Posts Tagged ‘divine feminine’

My White Privilege Card is broken


The inspiration of this post goes to Jagmeet Singh the leader of the NDP party of Canada. I follow all the political parties but I find him to be like watching a trainwreck. He seems to have won the publics and his parties affection by using The Race Card and guilt to have been elevated into his public position, using social justice and even now feminism as virtue signalling. Virtue signalling is used to up one’s public standing or public reputation. Anyways each time I comment on instagram his followers swarm me by calling me racist, having white privilege or of being ignorant; while most of his followers are very young students caught up in his public hype that suits a DJ or a prize fighter more than of a professional politician with a proper and solid political platform. Honesty I think he intends to destroy democracy by using the promise of revised and modernised socialism as manipulation towards eroding western traditions in the name of multiculturalsim. I put up a post asking him if his engagement and marriage was arranged and I asked him were he stood on women’s rights and equalities; to be swarmed on my instagram by his followers mostly of Indian asian decent. I was called names and my charater and physical appearance were attacked by ” his people” but I was the one called racist? I took down the post and made my instagram private for a week to get these people to calm the fuck down. But the seriousness of the nature, of Jagmeet’ is what I question; as obviously one cannot question him with out him sending a mob in response. So anyways I am going to inform everyone on how my white privilege card is broken; because I was informed of my white privilege by his followers over and over again. Lets explore my history.

I was born with a broken white privilege card. My mother had serious schizophrenia. She had me 10 months after my sister. I was a mistake that was made when my father forced himself on my very sick mother right after she gave birth to my sister. I didn’t have a cradle. I slept in the buggy by the kitchen sink at my nanny’s house, as my mom often left my father to seek help from her mother. Upon reflection the Ministry of Child Services should of taken us away from our parents very early on so that all 4 of their children wouldn’t of had to suffer the way we did. All though upon putting myself into the foster care system at 16 I suffered still at the hands of strangers that made out that they were good and decent people.

My father and mother would end up back together several times and so we would see our father beating our mother and he would also beat us. My mother was hightly suicidal, she would spend a great deal of her time in the mental hospital so we; her children would end up with at our grandparents or at the mercy of our abusive father who had no mercy. I have been so hungry .. oh.. people cannot imagine that sort of hunger unless it is experience first hand.

At school I was considered a waist of time and enegy by most of the teachers and parents .. or ( White Trash ) even though I was bright and multi-talented I was given no opportunities to shine; rather I was passed by intentionally. One time I remember being in Victoria BC on a field trip with my class to the Parliment Buildings. I was very active in the debate club at school and very good at it, but when the teacher was told he could only bring in 10 kids to watch a bill be passed he chose the kids whose parents were wealthy and influential because he said ” They have better chance than you do Gracie; nothing personal it’s just rational” that was back in 1981 and he was right because Elliot Pister did go into politics and he was one of the chosen few. But of course my social status and social worth was shown to be worthless.

I tried to stop my mother from taking her life but in a mental hospital in Vancouver BC she was successful at hanging herself from a pipe with her PJs. Now you would think that given our father’s horrible reputation with the police and with Child Services that we would of been put into the system but no, we endured 3 horrible years with him and his very abusive girlfriend. The school system and the entire town turned an intentional blind eye towards our horrible abuse that was much like living in a concentration camp. It was -30 outside but we had no heat or hot water in the side of the huge house they rented. We were made to work outside in the blistering heat and the freezing cold to keep his girlfriends horses and other animals. We were so starved that we collected cans to make money to feed ourselves and ate out of garbage cans at school.. yet no one did anything to help us when the abuse was very obvious. And so my White Privilege Card was broken right from the start.

I ran away from my father’s house when I was 16 because he tried to rape me. I spent my 16th birthday on the streets of Banff Alberta, hungry, afraid and with a girlfriend that left me outside of a restaurant while she went inside to eat, because she had money but I didn’t ( that was my 16th birthday ) after a few days I was able to get a hold of my American grandparents that wired me money ( That I used to house and feed the friend that wouldn’t do the same for me ) for a week until they flew me to Vegas to live with them for a year. But my grandmother and grandfather had a nasty split and so I came back to Canada to put myself into fostercare. I was abused in one home out of 3; were they took the money for my care but refused to feed me or buy me clothes. I got a job to support myself, but I had basically been working jobs since the age of 10 to offset my father’s financial neglect.

I went into independant living through the ministry to use student loans to get myself through college. I timed out of foster care funding at 19 and ended up in a very abusive relationship to keep myself housed until finishing my education. I left him and stayed financially independant for a couple of years before meeting my ex husband. We started a business together and I was able to get a government grant at the time for being a minority in business ( A young woman ) { That wasn’t white privilege } I had to work for that grant by spending 8 hrs a day, 5 days a week in class, to write a 110 page business plan and to drum up 10 percent of my clients by tel-marketing myself on my weekends and evenings. More than half of those who applied dropped out before they earned the grant, because it was hard work.

After 14 years together, the death of my sister, 4 miscarrages, and 3 children my ex husband decided being a full time parent wasn’t for him and had an affair with a female employee. His still denies it to this day but they got married in Mexico last year.

Going through the divorce and the separation of assets was an experience in the sexism and the brokeness of our legal system; nothing about it was fair. He was able to hide and lie about many assets and still is, and because I couldn’t afford expensive lawyers and I had no family or parents to help me he robbed me blind. He made out with the majority of the sale of the house and he got the businessnes, as I was told by lawyers that the business couldn’t survive without him but could without me because anyone can do book work and basic accounting. The courts and judges also informed me that his time was far more valuable and important than mine or my work as the kids mother; whom I have the majority of costody. So  – WHITE PRIVILEGE DENIED -

I have been divoced now for over 8 years; I couldn’t get the courts and the judges to get him pay for his share of the child care and so I learned how to work from home and how to work my hours around my kids school time. Even getting my ex to tell the goverment that we were separated so I could recieve child tax benefits took my credit card and a lawyer.. not my broken white privilege card.

And even looking past the supposed white privilege, I have been told that I have pretty privilege so I should get more than most people do out of life because of being called pretty ( Even though when I was a little girl and teenager I thought I was ugly as sin, because I struggled with low selfestem because of my suffering ) But playing people with your looks always has some sort of karma attached to it. You always have to pay something so having a mean and nasty sugar daddy isn’t my definition of a way out of daily grind of life.

The point is – no privilege here. NONE. NOTHING has come to me easlily. When I was turned 30 my doctor said to me ” How does it feel to be 3o ” he was teasing of course; but I said to him ” I can’t believe I made it to 30 ” he look shocked and said to me ” Thats rather dark, why would say that?” and I said ” It’s a long story”

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I am a Goddess not a Nasty Woman


In a spiritual context Dr. Emoto showed through experiments that when water was infused with positive words it created beautiful crystals but when it was infused with negative emotions and words it created ugliness; also buddist monks are able to transcend into bodies of light by thinking only in abstracts of love, when they die their bodies are found to be the size of infants or only fragments of them remain. Scientists are still puzzled by these events… so if women are calling themselves nasty and vulgar they are becoming the energy within those words even if they attempt to redefine the original meaning, the bitterness and ugliness of this energy will eventuall become them. When I speak of God in the poem below, I am speaking of God in the sense of love not in the constructs of religious dogma that has shown though history to be toxic by it’s oppression.

Now changing the subject to the METOO movement and to feminism as a whole. Feminism has become an organization now owned by liberalism by redefining it through a George Soros liberalism lens that is to ” Look through a glass darkly ” as I expressed by it being tainted and made toxic with hatred towards men and towards the white race as any racism is racism. The METOO movement has become and is gaining more and more speed towards a male witch hunt or towards the castration of masculinty to further control the masses towards our enslavement to the elite. The way to ensure the enslavement of humanity is to turn us on each other, on our basic nature and to brainwash us by constantly redefining words. If you control words, you control thought, if you can control thought you can control minds in masses.

I have identified myself as a feminist before the liberalism definition of feminism took hold by integrated feminism, that is really to put patriarchy into feminism by the acceptance of the violent repression and oppression of Islam as pro women’s equality, this is a lie to wash out true women’s rights and equality. I did write a METOO about W. Brett Wilson and his oppression of me and my book, blog as a member of his gym; but upon seeing many professional men and men in Goverment being found guilty until proven guilty or innocent, I don’t want to destroy a man who I feel just made a stupid mistake. More importantly for my own sake on a spiritual and personal level it is in my own best interest to forgive him. To forgive him I am removing bitterness and toxic energy from my own soul, heart and spirit.  Upon watching the women’s march and listening to the toxic spew of hate and bitterness; watching women take on the identity of victim by being victimized, I can see what I do not want to become. Seeking revenge or wishing to avenge a wrong that my ego wants made right will only cause my heart to be full of rot and hate and it will push love in all it’s forms away from me and my own life.  So I write the words here of forgiveness and, as I have said words weave magical spells..

I forgive him 


Please go to my youtube channel to watch me read the poem below


The Woman’s March used by the state to push division and hate.

To fuel the fires of the war of the sexes created by religions, used by elites as a tool to turn men against women and now women against men-

To call themselves nasty women, to promote vulgarism over the divine feminine within them.

But I am the divine feminine. I am not a nasty woman

Yet they march with Linda Sarsour who stands with and for the islamic state that hates women’s sexuality and commits acts of violence on women’s bodies in the name of modesty.. and this is the patriarchy.

But they march in hijabs made with american flags using the symbols of freedom to march backwards to their own oppression.

They say I am a nasty woman I am a vulgar woman

They deny their higherstate

They deny their own divinity and they walk away from their DIGNITY

I am not a nasty woman I am the divine feminine

For I rise in grace

I rise in Love

I rise in Forgiveness

I rise by raising the divine masculine in men up, I rsie with the unity of the men in my community….

ect.. ect


Please go to my youtube channel of the rest of the poem. Please go to for my book ( The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ) ~ By Gracie Ackerman


Grace and The Goddess Within


I have learned many things since publishing me book and website several years ago. I learned how innocent I was to the ways of the world, I was silly to believe that I could change the world suddenly with my book and message about freeing women’s sexuality from male based religions and government rule. These structures based on the worship of male gods, male power and male archetypes have been in place for 1000s and 1000s of years and so it will take many more years and even centuries for humanity to evolve past these concepts that are causing the self destruction of humanity and this earthly realm. Most people have less than average intelligence at best and many people are brainwashed or too programmed into these belief systems and cultures to know how sick it is actually making them.

I realize now that I have been fighting a loosing battle and that I lost the beauty of myself and my own divinity from time to time in the battle. I have been needlessly combating when I should of just sheathed my sword and stopped casting my pearls upon swine. I am humblingly addmitting that my spiritual guides told me that fame and all that comes with it were never to be mine; that was the spiritual agreement that I made long before coming to this earthly realm; if others choose to believe me or not it doesn’t change the spiritual agreement. My spiritual family has told me many times to let go and flow with the divine as everything and everyone is in divine order and timing. I lived out my contract and completed my mission and now my life is mine. So with that I am choosing self preservation over being the female savior; as it is done. I sacrificed so much of myself and my personal ego identity and of course others will not see it or even be able to contemplate this spiritual work. But it doesn’t stop the power of the seed that has been well planted for future generations to reep the rewards of the fruit of it’s maturity, when the divine decides it is time.

My life has become very spiritual in the last few months and that is why I have not written on my blog because I wish to savor it and keep my soul close to my heart. My heart has opened and bloomed towards The Divine Feminine even more as I remain still in the womb of her and her in me. But of course, when I am in my most human moments I do fear the politics of division that are further dividing women and men through chaos and lies, yet I pray to a power that is much higer than the Gods that man’s ego greed has created as they blocked out the sun and the truth from all of us, because I come from them and they tell me they are coming here and they are here; because it is time. They that are of this world will soon face divine judgement; they speak of time being up but they are hiding the truth still as they have hidden the ancient of ancients behind false gods and lies built upon these false gods. There is a power far greater than the ideals of men and this is the true father and mother of creation. And so time is bending in on it’s self and what was old shall be new again and justice; the justice of the divine will be given in the way of the shining light of truth. And this gives me comfort to know that I helped make this way for them to usher in, as I am and we all are a part of this great plan.

Now I am walking into the light and I am being love, as I am seeking love; and now I will emerse in my Divine Feminine Goddess and let the Divine take up the sword.

A Single Mother’s Guide To Empowerment


There are many women online and in the world of media that profess to be about women’s empowerment or to be life coaches; there are women with PHDs and other certifications whom have their blogs and books professionally editited, and so you may think them to be more qualified than me towards giving you advice and leadership. My qualifications are life skills built upon real life experiences. The person whom you should want to lead you or to give you qualified advice is the person or woman that is walking her talk. I am not overtly wealthy, I am not entitled as I have not and was not born to a life of privilege. I come from a very poor family and my father was very abusive and sexist. My mother committed suicide when I was 13 due to her mental illness and I put myself into the Canadian fostercare system in my teens. I ended up living on my own when I was 17 to then put myself through college with student loans. Due to my abusive upbringing I ended up in a seven year relationship with a physically abusive alcholic. I left him to finish my education in business college to then meet and marry my now ex husband who was emotionally and financially abusive. I have no extended family, and so have had to carry the responsiblity of being a single mother of three on my own. I went onto become a published author of the book { The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine } and to create my own blog and website

I have been through intense stuggles and trials in my life. I have been physically and sexually abused. I have been plunged into suicial thoughts. I have risen again and again from great hoplessness towards achieving many goals and dreams. My greatest of all dreams having yet to be realized; is to be given a world wide voice towards women’s rights, equality and empowerment. Upon writing my book about women’s sexual empowerment I have had to to stand against much sexual discrimination by shining a light on the sexual shame placed upon women by society. I still continue to fight this daily with all women who wish to stand against it and push back against conformity and sexual repression.

I have primary guardianship of my children and so that means they are in my care 90 percent of the time; so I am a full time single mother who is in the trenches of parenthood and womanhood with you.

I am writing this in point form because I am a busy mom and I like to be able to skim information when my time is limited.



1. Find your strength in forgiveness

Working on forgiveness and forgiving is the key towards finding innner peace and balance. My key to forgiving my ex husband was understanding his own father wound as to why he was unable to stay with us as a family unit, and as to why he had an affair when he found out I was having a boy with our third child. It was because he saw his son in himself and his wound that he didn’t want to face in his son. Understanding that no one is perfect and that we are all wounded helps to heal wounds into scars.  Many people will hurt us because they are hurt and not conscious enough to be able to heal themselves so they hurt others. Understanding will bring you to forgiveness and forgiviness will being you to inner balance. Balance is the key to strength.

2. Be responsible and take responsibility

When we are honest with ourself and make a point of becoming conscious towards our own weaknesses we can make them into our strengths or at least strengthen our weaknesses. Take responsiblity as to your part in the marriage or relationship ending. For example; I didn’t draw proper boundaries at the begining of my marriage and so I allowed him to disrespect me and allowed my independance to be taken from me as I gave it away.

3. Budget 

Part of taking responsibility is to take responsiblity for your money and spending habits. Write down your bottom line and then subtract your bills and abstract spending, make a budget from there. Write down daily what you have spent and on what to keep yourself honest. A part of being empowered is to take control of your money and be honest with yourself if you have a spending problem. If you are going into a negative in your budget it is time to make plans towards cutting out what isn’t needed and or finding a practical way towards generating more income.

4. Set Goals and be proactive

You can set all the goals you like but you must be proactive by doing the work and taking the actions towards acheiving your goals. My motivation is knowing that I have had my three children to set an example for. Here are a few of the goals that I have achieved over the span of several years.


buy a new car

write a book or blog

make new friends

charity work

body building competition

Setting and achieving goals are very important towards self empowerment and building self confidence, when you are finished achieving a goal it’s important to celebrate that goal but then to keep moving forward towards future goals. There is great satisfaction in a job well done!

5. Self care

I want all single moms to drop the guilt here; It is important that you meet the needs of your children but it is also inportant that your needs are met too. If your cup is empty than you have nothing to give your children. It is important that you allow yourself rest. It is important that you all eat healthy and that you workout five times a week. Take care of your appearance; your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual well being is your empowerment. Budget your time for me time.

6. Life isn’t fair

Life isn’t a fairytale. Many Goddess empowerment life coaches will try to sell you on meeting the man of your dreams and being able to create some fanastic other reality just by paying them for endless life coaching sessions; and that is wrong and will make you feel hopeless in the long run over empowered. Shit happens in real life and for the most part we are not manifesting this reality on our own. We share this earthly reality with billions of other souls in different levels of consciousness and so we are bound to run into some shit realities. The justice system is sexist and the world is full of bigotry and some real wack jobs; so we have to learn to work around it. We have to learn to make the best of what we can control and to accept what we cannot contol. That doesn’t mean we become complacent, just that we are able to choose what is worth putting our energy towards. When you hit a wall sometimes it’s best to go into a different direction of your own.

7. Feeling sad or suicidal

Most women’s sadness comes from unvented anger because we live in societies that don’t allow women to be angry; just like most men’s anger comes from held in sorrow because we live in societies that don’t allow men sorrow but only anger as an emotion; Therefore it is important to vent out our emotions to help us not give into to suicidal thoughts or actions. So please be angry and vent your anger out in a non destructive fashion such as a hard workout or screaming and crying into a pillow. Get help if you need help. Call the crisis line if you need help right away. I got help when I needed help. It takes great strength to ask for help when we are at our most vulnerable. Let no one shame you into being strong enough to ask for help. I have helped suicidal and vulnerable friends; and I have been there myself. The greatest courage is saving yourself. Remember this too shall pass

8. Have FAITH

Having a belief system or a practice that brings us to faith and hope when all feels lost brings us back to an empowered state. You can be an athiest and still find hope and faith in meditaion or nature walks. If religion or a belief is God gives you true empowerment than that is your private and personal walk in faith. My personal walk of faith is a spiritual, non religious, non dogmatic spirituality that is based in nature. Do what brings you hope, love and peace.

9. Gratitude

Comparison is the theif of joy ~ Theodore Roosevelt

Society and or the media is constantly wanting us to compare ourselves to others so we are motivated into buying products for other’s validation; from learning to be happy with what you have. Count your blessings when you feel like the world has short changed you. Most of us single mothers feel that way from time to time. Being a single mother is often a struggle and a financial jugglimg act; but when we learn to stop and smell the roses it can turn bitterness sweet. Count those little fingers and toes, be thankful for your health, for your talents and natual gifts, for your friends and community. Happiness is an inside job.

10. Be authentic

Be yourself. The most powerful thing you can be is your true self. Be prepaired to cut even the closest people out of your life if they don’t accept you for you. Speak to be heard and speak with your own voice. Remember you teach people how to treat you. Set boundaries down. Always maintain your DIGNITY

11. Romance

Don’t let people shame you as a single mother for wanting a new relationship and remember if you are not honest and clear with yourself you will not get what you want. It is ok to want romance in your life, of course it is! You can love your children and a new romantic partner. But being alone and getting to know yourself and taking the time to heal from your last relationship is critical towards your own empowerment. Empowerment is knowing yourself. Knowing yourself and becoming conscious of our own shadows, wounds and weaknesses means that we will be empowered and healed towards being ready for a new and healthy intimate relationship. Until you have worked on strengthening youself from the inside out you will not be ready for a lasting and healthy love. Time takes time and this takes time. A truly empowered woman doesn’t look for a man to hide herself behind, she goes into herself towards self transformation to become as a walking GODDESS 


You can find my book { The Goddess and Expression of the Divine Feminine } by Gracie Ackerman on Amazon,ca

Chiron Tears


Sometimes there is a gift or two in sadness, suffering and sorrow. We are a society that is constantly searching outside of ourselves for happiness and fulfillment. But what if it is the constant searching that makes us unhappy? We are always waiting for a better tomorrow and a brighter day but when we do this, we are not being in the moment or being present in our truth ,and the reality that we are currently facing. I have been doing this by telling myself that when I meet my soul mate my life will begin again. I have put myself in a frozen holding pattern by telling myself I will not be fulfilled unless a man loves me romantically again. I have wanted to prove to my ex husband that I am lovable by finding a man to love me the way he refused to do. But then if I believe this I am not loving myself and I will not be loving the man I could be with. I would just be in love with love or romantic notions rather than with myself or with the person that I am with.

I have been doing this with my book as well. Telling myself my life will begin as soon as I reach the success of having a publishing house publish me, and by reaching public notice, that my life will then begin. But the truth is my life and I have always been here this entire 8 years since my husband left me with our three kids. The truth is just the fact that I wrote a book and self published the bo0k has been a level of success that few people ever reach. The truth is that happiness has not evaded me but I have been finding excuses to ignore it.

I learned this lesson from the last man I dated just a few days ago. I fell into the online fantasy again and did what I said I would never do. That was texting and face timing with a man for hours before meeting with him in person to see if there was a physical connection. In the last 8 years of my single life it has always ended badly. You see it is easy to construct a romantic fantasy online. It is easy for men and women to profess to be much more online than in person. It is like building a castle in the clouds. It is nothing but fantasy that cannot be in reality. When I was on my way to meet him I felt a deep sadness because inside I knew what was going to happen. It crashed and burned. He told me he didn’t find me attractive by text message afterwards. I felt the fall again. The fall from the castle in the clouds. I went over everything he said to me in my head ” I really feel like something amazing is happening between us, something very special.” that’s what he said; and I fell for it like a total fool. Like I said, this wasn’t my first rodeo. I have had so many of these meet up dates over the last 8 years I can’t possiblily remember them all, it must be over 100. Yet here I was falling into the same patterns of longing and yearning for the fantasy man who would ride in on his white horse and save me from loneliness.

One of my worst fears is dying before I am loved by a man

But then what if I drop the false hope? What if I drop the yearning and the longing and I let myself fall deeply into the wound of loneliness? What if I stay in the wound for awhile and explore the pain? What happens when I just allow myself to be in the reality of being alone? What if there is never going to be anyone? Can I be happy just being alone? Can I learn to except myself as the loner, weird artist, spiritualist that has always never fit in? What if I just accept the reality of the place that I am? It’s drinking my tears to heal my wound because the wounds of abandonment cannot be healed if I keep abandoning myself in this loneliness. And that is the gift in the suffering, itis  learning to accept myself as I am, it is learning that real love isn’t a fantasy and anyone that tries to sell you on a fantasy isn’t looking for the real thing; and wouldn’t know the real thing if they think a fantasy is love. Because real love is accepting yourself and others for all their imperfections and wierdness. I was willing to look past his imperfections but he was not willing to do the same. Sometimes it is better to be alone. I felt myself fall and get pulled down by crashing reality because I allowed the fable.

Sometimes being hopefull is actually being in denial because my heart knew and my intuition knew exactly what was about to happen because my subconscious was waking up to my denial. So there is no fairytale ending but there is a real and honest happiness in facing the truth. No one can make me happy but me and no one can heal my emotional pain and wounds but me. My happiness is my responsibility, moment to moment because the moment is all we have.

My book is available on ~ The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ~ by Gracie Ackerman

An Organized Goddess Religion



Why would we want an organized Goddess religion when we know what religion has done to the world by causing inequality and wars? A Goddess religion could create a balance in society by being a fair and just religion that is equal; creating equalities and justice for all the people by the way it is practiced and by the way it’s dogmas or rules are formed to support all of humanity. The patriachial religions that exist today uphold a few men; by sex and sexual orientation. The patriarchial relgion particulary hates women causing great inequality and the war of the sexes as women and gays sexuality is judged as file by the following scriptures.

Leviticus 27: 3 -7 God defines the value of women as 60 percent of men’s value

Leviticus – If a man lies with a man as one lies with a woman,both of them have done what is detestable, they must be put to death.

Islam – don’t marry a women that are already married unless they are slaves that you stole in war

Hindu – Males aged 24 and 30 should marry females between the ages of 8 and 12

Judaism – A womanis a sack of excretment

Buddhism – Nuns have one third more rules to follow than monks in the vinaya-pitaka. The failed man becomes a woman in the next life.

Jainism – Women cannot achieve liberation without being reborn as men first.

Anyone who knows anything about religion can find passages like this riddled throughout patriarchial religions text or scriptures of multiple different religions that were created by men in the name of a male god. For thousands of years these religions that clearly teach hate and sexual repression have also created societies that act in tern. We see this hate and bigotry seeped into governments legislation and laws. If a religion existed that stood up against this religion’s bigotry we could create a more balanced and psychologically healthy world or society.

So my dear reader lets create it. First every religion needs deities; because The Goddess is about justice and balance she chooses to stand with her God, and their children and so we have The Divine Feminine, The Divine Masculine and all their creations, including all of nature. This is a religion based on seeing sex as sacred rather than as evil or sinful. This religion is based upon loving all that is natural including the needs and wants of the body. The body is seen as the sacred holy temple of the divine light of the soul. All races and sexual orientations are welcomed and loved in The Goddess Relgion as sacred. The Goddess Religion respects that all people have a different lens that they understand the divine through and so many God and Goddess archetypes and templates are given symbols, rituals and scriptures to help us to all rise towards our divine nature; towards the highest aspects of one’s own specific divinity or soul.

Unlike the patriarchial religions that preach women’s bodies, wombs, menstruation, breastfeeding, childbirthing and ovulation as dirty and unclean; The Goddess Religion will honour the miracle and the wisdom in the life and death giving powers of the feminine body. Saying ” There is power in the blood,” will take on a new meaning. The Divine Masculine and the Divine Femine will come together once more in sacred worship. The war of the sexes will end when sex is sacred and bodies are not dirty but of love and light.

In The Goddess Religion no one will be put above others as it will be a cirlce of light rather than a ladder of success to climb in the wordly sense of powering and ego tripping above others; those who are self taught, and wise seekers will all be able to lead and organize the worship.

It will not be a place of business or of social competition as this will take away from the zen, peace, manifesting and inner soul work. It is a place were all are welcome and filled with energy not stripped of it due to wordly ventures.

Being that the church has to be established the first services would be held in rented halls; community buildings or private homes, backyards and parks. The problem with establishing the religion is getting enough people together who are brave enough to stand against the social stigmas and who have the will power to put in the time and effort to organize and execute. We have to understand that the main force behind the patriarchial religions was to control and conquer masses of peole and it still is the main force behind it. The force behind The Goddess Religion is love and acceptance or true spiritual healing vs world domination; so would that be enought to get people together to actually make it happen?

This is an organized model of a Goddess Gathering or Service

Music and singing to welcome the worshippers – they all say together under the priestess and priest ” We all come together in the Divine Light of the Eternal Mother and Father ” as this is a unification and a invocation or invitation that the God/ Goddesses join us

There would then be introductions and hugs and announcements of births/deaths/engagement/weddings/birthdays etc.

More music or even a solo performer and then there would be prayers and a guided meditation.

There would be writing and or scriptures written of the specific God or Goddess that would be a part of the specific spiritual lesson or ritual of the service. There would be symbolisms used and those making living testimony of their own spiritual experiences towards the message or meaning of the God/Goddess choosen for the worship.

More praying or specific ritual towards that diety as to close the service

An offering would then take place to support the church

The worshippers would then be sent off with more singing and music to be dismissed towards coffee and refreshments for more unformal socializing afterwards.

The services would be held in the evening of Friday 13 as this is the day of The Goddess or the feminine. There would be specialized gatherings for new and full moon rituals as well as astrology and other spiritual but not patriarchial beliefs would be included in much of the worship and ritual.

Same sex marriages would take place and open sexual relationships would not be judged. Misogyny, emasculating and child abuses would not be tolerated as all members of the church would be treated with respect and equality.

” Do unto others as you would have done unto you.” would still stand as valuable spirituality.

Of course the reality is that this religion doesn’t exist today; we still have male religious leaders giving women allowances over their bodies like ” It’s ok to breastfeed discreetly in church but don’t have abortions or use birth control.” we still have churches that refuse to let women minister and churches that refuse to include gay and lesbian people. But wouldn’t it be wonderful if this relgion existed and you could taylor God and your worship of God/Goddess to be just as unique and special as you are? It would be lovely to see us all in heaven.. but what if we created some heaven on earth?

Just maybe one day this will happen.

Justin Trudeau and the Patriarchy


Dear Mr. Trudeau the patriarchy is a system of society or government which men hold power and largely exclude women from it. The patriarchy is also religions based on the rule and worship of male gods that exclude female gods. It’s interesting how what we believe governs us from above manifest as governing us on earth. The worlds first spiritual or religious practices were governed by both female and male gods. The seat of religion, historically is the Middle East; this is were the three most powerful worlds religions were formed and of course were there is the highest concentration of war and violence today due to these religious beliefs or dogmas. But before Roman Times ; Gaia was believed to have been the first God or Goddess to have given birth to the cosmos and all of it’s creations. When the Middle East and Rome began to grow and expand it’s empire through war, Zues the god of war began to take over the belief systems of mankind. With the belief of all male gods men on earth began to use violence against women and their children to enslave them into being property vs being equals. We see that to this date in dogmatic beliefs that make women sex and sexuality evil, tempting, seducing and distracting towards causing men to rape them, beat them and or miss treat them. Women today in our western and eastern cultures are blamed and abandoned by a male based society that vitimizes them and then chastizes them for being victims.

To this very day men of power like yourself use women issue;s like feminism as a means of self promotion to then further control women by promoting patriarchal religions like Islam, Christianity and Judaism ( just to name the three most powerful ) as being pro- feminism or pro- diversity when in fact, the fact of their specific and fundamentalistic dogmas, these dogmas written into their scriptures as a belief system; these religions and others like them are anti-woman, anti- gay and full of hate speech – is a speech which attacks a person or group on the attributes such as race, religion, ethinic origin, sexual orientation, disablity or gender – yet you have termed the phrase Islamaphobia as a potentially hate speech to label those who appose it’s sexism or misogyny, or terrorist attacks done in it’s name as racist. What you are attempting to do is to silence freedom of speech, freedom of thought and to disolve democracy – a system of government by the whole population – there is a reason why government and religion must remain separate. Clearly government and religion must remain separate because the dogmas in religion cause hate and division by causing inequality. That inequality obviously all ready existis in this so called modern society that isn’t really modern or evolved. Women have yet to see equal pay for equal work, the law has yet to be equal or fair to women as sexism and sexual harassment exist deeply within our judicial sytems. You have yet to address in depth the sexist judges, police and courts who still further victimize women and girls for being victims of men. Yet you use your time in power to further relgion that is sexist, enslaving and violent towards women and children.

Canada is still a country that doesn’t support it’s women in children with far wages, child care and programs that help average families with, health and education so that women, children can flourish, and so that all of Canadian’s can experience a greater quality of life. It seems to many of us that you are more concerned with your own social, global profile towards other world elites than you are concerned about the health and safety of every Canadian citizen. This isn’t a populatity contest this is real life. Most Canadian’s were not born to privilege like you and it seems that you have never understood that you are not a King you are a Prime Minister of Canada, this means that you work for the people. It seems you need to be reminded of the fact that our tax dollars pay your wages and that accepting gifts of vacations from your filthy rich elitist Muslim friends ( Who of course is a man ) has erroded the people’s confidence in you. You have not put all of our interests into perspective but simply a select few whom you can use to further your own political goals and strategies. Going by the history above it is easy to reason that your goals along with the other powerful men of the world is to keep the power over women;  by confusing them into believing that patriarchial based relgions support feminism by having women internalize misgyny by being brainwashed and slut shamed by their dogmas. Having women believe that they are responsible for enticing men by exposing their bodies or expressing their sexuality is misogyny. It starts in the school system by sending young girls home for wearing shoulder bareing dresses; saying they distract the boys while teaching them that they cannot be distracted by male sexuality. These are double standards and they are inequalities; this is sexism. The government or system is teaching boys that they are not responsible for restraining themselves but that girls and women are responsible for being sexualy harassed by what they are wearing or doing. The system is not teaching men and boys not to rape but is teaching women and girls how not to be raped; this then leads to victim blaming that we see in the relgious and court systems when women and girls are raped or abused.

Religion isn’t spirituality. Spirituality is truely diverse as it doesn’t judge or condemn by dogmas as everyone has a right to believe in what they like as long as it doesn’t infringe on the personal rights and freedoms of others. Religion doesn’t allow freedom to those who don’t follow it’s dogmas; those dogmas are to condemn and to cause physical harm to others who wish to be free of them. Religious freedom is an oxymoron as it doesn’t allow freedoms to those who do not follow it or even to those who do. Religion hates women as it condemns them for their wombs blood and sexual pleasure.

If you were a true feminist like you profess to be you would not be promoting religion over women’s rights or gay rights.

The only thing that you should be speaking out about is that everyone deserves not to be terrorized by religion or for their beliefs but also no one should be able to use their religion to take away the fundamental rights of others. People do have a right to speak out and to protect themselves from anyone or group that wishes to take their rights and freedoms from them in the name of their relgion or god.

If you really want diversity than how about we include some female gods in the state holidays. On my calendar I only see holidays that pertain to male gods and male worship. But that might just be too feminist for you?

That one in a million guy will get me


Driving with my son this afternoon from Vernon back home to Armstrong, we had the windows rolled down as if to welcome the sunshine and spring into the car. The sweet smell of animal shit came wafting in and I said to my son as he made a face ” That sweet smell of the country.” it was like a welcome home. Both me and my boy are learning to leave the pretentiousness of Kelowna behind us. Later that evening we decided through a friends advice not to dye his hair metalic blue because Armstrong isn’t Kelowna and his farm kids friends just wouldn’t get it. Then my girlfriend said to me ” Gracie the real you isn’t like the person you post online. I mean it is and it isn’t. The Gracie I see is low key and nature loving. You didn’t fit into Kelowna because you are not high maintenance. Like I understand why you do what you do online, but other people just will not get it especially guys. But I get it because I have to run a business and but on my business face just like you have your online profile ego and I know that it is both sides to the coin for both of us, and that we are just country girls at home.. but to other people who don’t really know you they just will not get it.” than I said to her ” But you found a guy that gets it, you found that ( one in a million guy ) that guy that is the redneck, country boy at home but the high flying business dude at work.. so if you can than I stand a chance of meeting a man that can get me and my two sides of the coin just like all of us? Or at least I hope so, because the work I do online is important and I need the ego or the persona to get the attention for the message.”

But yes she is absolutley right, it is going to be very difficult to find the man or have the one in a million man find me going by my online profile. Women’s sexual empowerment and equality, and calling myself a feminist is going to scare off a lot of men or attract men who get the wrong idea. When I was in Kelowna W. Brett Wilson called me crazy and pretentious because he is used to women like that obviously, but I think he spoke for most men who would judge me the same way going by what I post online. He told me I was attention seeking, and by a base line one size fits all defintion he was correct. The online Gracie does want attention to get the message out that a woman getting attention for her sexuality isn’t evil, slutty or shameful; but the Gracie at home in her daily life.. well I am actually quite simple. I am a little jock/nerd/mommy/country girl. Yes I am an intellectual as I can tell you that the feminine archetype I am describing here is the Artemis/Venus. You see Artemis is the other side of the coin of Venus.. so Venus would be high maintenance and very sensual and Artemis is the chaste, athletic woman or girl. A woman goes from both one to the other and that confuses men, a psychologist will know exactly what I am talking about.

I have been in my inner Artemis for a few years now as I haven’t had a sexual partner for 2 1/2 years now. I know that seems like a total contradiction towards what I put out online towards women’s sexual freedom and empowerment. Of course many men and women will assume by my online profile that I have many partners and lots of sex; but it is also my freedom to explore being chaste.

I have had a very similar conversation  with another girlfriend of mine who is working on becoming a psycholigist; as to how in my daily life and upon getting to know me personally how I am both the Artemis and the Venus and as to how I am very much the Artemis right now in my daily life. Artemis is also very grounded and intouch with nature and children.

Another of my girlfriends was telling me how awful it is that a woman cannot say she is a strong woman and than say she also wants a relationship with a man, without the world judging her as weak. She is right. I believe a strong woman can do it on her own but she is also strong by letting a man do for her, and a strong man will not want her to do everything for herself but will want to help her and show her love by helping her. I am not an old school feminist who believes that wanting and having a man in her life is weak, I believe becoming a couple with the right person can make you stronger in many ways. Most men and women will judge me online as not being open towards bring in a masculine man or country gentleman towards me for calling myself a feminist.

I am a very spiritual woman but I can’t handle spiritual flakery; I don’t want to attract a spiritual nutcase either. I think he will be my opposite and even possibly be an atheist to counteract or balance me. That is why opposites attract. I guess my one in a million guy will be like me in the fact that he can be all business and serious about his work out in the world like I am with my book and blog; but be a sweet, and chill redneck country boy at home.. He will be the one that is smart enough and brave enough to understand why and what I am doing online, and stand by me; but also he will have the wisdom and common sense to see that I am really a pure and simple soul.

As a mom it’s really hard to write, it was really difficult to take the selfie I posted here; as I try to write someone always wants and needs something and when I was taking the selfie my son kept banging on my bedroom door. I was lucky to get the pic first try. Trying to edit my blog and to edit the image… ya right.

In real life, my life is very nitty gritty. I don’t party because it’s just too much work and I like my sleep so I can get up and lift and workout in the mornings. I am actually quite basic, very loyal to my friends and family. I have never cheated on a man and I am a one man, woman. I like my daily life simple and sweet. In many ways I  can be quite old fashioned.

The Emancipation of Women’s Sexuality





As long as women are judged by how they dress, who they are with and what they are doing as worthy of having or not having basic human rights they will not have the same rights and freedoms as an average male does in society. As long as women’s bodies are objectified as pornographic they will not be free to fully express or be who they truly are. Granted we all have to follow some social rules, but the double standards placed on women’s sexuality vs a man’s prevents women from having the same freedoms. Men are not blamed for enticing a rapist, men are not blamed for enticing sexual harasment or domestic abuse for supposedly flaunting their sexuality. The belief that men cannot control their sexual urges vs that women can control their sexual urges, is an excuse that allows men to abuse and control women throughout many levels of society and within the home.

The fact that young girls are taught in schools that they must dress in a appropriate way so as not to distract the boys from getting their education and as a way to defend themselves from unwanted sexual advances; preaches towards the social brainwashing used to enslave women to men. Women are also abused by other women who fear loosing male attention and approval by being slut shamed and bullied into dumbing down or covering up their natural sexuality and biology. Other women have proven over the centuries to be brutal and cruel towards their same sex due to competing for a man’s resources and protection.Women who are sexy or sensual, pretty and overtly feminine are seen as seducing men, and using their beauty as a tool for survival and manipulation vs just being who they are. Women have proven throughout history to be their own worst enemy or friend-ememies; some of this jealousy and hatred towards their own sexuality and other women’s sexuality is due to being brainwashed by religious dogma, that has caused internalized misogyny. For women to become free or sexually emancipated we must start within ourselves and with a sisterhood. As far as the promotion of feminism; women are keeping themselves back just as much as the patriarchy, by jealousy and internalized misogyny. If women want to rise towards true equal rights we have to become aware of our own internal misogyny and jealousy towards our own sisters.

If women had equal pay and equal opportunity and if they could be just as free in their bodies and sexuality as men; they wouldn’t have to compete from male attention or resources nor would they be pushing eachother down due to petty jealousies.

It isn’t just the partiarchy that is keeping women down it is women that are keeping women down. We have believed the lies of a media and religion that tells us to fight against each other vs standing together as a sisterhood.

In order for women to be truly free we need to be able to walk the night just as freely as men; we should be able to get dressed for work, without the worry of appearing too sexual just like men do. We are not free when we have to be constantly on edge wondering if we are in the wrong place, at the wrong time, drinking in public around the wrong people, wearing the wrong thing at work, or saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.. because society teaches and promotes that women are responsible for the abuses that men inflict onto them. Society teaches young boys that if a girl is dressed too sexy then he is entitled to harass her as it is her responsibility because she dressed like she was asking for it.

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Being a Goddess or your best self requires that you be yourself. I know a lot of women will seach this up on the internet looking for a step by step guide as to how to be anything but themselves. That is what society has brainwashed women into believing. You are probably wanting to know what you can wear, how you can act or special places you can go to to find your Goddess. I have seen women in Goddess Cirlces dressed like fictional Goddesses and acting in fictional ways that they think will make them more attractive to men and spiritually enlightened in spiritual societies. But honestly this is just role playing or pretend they haven’t actualized their Goddess or their best selves.

If you are looking for a tend or a concept to lose yourself in then you might not want to read this.

A woman who is truly empowered isn’t seeking the approval of others. A woman who is empowered is a Goddess as she is whole to herself. A woman who is being a Goddess is being in her own skin and is seeing herself through her own eyes. You see the patriarchy has brainwashed us through the media towards seeing ourselves and our value through the male gaze. There are many Goddess teachings by female or even male coaches and writers that promote a false Goddess understanding by teaching women becoming a Goddess is to become more attractive or alluring towards male approval. If a woman is not being herself she will not be able to sustain the ACT  and the relationship or courtship that she attracts with her ACT will fail over time because eventually the mask becomes to much of a burden to wear.

Being an empowered woman or GODDESS is not a trend, it is not a fashion nor need it be a spiritual statement; becoming empowered is simply for herself, for yourself.. it is hedonistic as it is simply for the pleasure of being you. It is for the pleasure of exploring you.

A Goddess or an empowered woman is a feminist or believes in equality because she loves herself; the only way to true empowerment is to love and respect yourself.  A Goddess owns herself, her mind, body, reproductive rights, she speaks her mind and gives her opinions. A Goddess is not a damsel in destress, she saves herself but when she needs help she will seek it out because she loves herself enough to know when she needs help. A empowered woman or a Goddess empowers other women, she helps other women by giving her wisdom freely to other women and girls who cannot afford to pay for it. Like I am doing here; but she also knows her worth and isn’t shy in asking for what is due her.

A Goddess is not a brand, just like I said it is not a trend or a fashion statement; an empowered woman and empowering other women is timeless; but, except for a select few men who are more intouch with their inner feminity most Goddess Work must be taught by women who have lived as women; because you do not know what you do not know.

As an empowered woman I do not seek out fame and fortune because I know these things are fleeting; but I seek out a medium on which to share so that all women can become empowered by the message. I don’t and nor should you need the world’s attention or approval. Fame is a vehicle and money should be a shared resource to further empower others.

A Goddess or an empowered women owns her own sexuality past shame, past religious dogma that is the male gaze or perspective, she owns her sexuality past societal norms as they are not normal. A Goddess decides what and how her body will be shaped; but because a Goddess loves herself her health and wellbeing are her main goal. A Goddess choses if modesty or nudity is right for her and doesn’t slut same other women for their own unique choices as to how they express their sexuality.

You become a Goddess by being brave enought to step into your unique and special self. You become a Goddess by loving you as you are and by loving life. You learn to love life by being grateful in the moment, by honing in on your own special gifts and talents; these special gifts and talents become your purpose. A Goddess lives into her purpose and makes life meaningful by doing so.

A empowered woman or a Goddess listens to her own intuition or inner priestess or guides. She is her own spirituality and forms her own religion on around love and compassion to herself and others.

Being a Goddess or empowered woman takes intense bravery as the world wants to constantly drag women back into the male gaze or dumbed down patriachy model of a weak and meek woman, that should be seen and not heard. I Goddess ROARS..

I am not sorry that I didn’t give you a trendy and stylish version of becoming a Goddess that you are probably used to reading. What I hope I did was help you to go deep inside of yourself to invision the greatness of you becoming more of you.

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