Artemis is the chaste, athletic woman or girl. A woman goes from both one to the other and that confuses men, a psychologist will know exactly what I am talking about.

I have been in my inner Artemis for a few years now as I haven’t had a sexual partner for 2 1/2 years now. I know that seems like a total contradiction towards what I put out online towards women’s sexual freedom and empowerment. Of course many men and women will assume by my online profile that I have many partners and lots of sex; but it is also my freedom to explore being chaste.

I have had a very similar conversation  with another girlfriend of mine who is working on becoming a psycholigist; as to how in my daily life and upon getting to know me personally how I am both the Artemis and the Venus and as to how I am very much the Artemis right now in my daily life. Artemis is also very grounded and intouch with nature and children.

Another of my girlfriends was telling me how awful it is that a woman cannot say she is a strong woman and than say she also wants a relationship with a man, without the world judging her as weak. She is right. I believe a strong woman can do it on her own but she is also strong by letting a man do for her, and a strong man will not want her to do everything for herself but will want to help her and show her love by helping her. I am not an old school feminist who believes that wanting and having a man in her life is weak, I believe becoming a couple with the right person can make you stronger in many ways. Most men and women will judge me online as not being open towards bring in a masculine man or country gentleman towards me for calling myself a feminist.

I am a very spiritual woman but I can’t handle spiritual flakery; I don’t want to attract a spiritual nutcase either. I think he will be my opposite and even possibly be an atheist to counteract or balance me. That is why opposites attract. I guess my one in a million guy will be like me in the fact that he can be all business and serious about his work out in the world like I am with my book and blog; but be a sweet, and chill redneck country boy at home.. He will be the one that is smart enough and brave enough to understand why and what I am doing online, and stand by me; but also he will have the wisdom and common sense to see that I am really a pure and simple soul.

As a mom it’s really hard to write, it was really difficult to take the selfie I posted here; as I try to write someone always wants and needs something and when I was taking the selfie my son kept banging on my bedroom door. I was lucky to get the pic first try. Trying to edit my blog and to edit the image… ya right.

In real life, my life is very nitty gritty. I don’t party because it’s just too much work and I like my sleep so I can get up and lift and workout in the mornings. I am actually quite basic, very loyal to my friends and family. I have never cheated on a man and I am a one man, woman. I like my daily life simple and sweet. In many ways I  can be quite old fashioned.

Free Goddess Coaching

 

 

Being a Goddess or your best self requires that you be yourself. I know a lot of women will seach this up on the internet looking for a step by step guide as to how to be anything but themselves. That is what society has brainwashed women into believing. You are probably wanting to know what you can wear, how you can act or special places you can go to to find your Goddess. I have seen women in Goddess Cirlces dressed like fictional Goddesses and acting in fictional ways that they think will make them more attractive to men and spiritually enlightened in spiritual societies. But honestly this is just role playing or pretend they haven’t actualized their Goddess or their best selves.

If you are looking for a tend or a concept to lose yourself in then you might not want to read this.

A woman who is truly empowered isn’t seeking the approval of others. A woman who is empowered is a Goddess as she is whole to herself. A woman who is being a Goddess is being in her own skin and is seeing herself through her own eyes. You see the patriarchy has brainwashed us through the media towards seeing ourselves and our value through the male gaze. There are many Goddess teachings by female or even male coaches and writers that promote a false Goddess understanding by teaching women becoming a Goddess is to become more attractive or alluring towards male approval. If a woman is not being herself she will not be able to sustain the ACT  and the relationship or courtship that she attracts with her ACT will fail over time because eventually the mask becomes to much of a burden to wear.

Being an empowered woman or GODDESS is not a trend, it is not a fashion nor need it be a spiritual statement; becoming empowered is simply for herself, for yourself.. it is hedonistic as it is simply for the pleasure of being you. It is for the pleasure of exploring you.

A Goddess or an empowered woman is a feminist or believes in equality because she loves herself; the only way to true empowerment is to love and respect yourself.  A Goddess owns herself, her mind, body, reproductive rights, she speaks her mind and gives her opinions. A Goddess is not a damsel in destress, she saves herself but when she needs help she will seek it out because she loves herself enough to know when she needs help. A empowered woman or a Goddess empowers other women, she helps other women by giving her wisdom freely to other women and girls who cannot afford to pay for it. Like I am doing here; but she also knows her worth and isn’t shy in asking for what is due her.

A Goddess is not a brand, just like I said it is not a trend or a fashion statement; an empowered woman and empowering other women is timeless; but, except for a select few men who are more intouch with their inner feminity most Goddess Work must be taught by women who have lived as women; because you do not know what you do not know.

As an empowered woman I do not seek out fame and fortune because I know these things are fleeting; but I seek out a medium on which to share so that all women can become empowered by the message. I don’t and nor should you need the world’s attention or approval. Fame is a vehicle and money should be a shared resource to further empower others.

A Goddess or an empowered women owns her own sexuality past shame, past religious dogma that is the male gaze or perspective, she owns her sexuality past societal norms as they are not normal. A Goddess decides what and how her body will be shaped; but because a Goddess loves herself her health and wellbeing are her main goal. A Goddess choses if modesty or nudity is right for her and doesn’t slut same other women for their own unique choices as to how they express their sexuality.

You become a Goddess by being brave enought to step into your unique and special self. You become a Goddess by loving you as you are and by loving life. You learn to love life by being grateful in the moment, by honing in on your own special gifts and talents; these special gifts and talents become your purpose. A Goddess lives into her purpose and makes life meaningful by doing so.

A empowered woman or a Goddess listens to her own intuition or inner priestess or guides. She is her own spirituality and forms her own religion on around love and compassion to herself and others.

Being a Goddess or empowered woman takes intense bravery as the world wants to constantly drag women back into the male gaze or dumbed down patriachy model of a weak and meek woman, that should be seen and not heard. I Goddess ROARS..

I am not sorry that I didn’t give you a trendy and stylish version of becoming a Goddess that you are probably used to reading. What I hope I did was help you to go deep inside of yourself to invision the greatness of you becoming more of you.

You can find my book on Amazon.ca ( The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ) ~  by Gracie Ackerman

Please go to the front page of my website www.sexassacred.com for further information

Kelowna Culture in Retrospect-fades to grey

 

When I moved to Kelowna BC from the small town of Armstrong BC, just an hour and a half away I thought it would be a city full of opportunity for me as an artist/writer/activist and on a personal level as a newly divorced, broken hearted single mother; I might find a new love.

I had always wanted to write my book; even as a small child I was accutely aware of the double standards, violence and sexism against women. I thought the Goddess or Wonder Woman was and still is a empowering archetype towards empowering women and girls. The main reason behind my book was to show that women and men could both be strong, emotional, compassionate and that both the sexes could strive towards true justice and equality. As a very small child raised in a strict christian household, I was still a wise old soul whom saw past the shame and sin placed on sexuality as unfounded and just silly. I would prance naked around my repressed mother as she squacked and clucked at me for my sinful nature with glee and mischeif. I just knew that logically the shame placed on sexuality and the body was unnatural not sex and sexuality.

Anyways upon moving to Kelowna and writing, producing the goddess photography or photographs of me as many goddesses, upon designing and publishing my website and blog, I was continually shocked at how the arts council and at how the leaders of Kelowna’s culture treated me as a second class citizen. I was not allowed to join in networking groups, I was not given the press release that the art’s council promised me. I was not allowed to show my book or other art in galleries or other art exhibits. I was not heard by Colin Basran, he called me to tell me there was nothing he could do about the outright prejudice and discrimination placed upon me by the leaders of Kelown’s cultural networking organizations. He told me he could not make people include me. I was made of mockery of by Laurie Welborn who’s name came up on our phone conversation. She did a video of the topless issue after pretending to be my friend off and on Facebook, it was obvious online bullying and even after she made the videos she then asked me to my face if I felt suicidal. During this time I was also harassed out of Brett Wilson’s gym by his female manager a close friend of Laurie’s, because I was told my online profile or my writing about the discrimination, sexuall harssment, sexual discrimination and women’s sexuality was a threat to Brett Wilson’s reputation. The Mayor of Kelowna was made aware of all these facts yet because I was not wealthy or well connected I simply didn’t matter to Kelowna’s socieity or culture. If I had, had a Batchelor of the Arts or other degrees I would probably of been given some credibility, but I am self taught, a natural talent, self read, self motivated, self starter and well studied and well read on my own; but in Kelowna this holds no credibility. In Kelowna’s culture of wealth and social status I was invisible. I was a minority I was an annoyance to the wealthy and connected that wanted and that wants to manipulate and mold Kelowna’s culture as they see fit; like Colin Basran, the wealthy and highly connected Cipes family and the private owners of KelownaNow. I was purposefully shut out of and silenced from Kelowna’s culture as a threat towards Kelowna’s professional and pristeen tourist orientated brand. Kelowna’s culuture has become a tourist brand. I was made invisible by sexual prejudice, ignorance and going by Laurie’s videos.. hate.

Looking in retrospect at Kelowna’s culture; it is culture based on wealth and the accumulation of wealth; as Kelowna tried to paint me over with shades of grey to make me invisible as a part from the culture or IMAGE they wish to create and brand, Kelowna is grey or bland in it’s culture as it steals from other cultures what it feels is culturally safe and acceptable- but isn’t this just the Canadian way of the arts in general? What is Canadian culture but a washed out version of American or US culture? And we wonder why Candian artist can’t make a go of it in Canada?

I was the biggest feminist in Kelowna but Kelowna effectively phased me out by overwhelming me and my children through me by it’s overt prejudice towards me. But my children and I are slowly loosing our Kelowna Culture wash; my kids are not feeling the need to be overly competative or to dress to impress others, and I am finding peace and solitude in the countryside. It is all slowly fading to grey.

I learned that I never needed to be in Kelowna to pursue my arts and feminist activism and that I would never of met anyone in that culture due to how they would be washed by that culture into seeing me through prejudice. I learned that I am unique and special, special enought to stand out from the crowd and make it on my own an on my own terms..and by make it, I mean being me and doing what I love. I can share and educate here through my own creations.

A New Life

 

It has been about a month now since I moved out of Kelowna. I know it’s very hard for nonspiritual people to understand this; but it was my guides or my Angels that guided me out of Kelowna. I was told by them under the full moon light, to go north. I was shown clearly in a vision and in dreams that north was home; I was shown that I was supposed to be close to nature so that I could heal from the pain of the many rejections that I experience in Kelowna. You know the spirit works in mysterious ways, very much like the 12th Lord or the 12th house in astrology. These mysterious spiritual ways are very Neptunian, dream like, like mists of figures that you see out of the corner of your eye, or when you hear your name called out just before waking.. and so they called to me to follow the north star home. I completed my spiritual purpose or mission in Kelowna. I created my book and I did all the things I had to do to set the hands on the clock of fate.. and such is divine timing..but they haven’t let me know much about that. Somethings like divine timing are mysteries to those of us in the flesh, and that is why we have faith. But I was told to lay it all in their hands and go into obscurity, to set my ego down and let go and let God. And so I have. I pulled these runes to let them tell you and me as to why I had to do what I did.. when I moved back into the country.. were you can leave your doors unlocked and walk around naked with your drapes open because there is nobody to see.

 

Ansuz ~ To be with the Divine and know the true nature of my own divinity, to give my children peace and a stable home.

Inguz ~ To find harmony and balance through better personal relationships with more grounded and centered people. To clear away old relationships to bring in people into my life who are real so that I can experience the wholeness of myself by being able to be my true self around them. By being able to be my true self without other’s inhibitions being placed on to me; I will come to wholeness and then meet a mate who will love me for my true self.

Sowelu ~ My life force returning by my regeneration of not giving my energy to others who refuse to see me or respect me for who I truly am. The retreat was a retreat of strength as I no longer will be present for others to drain me of my energy because they cannot find their own light within. Many mistake the light in others as a way to drain and feed their own egos with it; by my leaving such people or such a society I am now keeping my life force to myself. I will grow stronger as I become more and more of who I am by not allowing them my time or the space to ego feed off of my light or spirit. I will regenerate and heal my aura or light body. I will develop the art of doing without doing.

 

Kelowna or the city life was a rat race. Kelowna’s society was highly competitive without completion; in other words all their striving was for nothing but to say ” I am the most popular.”  If  I would of stayed in Kelowna I would of lost my freaking mind. I just couldn’t make sense of the fake business world that was not professional or the fake spiritual world that was based on trendy clothes, popularity, ass kissing and PURE EGO. My sensitive soul simply couldn’t tolerate it.

When I fell in love with a man named Matthew Cipes upon our first meeting it was just that, it was me seeing his soul and loving him unconditionally. I still do. But even though he is apart of the spiritual community he couldn’t trust me or that love. And I forgive him because it is uncondtional. But many in the spiritual community came at me to hurt me for daring to feel that way ,to tell him about it and to write about it. That is what is maddening about Kelowna and Kelowna society. I wasn’t considered good enough or pure enough or something not enough to dare feel love for someone who was considered to be way above me by societies standards or financial standards. He and they wanted me to feel ashamed for my feelings, he and they were so intentionally mean. But so many things about Kelowna are just awfully mean.

The thing is this; the refection of how I feel about him is a projection of the love that I have inside of me…and so doesn’t it make sense that the cruelty that they showed me is a reflection of how they feel about themselves or what is inside of them? I have absolutely nothing to gain here by saying that I loved him instantly upon laying eyes on him almost 2 years ago as I have left the city. I am sure I will never see him again. I have nothing to gain but to attempt to alchemize or transmute hate into to love.. but then I am not responsible for how others react or how they behave towards me; as that is their own perceptions to take responsibility for.

He or many in the spiritual community would say to me ” How did you attract this situation into your life.” it is a spiritualistic way of not taking responsibility for how they or he treated me. I didn’t attract other’s willful ignorance they are responsible for their own humanness or shortcomings. The point is I saw through the lens of love it was their bitterness that I allowed to eventually taint me.

But now I am free of that energy and I have cleared the way to let love, love through me once again and I will open up my heart wide again to let the light shine through me .. to let love find me as I find love once again in my new life.

Through a spiritual lens again; I have 6 major planets in my 1st house. This is the house of individuality or identity and that is what I played out in Kelowna. I found my identity and I used my identity as art or expression in my book ( The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine) I used my image in the photography and I used my own life story to express the story of womanhood. My north node is in Pisces and now 6 major planets are going into the house of the 12th Lord and this is about me loosing my identity or my ego to find my pureness or higher-self. According to my chart I will be reborn spiritually by the 3rd of January. My north node was my coming home to my guides or moving north on and in this earthly reality. It is a beautiful spiritual mystery as towards what will happen. But I know this I just have to let go, let God and flow.

Self Objectification is Almost Impossible

 

Every time I post a comment on a new’s feed on Facebook people will say to me ” Your profile picture is a contradiction. It’s silly and ironic that you say you are a feminist while you self objectify with your online image.” My online image has been a problem for me, you see others in the professional world judge me as self objectifying and so they believe this gives them an excuse to treat me with no respect or even to dehumanize me. Because of other’s judging me through a lens of ignorance I am treated by them with total disrespect, as they assume I don’t respect myself because I glorify my body and sexuality.

To get to the point. When a woman acknowledges her femininity and sexuality she isn’t objectifying herself she is whole, she understands that she is her body and her sexuality and is loving her femininity or womanhood. A woman who hates her body and runs away or denies her femininity and sees her sexuality as bad, evil, sinful or slutty is in fact practicing internalized misogyny, she thinks that stepping into her sexuality of femininity will make her less of a person or even dehumanize her to herself and to others. A woman that is internalizing misogyny is often the one calling other women who are comfortable in their bodies, sexuality and sexual expression .. sluts and whores..because she fears being called this herself by others.

Women who have internalized misogyny will often call themselves feminist, and these feminist often man up or make themselves unfeminine, these feminist often tell women who glorify and honor their femininity and sexuality that they are self objectifying and don’t deserve respect or to be taken seriously. Often these women will rage and rant online and off line about women who are whole and healthy in their sexuality because they are afraid to step into their own bodies and own themselves as whole beings.

The patriarchy; a male base social power system that runs society objectifies women by putting women into their lens of approval. Media and the entertainment industry use women to make money while paying them a fraction of what they make off of women’s sexuality. Religion and State mandate women’s wombs and bodies, and that says that women are objects. Women are either virgins or whores through the lens of patriarchy.. we are not whole human beings and our bodies are not our own to regulate as far as they are concerned. And so it is through the lens of other’s judgments that we are objectified… being sexy and sensual as a woman is not self objectification, rather it is being whole and healthy, natural and comfortable in your own skin.

The sad part about female internalized misogyny is that women have been brainwashed into hating their own bodies and sexuality as well as hating on other women. Through internalized misogyny we see other women blaming other women for being raped by judging them as asking for it by the way they present themselves as objects of desire, this is rape culture thinking.

To get down to the point of this post.. a beautiful and sexy woman isn’t self objectifying but rather you are projecting your internalized misogyny onto her ( if you are a woman ) or projecting your misogyny onto her ( if you are a man ) 

Misogynist believe that woman are here for men, that we exist for the male gaze and for male approval and that women don’t have a voice, a personality or a thought unless it has been given and validated by a man.

The patriarchy hates the feminine because it fears loosing power and control should the feminine rise to an equal balance with the masculine..and that is why the feminine and the feminine sex is repressed by hate speech, violence and rape..

But the world needs the feminine to rise so that all of humanity can become healthy, healed and whole.. so next time you see a woman expressing her femininity respect her because she is actually saving humanity from the brutality of the patriarchy, and in a spiritual understanding she is a Goddess, she is honoring The Divine Feminine.

How Sacred Sexuality Promotes Healthy Sexuality

Unhealthy sexuality is defined by the fact that it causes sexual dysfunction like perversion. Perversion can be defined as obsessive and repulsive acts like having sex with animals, pedophilia, necrophilia, rape.. etc. Sexual addiction is also unhealthy sexuality as it becomes self destructive. Sexual addiction completely takes over a person’s life, like all other addictions they live their lives totally out of balance for the next rush or high that they get from sex. Sexually transmitted diseases are obviously another form of unhealthy sexuality and the more random one’s partners the higher the risk towards becoming infected with multiple STDs.

Sacred sexuality teaches us to temper our lusts with wisdom and love. Through a spiritual lens we understand the body and it’s practical functions as also sacred and holy. Sex is never just sex as it is the energy of two souls becoming alchemised as one. Lust for the sake of just pure animal impulses is seen as lower or dense energy.. lust that is channeled into love through the bridge of emotional intimacy can be used to create a long lasting and meaningful relationships. By seeing sex as sacred we make what would be seen religiously as profane, holy. But by being selective with whom we share our bodies and soul’s energy with we also create a physically healthy sexuality and emotionally healthy sexuality.

Sacred sexuality isn’t steeped in the dogma of religion or even in the dogma of tantra …. but in the practicality of the wisdom of seeing the flesh and soul as one.

The issue with having too many sexual partners is becoming numb towards true intimacy.. seeing sex as simply a physical act can make many people learn over time to push away or deny their emotions towards the people that they are having sex with.. and that is why in today’s ” Hook up ” culture society as a whole has become intimacy deprived or even retarded. By calling society emotionally retarded it means that we have become impaired towards making emotional and even intellectual connections in our personal romantic relationships, because we have learned over time to deny our emotions. We have learned through the hook up culture to deny our hearts desires to deeply, and intimately connect to one another on a soulful level.

With leaving the heart and soul out of sexuality we have forgotten how to be sensual and empowered by our sexuality rather than to be driven by it, channel it rather than have it drive us off course towards dysfunction and addiction.

Sex is powerful energy and we must learn to use it wisely and to respect it as a force of nature.. much like fire ..if you play with it and handle it without respect and care you will get burned by it.

The rule of sacred sex is that it does no harm to you or to others; not just on a physical level but on an emotional level. The problem with having sex for just the sake of lust is that eventually someone gets hurt physically with disease or emotionally by being denied the love of the other. There is always cause and effect in the Universe.. eventually the karma of what you have denied for the sake of lust will catch up and connect with you towards an intense spiritual lesson.. so be responsible towards how you play with the deep cosmic energy of sexuality, by being conscious and aware we can use our sexuality to create a heaven on earth.. in a practical and spiritual sense.

 

The Cosmic Flow of the New and Full Moon Eclipses for September 2016

 

The Universe is asking us to ask this question ” Who have you been pretending to be so that everyone will like you?’

With the New Moon Eclipse in Virgo we were energetically being purified of ego; purified of our own ego lies or shadows from within that were coming to the surface or to the light of our awareness. Many of these shadows were things that we were doing to fit in or to gain favor from our peer groups or from society. Did you personally experience it? I was forced into seeing it by being shocked by the selfishness of others around me in my community; and forced to see that I had been slowly selling myself out to belong or get along in a community that was totally submerged in deep and heavy ego energy. I was forced by shocking events into becoming suddenly awakened towards my own ego and the fact that I had been drawn into their games unconsciously by trying to play games with them. I learned that I live in an area that is overly competitive and that I was drawn into that overly and unhealthy competition by constantly trying to prove my worth to them. By a shocking event my Neptunian rose colored glasses shattered and the ego fog parted and I was able to see just what they had made me into or rather what I had allowed them to make me into; I knew if I didn’t purge myself and distance myself from that community, I would become just like them. I knew then I had to move away..and go back to myself. I also saw my own horrible ego that got caught up in materialism and pride. A part of the Virgo Eclipse was to forgive them and myself and to cut all ties that bound me to them.. to go back to a pure state spiritually and back towards a healthier state of mind and being.. a very Virgo-nian way of making life simple, pure and orderly.

In between these Eclipses we are being asked by the Cosmos to find the zero point or still center within to ride out the intense cosmic energy of going from ego back to the pureness of spirit; simply put the ego doesn’t want to die back or be released; pride and prejudice both die hard and being critical of the self and others can be very seductive, destructive but mostly addictive. The way to the way is to just allow the mind to think while being aware of it’s thoughts and then just letting them go.. just letting them flow like waves; while not allowing them room to stay or become a reality as they once were before becoming aware of them. This is letting go of old patterns; old addictions and mine has been to be overly critical and easily frustrated by ignorance.. by fighting every ignorance and taking it personally into my ego or energy, I am keeping myself and soul from growth and inner peace.

The Eclipse in Pisces is here to show us the way back towards a higher state of being spiritually; to remind us that this is the material reality, but this is just a stop over for the soul or a school for the soul; this material reality is not the soul’s true home.. and so we are being drawn into the place of.. the infinite or cosmic void and being shown that what we think we are is not what we are. We are being brought deep inside to the seat of the soul, to the very essence of our being where hope resides eternally. In the shadow of the Pisces Eclipse we will all be given a peek behind the veil of mystery..all of us who are willing to sit within our center will be brought into the Cosmic flow or void..and we will simply be in awe of being present with the soul, so that we will no longer pretend to be what we are not to make other’s happy but we will be busy being and that is the way towards true happiness.

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