When I wasn’t even fully awake this morning; my eyes not yet even open, the thought that came into my consciousness was ” No more assholes.” I was waking up in the country to open my drapes to see the snow covered mountains to the sound of the early morning train. I love the sound of the train at night and the coyotes. The coyotes sound so hauntingly beautiful and mysterious on the cold and snowy winter nights. I woke up to waking up; to a feeling of coming back to my senses or the center of myself. It was a peaceful yet a radical awakening as I realized I didn’t ever have to fight anyone for anything when I was living in the city of Kelowna. I realized I didn’t even have to move to Kelowna to create my book and I realized, I can and I will, create whatever the fuck I want, whenever I fucking want to. When I left the city I left them to their own devices and I realized upon awakening that I always should have. I should of never cared what they thought of me or how they labeled me to suit their own purposes and insecurities. There ignorance was theirs to own not for me to trouble myself with even addressing, towards giving them or their issues any of my time.
My soul feels nourished once more and I do feel whole once more and reborn into myself and my own internal power. It is like I walked back into a mirror to walk into myself. All the names that they called me and all the things that they would have me believe myself to be, have fallen away and they are with them in Kelowna.
Before I awoke to my thought of ” No more assholes.” I had a dream. In my dream I was in a hologram and I was erasing parts of the illusion until it was gone. I stepped out of the hologram and back into my own life.. and so it was that Kelowna, I was in a 6 year bad dream that I allowed to be real by accepting the illusions that others projected towards me. My dream was my subconscious becoming conscious and awakening me to myself while I awoke. It was a dream of everyday magic; and that my friends is true awareness.
I have a new attitude towards my life now, I have a new attitude towards others who question my life and me as a person ( You are not my problem and I don’t have to explain a damn thing to you about my choices or my life )
I don’t need to fight anyone to be heard. If you don’t want to hear me that is your choice and it’s my choice not to give a damn and my choice to move towards life and happiness and way from assholes.
I am not going to waste my life and that is my time here on this planet, attempting to be the asshole whisperer. I am going to walk towards the light and happiness and teach my children to do the same. I am going to spend my time and energy on people who respect me, love me and who want to hear my message. I am turning my attention towards love, hope and joy. I am being fully emotionally present with my children, as in the past asshole’s nasty energy took my energy and time away from my kids. Not anymore. I am turning my back on all those who don’t matter and giving my love and attention to those who do..including myself.
I know logically it will take another 100 years or so before women have the same sexual freedoms and rights as men. I have done my part for society and for the human race upon writing my book ( The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ) available on Amazon.ca
So now I am going to let it ride on the hands of fate. I will keep writing, but I am not pushing and I am not fighting.. what is meant to be will be.. I am going to enjoy my life and peace.
Hilary lost because she lost the trust of the people. It wasn’t because she was a woman. Yes she was up against a misogynist and Donald Trump being a misogynist makes it appear to the common public that misogyny won. But Hilary isn’t every woman and Donald Trump isn’t every man. Yet we seem to need to simplify everything to comfort ourselves from the complications.
Yet Donald Trump’s political strategy was simple, as it focused on the common people. Donald Trump focused on the fact that politically correct speech is causing humanity to loose the art of debate. Frankly when we have to watch everything we say due to offending others intentionally or non intentionally, then the issues get washed out and non addressed. Being overly politically correct has caused suppression in communications and without proper communication debate is dead. With out proper debate democracy dies along with it. Donald knew he was releasing the tension and that releasing the tension was the catalyst to his rise.. but more importantly Hilary herself was not a good candidate… she has a weak character. It was quite clear that Hilary was wishy washy and manipulative; and a real feminist would not use feminism as a platform because running for president clearly stated that fact, by that action.
In my opinion Hilary was using feminism and feminist as manipulation. Hilary is funded by large private corporations that clearly run the press and the press is using feminism ( private corporations through Hilary ) to cause division of the people by labeling Hilary’s loss as all women’s defeat. All women and feminism wasn’t defeated by one woman’s loss; a woman that lied to the people about her own criminal activity and who is still being investigated for her criminal activity.. this is Hilary’s to own, not for all women to own. Once all women believe that Hilary’s loss is our loss than our freedom and equality are at even a greater risk than before the election .. because then manipulation has taken our own personal power away and given it to misogynist and misogyny. When we loose hope we loose. Don’t give up hope and never give your power away.!
Donald Trump and Hilary Clinton both were able to run for president because the level consciousness and personal accountability by the public has fallen that low. We the people are responsible for this mess because we keep looking towards horribly flawed leaders to lead us and our lives vs taking responsibility for our own choices. We have allowed ourselves to be lured by the press and media by sweet lies and bullshit. We have chosen fake over real.. just like we wanted to believe the media hype and propaganda of Hilary standing for all the women and girls.. for all the feminist of the world.. I don’t believe Hilary was a feminist..but I do believe she was an opportunist and the platform of feminism gave her the opportunity to boost her political profile up.. it is all just a story.. it is all a fabrication as is Donald Trump.. the world is but a stage..
Who do we have to blame for this mess but ourselves.. all of us all plugged into cell phones, Facebook, Twitter… etc.. etc..
We have become a world wide culture of bitching, whimpering babies .. pointing fingers at each other.. it’s some else’s fault.
Donald Trump is in essence the concentration of the TV generation.. every sitcom and reality show that we have watched since the 1950s.. and then we wonder why he is now the president.
Justin Trudeau is the Canadian equivalent of the same.. just a pretty wrapped up box of empty promises..but how fake and politically correct he is..and he does it so well!!!
Hilary’s emails to Justin Trudeau address using feminism as a platform to boost her votes..
Once again Hilary’s loss isn’t a loss for all women.. the loss is that so many women believe it is and fell for the empty box of fake political propaganda…
It’s all bullshit people. Stop taking too personally ..don’t you realize it wasn’t ever personal.
Just maybe when Donald Trump called her ” A nasty woman” he should of made it more politically correct and said ” Nasty person.” or would that have just washed out the debate..or can we really have mature and focused debate without everyone taking it personally.. towards their own personhood?
We are bunch of ninnies and that is why Donald Trump is president.. he is the manifestation of this level of consciousness and the level of intellect that now resides over this *modern world* !MESS!
So lets just all suck it up and face our part in the destruction of democracy and intelligence.
If we are ever going to fix this mess; we need to start practicing the art of debate and forward communications; if we learn to see more and communicate through the lens of intellect and fact over the superficial and overly emotional; we will be able to effectively listen..listening is the other side of public communication that is now missing! We are too busy listening to respond rather than listening to listen, that we miss communicate constantly. Our miss communications or lack of listening are geared towards the other person by blaming them for not communicating in away that we are comfortable in hearing.. how can we communicate at all? This is not a war of the sexes.. this is the war against the intellect and critical thinking…
Critical Thinking is becoming extinct ..and along with the death critical thought.. humanity will soon follow..
The lesson in this post is to think for yourself..see past the political propaganda and come to your own conclusions, than use said conclusions towards taking positive actions in your own life to create the change you seek. Maybe then mass consciousness will manifest better leaders.
I found my happiness… it was in acceptance. My dream about Albert Einstein helped me to become conscious of the unconsciousness of others around me..and that I cannot help them.. it is what it is. I had to learn the hard way.. like Alice falling down the rabbit hole and then attending the Mad Hatters tea party.. she realized they were all mad and incapable of seeing or becoming aware of their own madness..and so she had to leave them to it… and so I am. I had to go out into the mad world of my local community and try to attempt to be a part of society; to see that I don’t want to be a part of it.. I want to be a part from it.. I want none of it. It’s funny that they thought I was causing drama because I was drawn into their dramas.. but such is madness..
But one day.. just the other day, as I lay on the grass listening to my son’s joyous laughter..and the laugher of the other children.. I realized that I liked this world so much better.. that there is happiness in letting go of caring what other people think of you..and I realized I wasn’t ever meant to fit in to their world… my level of consciousness is much nicer..and my nightly dreams are now getting even more trippy as I let go and just go with it.. my mind is free of them and their babble,, my spirit is soaring once more… and I am back.. back to myself..and I know now what happiness is.. it’s finding yourself.. your inner bliss.. it’s the love of the simple, sweet moments I spend with my kids.. it’s my workouts,, it’s cooking wonderful organic meals… and sunrises and sunsets.. it’s writing here on my blog..it’s putting paint on canvas.. it’s the deep conversations I have with my teenage daughters about growing into womanhood..
I feel down the rabbit hole..and I fell for the madness.. but now I am back to my senses..and back to myself..and I realize now I shouldn’t of ever trusted madness to define consciousness..there is madness of doing and doing and getting nowhere..but right back were you started…and then there is the good crazy.. and that is being in a world of my own.. the place deep inside of myself.. were I make magic into art.. I give method to madness..now that is my kind of crazy..
let them have their nonsense.. it’s a long road to nowhere..
I will be baking pumpkin pie and enjoying life
We are Gods.. we create this reality.. God is in words and in forms or symbols that we create because we are the Gods creating Gods outside of ourselves.. once humanity realizes that we are the Gods, that we create, then we can move forward towards our true evolution..because once we all accept this as fact and accept the sciences .. we will create a reality that is conscious.. but because most of the human race lives by superstition we remain unconscious towards our own divine nature.. ( you know it’s wisdom because it’s damn simple )
Q. ” Why does the cage bird sing?”
A. ” Because it is in it’s nature to sing.. when the bird stops singing it’s dead ”
The riddle or metaphor.. Humanity is killing it’s self by denying it’s own true nature through religious repression.. humanities repressed sexual nature turns to wars inside the subconscious and therefore manifests outside of the individual consciousness towards the wars of nations and the sexes.
If the answer to humanities problems or lack of evolution is continually denied..it will eventually lead to us destroying our own species … the answer is to not deny our own nature or biology .. this creates harmony and life vs death from lack of thriving due to repression..
See how simplistic wisdom is…
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