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My White Privilege Card is broken


The inspiration of this post goes to Jagmeet Singh the leader of the NDP party of Canada. I follow all the political parties but I find him to be like watching a trainwreck. He seems to have won the publics and his parties affection by using The Race Card and guilt to have been elevated into his public position, using social justice and even now feminism as virtue signalling. Virtue signalling is used to up one’s public standing or public reputation. Anyways each time I comment on instagram his followers swarm me by calling me racist, having white privilege or of being ignorant; while most of his followers are very young students caught up in his public hype that suits a DJ or a prize fighter more than of a professional politician with a proper and solid political platform. Honesty I think he intends to destroy democracy by using the promise of revised and modernised socialism as manipulation towards eroding western traditions in the name of multiculturalsim. I put up a post asking him if his engagement and marriage was arranged and I asked him were he stood on women’s rights and equalities; to be swarmed on my instagram by his followers mostly of Indian asian decent. I was called names and my charater and physical appearance were attacked by ” his people” but I was the one called racist? I took down the post and made my instagram private for a week to get these people to calm the fuck down. But the seriousness of the nature, of Jagmeet’ is what I question; as obviously one cannot question him with out him sending a mob in response. So anyways I am going to inform everyone on how my white privilege card is broken; because I was informed of my white privilege by his followers over and over again. Lets explore my history.

I was born with a broken white privilege card. My mother had serious schizophrenia. She had me 10 months after my sister. I was a mistake that was made when my father forced himself on my very sick mother right after she gave birth to my sister. I didn’t have a cradle. I slept in the buggy by the kitchen sink at my nanny’s house, as my mom often left my father to seek help from her mother. Upon reflection the Ministry of Child Services should of taken us away from our parents very early on so that all 4 of their children wouldn’t of had to suffer the way we did. All though upon putting myself into the foster care system at 16 I suffered still at the hands of strangers that made out that they were good and decent people.

My father and mother would end up back together several times and so we would see our father beating our mother and he would also beat us. My mother was hightly suicidal, she would spend a great deal of her time in the mental hospital so we; her children would end up with at our grandparents or at the mercy of our abusive father who had no mercy. I have been so hungry .. oh.. people cannot imagine that sort of hunger unless it is experience first hand.

At school I was considered a waist of time and enegy by most of the teachers and parents .. or ( White Trash ) even though I was bright and multi-talented I was given no opportunities to shine; rather I was passed by intentionally. One time I remember being in Victoria BC on a field trip with my class to the Parliment Buildings. I was very active in the debate club at school and very good at it, but when the teacher was told he could only bring in 10 kids to watch a bill be passed he chose the kids whose parents were wealthy and influential because he said ” They have better chance than you do Gracie; nothing personal it’s just rational” that was back in 1981 and he was right because Elliot Pister did go into politics and he was one of the chosen few. But of course my social status and social worth was shown to be worthless.

I tried to stop my mother from taking her life but in a mental hospital in Vancouver BC she was successful at hanging herself from a pipe with her PJs. Now you would think that given our father’s horrible reputation with the police and with Child Services that we would of been put into the system but no, we endured 3 horrible years with him and his very abusive girlfriend. The school system and the entire town turned an intentional blind eye towards our horrible abuse that was much like living in a concentration camp. It was -30 outside but we had no heat or hot water in the side of the huge house they rented. We were made to work outside in the blistering heat and the freezing cold to keep his girlfriends horses and other animals. We were so starved that we collected cans to make money to feed ourselves and ate out of garbage cans at school.. yet no one did anything to help us when the abuse was very obvious. And so my White Privilege Card was broken right from the start.

I ran away from my father’s house when I was 16 because he tried to rape me. I spent my 16th birthday on the streets of Banff Alberta, hungry, afraid and with a girlfriend that left me outside of a restaurant while she went inside to eat, because she had money but I didn’t ( that was my 16th birthday ) after a few days I was able to get a hold of my American grandparents that wired me money ( That I used to house and feed the friend that wouldn’t do the same for me ) for a week until they flew me to Vegas to live with them for a year. But my grandmother and grandfather had a nasty split and so I came back to Canada to put myself into fostercare. I was abused in one home out of 3; were they took the money for my care but refused to feed me or buy me clothes. I got a job to support myself, but I had basically been working jobs since the age of 10 to offset my father’s financial neglect.

I went into independant living through the ministry to use student loans to get myself through college. I timed out of foster care funding at 19 and ended up in a very abusive relationship to keep myself housed until finishing my education. I left him and stayed financially independant for a couple of years before meeting my ex husband. We started a business together and I was able to get a government grant at the time for being a minority in business ( A young woman ) { That wasn’t white privilege } I had to work for that grant by spending 8 hrs a day, 5 days a week in class, to write a 110 page business plan and to drum up 10 percent of my clients by tel-marketing myself on my weekends and evenings. More than half of those who applied dropped out before they earned the grant, because it was hard work.

After 14 years together, the death of my sister, 4 miscarrages, and 3 children my ex husband decided being a full time parent wasn’t for him and had an affair with a female employee. His still denies it to this day but they got married in Mexico last year.

Going through the divorce and the separation of assets was an experience in the sexism and the brokeness of our legal system; nothing about it was fair. He was able to hide and lie about many assets and still is, and because I couldn’t afford expensive lawyers and I had no family or parents to help me he robbed me blind. He made out with the majority of the sale of the house and he got the businessnes, as I was told by lawyers that the business couldn’t survive without him but could without me because anyone can do book work and basic accounting. The courts and judges also informed me that his time was far more valuable and important than mine or my work as the kids mother; whom I have the majority of costody. So  – WHITE PRIVILEGE DENIED -

I have been divoced now for over 8 years; I couldn’t get the courts and the judges to get him pay for his share of the child care and so I learned how to work from home and how to work my hours around my kids school time. Even getting my ex to tell the goverment that we were separated so I could recieve child tax benefits took my credit card and a lawyer.. not my broken white privilege card.

And even looking past the supposed white privilege, I have been told that I have pretty privilege so I should get more than most people do out of life because of being called pretty ( Even though when I was a little girl and teenager I thought I was ugly as sin, because I struggled with low selfestem because of my suffering ) But playing people with your looks always has some sort of karma attached to it. You always have to pay something so having a mean and nasty sugar daddy isn’t my definition of a way out of daily grind of life.

The point is – no privilege here. NONE. NOTHING has come to me easlily. When I was turned 30 my doctor said to me ” How does it feel to be 3o ” he was teasing of course; but I said to him ” I can’t believe I made it to 30 ” he look shocked and said to me ” Thats rather dark, why would say that?” and I said ” It’s a long story”

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I am a Goddess not a Nasty Woman


In a spiritual context Dr. Emoto showed through experiments that when water was infused with positive words it created beautiful crystals but when it was infused with negative emotions and words it created ugliness; also buddist monks are able to transcend into bodies of light by thinking only in abstracts of love, when they die their bodies are found to be the size of infants or only fragments of them remain. Scientists are still puzzled by these events… so if women are calling themselves nasty and vulgar they are becoming the energy within those words even if they attempt to redefine the original meaning, the bitterness and ugliness of this energy will eventuall become them. When I speak of God in the poem below, I am speaking of God in the sense of love not in the constructs of religious dogma that has shown though history to be toxic by it’s oppression.

Now changing the subject to the METOO movement and to feminism as a whole. Feminism has become an organization now owned by liberalism by redefining it through a George Soros liberalism lens that is to ” Look through a glass darkly ” as I expressed by it being tainted and made toxic with hatred towards men and towards the white race as any racism is racism. The METOO movement has become and is gaining more and more speed towards a male witch hunt or towards the castration of masculinty to further control the masses towards our enslavement to the elite. The way to ensure the enslavement of humanity is to turn us on each other, on our basic nature and to brainwash us by constantly redefining words. If you control words, you control thought, if you can control thought you can control minds in masses.

I have identified myself as a feminist before the liberalism definition of feminism took hold by integrated feminism, that is really to put patriarchy into feminism by the acceptance of the violent repression and oppression of Islam as pro women’s equality, this is a lie to wash out true women’s rights and equality. I did write a METOO about W. Brett Wilson and his oppression of me and my book, blog as a member of his gym; but upon seeing many professional men and men in Goverment being found guilty until proven guilty or innocent, I don’t want to destroy a man who I feel just made a stupid mistake. More importantly for my own sake on a spiritual and personal level it is in my own best interest to forgive him. To forgive him I am removing bitterness and toxic energy from my own soul, heart and spirit.  Upon watching the women’s march and listening to the toxic spew of hate and bitterness; watching women take on the identity of victim by being victimized, I can see what I do not want to become. Seeking revenge or wishing to avenge a wrong that my ego wants made right will only cause my heart to be full of rot and hate and it will push love in all it’s forms away from me and my own life.  So I write the words here of forgiveness and, as I have said words weave magical spells..

I forgive him 


Please go to my youtube channel to watch me read the poem below


The Woman’s March used by the state to push division and hate.

To fuel the fires of the war of the sexes created by religions, used by elites as a tool to turn men against women and now women against men-

To call themselves nasty women, to promote vulgarism over the divine feminine within them.

But I am the divine feminine. I am not a nasty woman

Yet they march with Linda Sarsour who stands with and for the islamic state that hates women’s sexuality and commits acts of violence on women’s bodies in the name of modesty.. and this is the patriarchy.

But they march in hijabs made with american flags using the symbols of freedom to march backwards to their own oppression.

They say I am a nasty woman I am a vulgar woman

They deny their higherstate

They deny their own divinity and they walk away from their DIGNITY

I am not a nasty woman I am the divine feminine

For I rise in grace

I rise in Love

I rise in Forgiveness

I rise by raising the divine masculine in men up, I rsie with the unity of the men in my community….

ect.. ect


Please go to my youtube channel of the rest of the poem. Please go to for my book ( The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ) ~ By Gracie Ackerman


Grace and The Goddess Within


I have learned many things since publishing me book and website several years ago. I learned how innocent I was to the ways of the world, I was silly to believe that I could change the world suddenly with my book and message about freeing women’s sexuality from male based religions and government rule. These structures based on the worship of male gods, male power and male archetypes have been in place for 1000s and 1000s of years and so it will take many more years and even centuries for humanity to evolve past these concepts that are causing the self destruction of humanity and this earthly realm. Most people have less than average intelligence at best and many people are brainwashed or too programmed into these belief systems and cultures to know how sick it is actually making them.

I realize now that I have been fighting a loosing battle and that I lost the beauty of myself and my own divinity from time to time in the battle. I have been needlessly combating when I should of just sheathed my sword and stopped casting my pearls upon swine. I am humblingly addmitting that my spiritual guides told me that fame and all that comes with it were never to be mine; that was the spiritual agreement that I made long before coming to this earthly realm; if others choose to believe me or not it doesn’t change the spiritual agreement. My spiritual family has told me many times to let go and flow with the divine as everything and everyone is in divine order and timing. I lived out my contract and completed my mission and now my life is mine. So with that I am choosing self preservation over being the female savior; as it is done. I sacrificed so much of myself and my personal ego identity and of course others will not see it or even be able to contemplate this spiritual work. But it doesn’t stop the power of the seed that has been well planted for future generations to reep the rewards of the fruit of it’s maturity, when the divine decides it is time.

My life has become very spiritual in the last few months and that is why I have not written on my blog because I wish to savor it and keep my soul close to my heart. My heart has opened and bloomed towards The Divine Feminine even more as I remain still in the womb of her and her in me. But of course, when I am in my most human moments I do fear the politics of division that are further dividing women and men through chaos and lies, yet I pray to a power that is much higer than the Gods that man’s ego greed has created as they blocked out the sun and the truth from all of us, because I come from them and they tell me they are coming here and they are here; because it is time. They that are of this world will soon face divine judgement; they speak of time being up but they are hiding the truth still as they have hidden the ancient of ancients behind false gods and lies built upon these false gods. There is a power far greater than the ideals of men and this is the true father and mother of creation. And so time is bending in on it’s self and what was old shall be new again and justice; the justice of the divine will be given in the way of the shining light of truth. And this gives me comfort to know that I helped make this way for them to usher in, as I am and we all are a part of this great plan.

Now I am walking into the light and I am being love, as I am seeking love; and now I will emerse in my Divine Feminine Goddess and let the Divine take up the sword.

Islamophobia M103 – How religious freedom goes against equal rights and women’s rights



” Women are treated more equally in some countries that are atheistic or where governments are strictly separated from religion” ~ Jimmy Carter

The three of the biggest world religions, the Abrahamic religions  ( Judaism, Christianity and Islam ) preach of a male god that has given the power to men over women. By these preachings women have become second class citizens the world over. In these teachings it is believed that women are the cause of the original sin, this sin inflicted onto Adam by Eve’s seduction or fall to temptation. And so we see the root of the evil placed onto women, their bodies and their sexuality. Women are constantly being judged by man for his lack of selfcontrol. Religion is and has been a catalyst towards creating culture and culture towards creating traditions. We are a world that traditionally abuses women and girls in the name of religious freedom.


Religious scipture, dogmas, and ideologies go against the human rights towards sexual freedom for mainly women and gays

The Canadian bill M103; if it becomes a law or if it is even entertained as religious bigotry towards questioning religion will set a tradition, a culture, a precedence towards the merger of Govenment and religion and by that the death of freedom of expression. IF RELIGION IS NOT DEBATED TOWARDS REFORMING IT ,  HUMAN RIGHTS WILL BE OBLITERATED FOR RELIGIOUS FREEDOM. If we deny sexual freedom by allowing sexual repression into the government than women’s rights will be turned back 200 years.

Women and men newly immigrated from countries that are dominated by religious extremism will more than likely find it very difficult to let go of their cultural and religious practices based on these religious fundamentalisms.

But my point is this if religion teaches men that they are above women, and religions create culture and traditions that are then settled into a culure to polute it with inequalites;  how then can it be put into to feminism as feminism is about women’s equality?

The answer is; it cannot. Religion without proper reformation and mediation cannot bring us towards becoming a modern civilization. We will keep waring, we will keep repressing each other in the name of the god and the dogma of that god. We will never come to true diversity, we will never experience true social justice, and we will never become a global community that is fair and just under the umbrella of these patriachal religions, that places government and spiritual control in the hands of men by placing women under men.

Right now the Liberal Government is pushing globalization and global citizenship or a world government by the union of councils like The Unitied Nations. The elite did this with the use of a patriachal religions back in 325 AD;  Constantine The Great united the Roman Empire by uniting religions but he gained control over his empire by denying female gods and placing male gods over the people; by placing sexual shame onto women; over half of society, he used men in his empire to oppress women for him. By the oppression of women he gave men a spureriority to repress the women of the empire for him. By repressing and abusing their own women they were actually abusing themselves by the false hierchy over them becoming more and more elite above them by the subterfuge. By the use of religion over the masses the worlds oldest elitist families have been steadily gaining over the average citizen. That is why the bigotry and hate in religion has not been reformed to this date as it is the deceit, deception, guile and cunning from the upper class to keep the lower classes lower by keeping the religious wars going; they steal and cheat from the common people.


To this day we are seeing multicultulism being the term used towards breaking down borders and reforming governments towards becoming a one world governmen through the UN to unite the world under one umbrella for the elites to take total control of the masses. We know from history that absolute power corrupts absolutly. With religion still in the bronze age; humanity will revert back towards more barbarism in the name of mass conformity.

In order for true democracy to take up root we must root out the darkness within the scriputres that are deep within all the worlds cultures and deep within us as individuals. We must be able to speak our truths and name our fears so that we can bring humanity and ourselves personally out of the darkness.


A Single Mother’s Guide To Empowerment


There are many women online and in the world of media that profess to be about women’s empowerment or to be life coaches; there are women with PHDs and other certifications whom have their blogs and books professionally editited, and so you may think them to be more qualified than me towards giving you advice and leadership. My qualifications are life skills built upon real life experiences. The person whom you should want to lead you or to give you qualified advice is the person or woman that is walking her talk. I am not overtly wealthy, I am not entitled as I have not and was not born to a life of privilege. I come from a very poor family and my father was very abusive and sexist. My mother committed suicide when I was 13 due to her mental illness and I put myself into the Canadian fostercare system in my teens. I ended up living on my own when I was 17 to then put myself through college with student loans. Due to my abusive upbringing I ended up in a seven year relationship with a physically abusive alcholic. I left him to finish my education in business college to then meet and marry my now ex husband who was emotionally and financially abusive. I have no extended family, and so have had to carry the responsiblity of being a single mother of three on my own. I went onto become a published author of the book { The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine } and to create my own blog and website

I have been through intense stuggles and trials in my life. I have been physically and sexually abused. I have been plunged into suicial thoughts. I have risen again and again from great hoplessness towards achieving many goals and dreams. My greatest of all dreams having yet to be realized; is to be given a world wide voice towards women’s rights, equality and empowerment. Upon writing my book about women’s sexual empowerment I have had to to stand against much sexual discrimination by shining a light on the sexual shame placed upon women by society. I still continue to fight this daily with all women who wish to stand against it and push back against conformity and sexual repression.

I have primary guardianship of my children and so that means they are in my care 90 percent of the time; so I am a full time single mother who is in the trenches of parenthood and womanhood with you.

I am writing this in point form because I am a busy mom and I like to be able to skim information when my time is limited.



1. Find your strength in forgiveness

Working on forgiveness and forgiving is the key towards finding innner peace and balance. My key to forgiving my ex husband was understanding his own father wound as to why he was unable to stay with us as a family unit, and as to why he had an affair when he found out I was having a boy with our third child. It was because he saw his son in himself and his wound that he didn’t want to face in his son. Understanding that no one is perfect and that we are all wounded helps to heal wounds into scars.  Many people will hurt us because they are hurt and not conscious enough to be able to heal themselves so they hurt others. Understanding will bring you to forgiveness and forgiviness will being you to inner balance. Balance is the key to strength.

2. Be responsible and take responsibility

When we are honest with ourself and make a point of becoming conscious towards our own weaknesses we can make them into our strengths or at least strengthen our weaknesses. Take responsiblity as to your part in the marriage or relationship ending. For example; I didn’t draw proper boundaries at the begining of my marriage and so I allowed him to disrespect me and allowed my independance to be taken from me as I gave it away.

3. Budget 

Part of taking responsibility is to take responsiblity for your money and spending habits. Write down your bottom line and then subtract your bills and abstract spending, make a budget from there. Write down daily what you have spent and on what to keep yourself honest. A part of being empowered is to take control of your money and be honest with yourself if you have a spending problem. If you are going into a negative in your budget it is time to make plans towards cutting out what isn’t needed and or finding a practical way towards generating more income.

4. Set Goals and be proactive

You can set all the goals you like but you must be proactive by doing the work and taking the actions towards acheiving your goals. My motivation is knowing that I have had my three children to set an example for. Here are a few of the goals that I have achieved over the span of several years.


buy a new car

write a book or blog

make new friends

charity work

body building competition

Setting and achieving goals are very important towards self empowerment and building self confidence, when you are finished achieving a goal it’s important to celebrate that goal but then to keep moving forward towards future goals. There is great satisfaction in a job well done!

5. Self care

I want all single moms to drop the guilt here; It is important that you meet the needs of your children but it is also inportant that your needs are met too. If your cup is empty than you have nothing to give your children. It is important that you allow yourself rest. It is important that you all eat healthy and that you workout five times a week. Take care of your appearance; your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual well being is your empowerment. Budget your time for me time.

6. Life isn’t fair

Life isn’t a fairytale. Many Goddess empowerment life coaches will try to sell you on meeting the man of your dreams and being able to create some fanastic other reality just by paying them for endless life coaching sessions; and that is wrong and will make you feel hopeless in the long run over empowered. Shit happens in real life and for the most part we are not manifesting this reality on our own. We share this earthly reality with billions of other souls in different levels of consciousness and so we are bound to run into some shit realities. The justice system is sexist and the world is full of bigotry and some real wack jobs; so we have to learn to work around it. We have to learn to make the best of what we can control and to accept what we cannot contol. That doesn’t mean we become complacent, just that we are able to choose what is worth putting our energy towards. When you hit a wall sometimes it’s best to go into a different direction of your own.

7. Feeling sad or suicidal

Most women’s sadness comes from unvented anger because we live in societies that don’t allow women to be angry; just like most men’s anger comes from held in sorrow because we live in societies that don’t allow men sorrow but only anger as an emotion; Therefore it is important to vent out our emotions to help us not give into to suicidal thoughts or actions. So please be angry and vent your anger out in a non destructive fashion such as a hard workout or screaming and crying into a pillow. Get help if you need help. Call the crisis line if you need help right away. I got help when I needed help. It takes great strength to ask for help when we are at our most vulnerable. Let no one shame you into being strong enough to ask for help. I have helped suicidal and vulnerable friends; and I have been there myself. The greatest courage is saving yourself. Remember this too shall pass

8. Have FAITH

Having a belief system or a practice that brings us to faith and hope when all feels lost brings us back to an empowered state. You can be an athiest and still find hope and faith in meditaion or nature walks. If religion or a belief is God gives you true empowerment than that is your private and personal walk in faith. My personal walk of faith is a spiritual, non religious, non dogmatic spirituality that is based in nature. Do what brings you hope, love and peace.

9. Gratitude

Comparison is the theif of joy ~ Theodore Roosevelt

Society and or the media is constantly wanting us to compare ourselves to others so we are motivated into buying products for other’s validation; from learning to be happy with what you have. Count your blessings when you feel like the world has short changed you. Most of us single mothers feel that way from time to time. Being a single mother is often a struggle and a financial jugglimg act; but when we learn to stop and smell the roses it can turn bitterness sweet. Count those little fingers and toes, be thankful for your health, for your talents and natual gifts, for your friends and community. Happiness is an inside job.

10. Be authentic

Be yourself. The most powerful thing you can be is your true self. Be prepaired to cut even the closest people out of your life if they don’t accept you for you. Speak to be heard and speak with your own voice. Remember you teach people how to treat you. Set boundaries down. Always maintain your DIGNITY

11. Romance

Don’t let people shame you as a single mother for wanting a new relationship and remember if you are not honest and clear with yourself you will not get what you want. It is ok to want romance in your life, of course it is! You can love your children and a new romantic partner. But being alone and getting to know yourself and taking the time to heal from your last relationship is critical towards your own empowerment. Empowerment is knowing yourself. Knowing yourself and becoming conscious of our own shadows, wounds and weaknesses means that we will be empowered and healed towards being ready for a new and healthy intimate relationship. Until you have worked on strengthening youself from the inside out you will not be ready for a lasting and healthy love. Time takes time and this takes time. A truly empowered woman doesn’t look for a man to hide herself behind, she goes into herself towards self transformation to become as a walking GODDESS 


You can find my book { The Goddess and Expression of the Divine Feminine } by Gracie Ackerman on Amazon,ca

Justin Trudeau and Post Nationalism/ setting up a dictatorship

At first I thought Justin Trudeau was going to be great for Canada and the world as he called himself a feminist and hired many women to be in his cabinet, but I had no idea that the women that he had hired would be used to push, promote and support Islam. Islam and it’s fundaments used to repress, abuse, segregate, and objectify women towards being property of men. I could not forsee that Trudeau would accept a vacation from Aga Khan’s private island that would cost taxpayers and also put him into a direct conflict of interest towards being neutral towards the Canadian people’s best interest vs the powerful elite. The financial cost to the tax payer was $ 133,883.00 but the cost to democracy could be much hirer as we know that he accepted the vacation from a wealthy eltist religious leader of the Muslim faith. I had no idea that the carbon tax was going to be used to kill Canadian industry before we have a chance to phase into a new Green Energy industy, by over taxing Canadian’s, capping the oil sands and then importing Saudi oil. The question Canadian’s should be asking is ” Why is Trudeau promoting and pandering to Arabic culture and religion?” I think the answer to that question is quite simple. It’s money and power. By Justin’s own words, attitudes and comments we can see that he wants to change Canada’s identity and culture by merging it with Arabic Eastern cultures and religion that creates that culture, by the idea of postnationalism. By making Canada into a higher percentage Muslim culture Justin feeds into the New World Order of promoting a religion and government that can control the masses through strict rules and dogmas of conformity primarly by controling the female population by laws based on modestly or to be frank.. controling women’s bodies and their sexuality as we see by female genital mutilation that lessons women’s sexual desires and by the hijab ( being promoted as a fashion choice in the western world ) that is really a religious code of conduct.

Taking a critical look at Justin’s statements about postnationalism shows his entitlement as an elitist and as a globalist that puts him into conflict against protecting Canada’s nationalism and it’s people and culture. Frankly Justin doesn’t give a damn about what Canadian’s want or what we think, as an elitist he is telling us what we want and what to think. Right now he is going around Canada giving town hall meetings about over taxing small business on top of the cabon tax he wants to blanket Candan with. He is not debating, but rather convincing Canadian’s by rhetoric – language designed to have persuasive or impressive effect on it’s audience, but often regarded as lacking in sincerity or meaningful content – he has all ready stated that no matter what Canadians think of closing tax loop holes for small business and placing more taxes on small business he and his government will go through with the tax. This is dictatorship as he is not working for the people but against their wishes. Justin’s over all goal is to impose a socialist government onto the common people, to impose religion into government to further censor the people ( that is already happening by those liberals brainwashed by the government calling those who are against religion in the government ” bigots and rascist ” and by the use of the word islamophobia and the passing of the bill M-103 which limits freedom of speech and could even bring in Sharia Law )

 I have to write here that I am against any hate crimes imposed on those of the Muslim faith or of those who dress according to the code of the Muslim faith should I be accused of islmaphobia

The word phobia means an irrational fear, to fear a religion that has many documented cases of extreamism, fanaticism that are carried out as terrorism, terroist attacks, the murder of gays and women in the name of that religion up to this date is a rational fear that is based on reality and fact. To rationalize the word islmaphobia becomes a non word that is indeed political manipulation or rhetoric used to silence the majority into conformity towards furthering the elitist agenda of controlling the world’s population, in mass by a world government based on dictatorship over democracy. But I am not allowed to say that least I should be called ignorant and heartless. Yet we see the UN doing nothing to stop the wars inside of wars inside of Syria because the UN is the foundations of the world government that has been secretly in power over what we think are the governments of the world. They use Syria as away to create political confusion or a diversion to erode borders and nationalism by pulling at heart strings when those elites are heartless themselves. To the elites we are little more than meat, and their agenda is to make the masses work for them. This is why Justin did not pursue electoral reform, becaiuse the publics desires to impove the system of democracy are a mute point. We simply do not matter and political leaders like Justin are promoted to us through a sytem that is not for the people but for the elites that run the system.

So what will happen to Canada and it’s existing culture since our own PM doesn’t respect or acknowledge that Canadian’s have a culture or any nationalism to protect? What will happen to our western democracy when religion that is Bronze Age is imposed into a our Government? What will happen to freedom of speech or the freedom of belief if we are told that we cannot question the practices of a religion that is based upon putting men in power over women and children? Patriarchy – a system of society or government in which men hold the power and women are largely excluded from it – but you say ” Justin has allowed many women to be in his government, he says he is a feminist so how can he by against women?” I say to you ” He puts women in his government that work within the boundaries of the glass ceiling or that submit to male power by accepting a patriarchial religion into government that puts men in power above them. I say to you that this is really misogyny in the disguise of feminism. Much like a enemy pretending to be your friend. It’s the enemy that is pretending to be your friend that is the most dangerous because the betrayal will be massive.”

How sucessful Trudeau and his elitist agenda will be, will be up to the people who allow it or who stand up to the betrayal.

The agenda is to slowly erode democracy towards dictatorship over the people for the elites by forcing socialism just for the common people. We will go backwards into the Middle Ages giving the power and wealth to the few by dis-empowering many.


Chiron Tears


Sometimes there is a gift or two in sadness, suffering and sorrow. We are a society that is constantly searching outside of ourselves for happiness and fulfillment. But what if it is the constant searching that makes us unhappy? We are always waiting for a better tomorrow and a brighter day but when we do this, we are not being in the moment or being present in our truth ,and the reality that we are currently facing. I have been doing this by telling myself that when I meet my soul mate my life will begin again. I have put myself in a frozen holding pattern by telling myself I will not be fulfilled unless a man loves me romantically again. I have wanted to prove to my ex husband that I am lovable by finding a man to love me the way he refused to do. But then if I believe this I am not loving myself and I will not be loving the man I could be with. I would just be in love with love or romantic notions rather than with myself or with the person that I am with.

I have been doing this with my book as well. Telling myself my life will begin as soon as I reach the success of having a publishing house publish me, and by reaching public notice, that my life will then begin. But the truth is my life and I have always been here this entire 8 years since my husband left me with our three kids. The truth is just the fact that I wrote a book and self published the bo0k has been a level of success that few people ever reach. The truth is that happiness has not evaded me but I have been finding excuses to ignore it.

I learned this lesson from the last man I dated just a few days ago. I fell into the online fantasy again and did what I said I would never do. That was texting and face timing with a man for hours before meeting with him in person to see if there was a physical connection. In the last 8 years of my single life it has always ended badly. You see it is easy to construct a romantic fantasy online. It is easy for men and women to profess to be much more online than in person. It is like building a castle in the clouds. It is nothing but fantasy that cannot be in reality. When I was on my way to meet him I felt a deep sadness because inside I knew what was going to happen. It crashed and burned. He told me he didn’t find me attractive by text message afterwards. I felt the fall again. The fall from the castle in the clouds. I went over everything he said to me in my head ” I really feel like something amazing is happening between us, something very special.” that’s what he said; and I fell for it like a total fool. Like I said, this wasn’t my first rodeo. I have had so many of these meet up dates over the last 8 years I can’t possiblily remember them all, it must be over 100. Yet here I was falling into the same patterns of longing and yearning for the fantasy man who would ride in on his white horse and save me from loneliness.

One of my worst fears is dying before I am loved by a man

But then what if I drop the false hope? What if I drop the yearning and the longing and I let myself fall deeply into the wound of loneliness? What if I stay in the wound for awhile and explore the pain? What happens when I just allow myself to be in the reality of being alone? What if there is never going to be anyone? Can I be happy just being alone? Can I learn to except myself as the loner, weird artist, spiritualist that has always never fit in? What if I just accept the reality of the place that I am? It’s drinking my tears to heal my wound because the wounds of abandonment cannot be healed if I keep abandoning myself in this loneliness. And that is the gift in the suffering, itis  learning to accept myself as I am, it is learning that real love isn’t a fantasy and anyone that tries to sell you on a fantasy isn’t looking for the real thing; and wouldn’t know the real thing if they think a fantasy is love. Because real love is accepting yourself and others for all their imperfections and wierdness. I was willing to look past his imperfections but he was not willing to do the same. Sometimes it is better to be alone. I felt myself fall and get pulled down by crashing reality because I allowed the fable.

Sometimes being hopefull is actually being in denial because my heart knew and my intuition knew exactly what was about to happen because my subconscious was waking up to my denial. So there is no fairytale ending but there is a real and honest happiness in facing the truth. No one can make me happy but me and no one can heal my emotional pain and wounds but me. My happiness is my responsibility, moment to moment because the moment is all we have.

My book is available on ~ The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ~ by Gracie Ackerman

An Organized Goddess Religion



Why would we want an organized Goddess religion when we know what religion has done to the world by causing inequality and wars? A Goddess religion could create a balance in society by being a fair and just religion that is equal; creating equalities and justice for all the people by the way it is practiced and by the way it’s dogmas or rules are formed to support all of humanity. The patriachial religions that exist today uphold a few men; by sex and sexual orientation. The patriarchial relgion particulary hates women causing great inequality and the war of the sexes as women and gays sexuality is judged as file by the following scriptures.

Leviticus 27: 3 -7 God defines the value of women as 60 percent of men’s value

Leviticus – If a man lies with a man as one lies with a woman,both of them have done what is detestable, they must be put to death.

Islam – don’t marry a women that are already married unless they are slaves that you stole in war

Hindu – Males aged 24 and 30 should marry females between the ages of 8 and 12

Judaism – A womanis a sack of excretment

Buddhism – Nuns have one third more rules to follow than monks in the vinaya-pitaka. The failed man becomes a woman in the next life.

Jainism – Women cannot achieve liberation without being reborn as men first.

Anyone who knows anything about religion can find passages like this riddled throughout patriarchial religions text or scriptures of multiple different religions that were created by men in the name of a male god. For thousands of years these religions that clearly teach hate and sexual repression have also created societies that act in tern. We see this hate and bigotry seeped into governments legislation and laws. If a religion existed that stood up against this religion’s bigotry we could create a more balanced and psychologically healthy world or society.

So my dear reader lets create it. First every religion needs deities; because The Goddess is about justice and balance she chooses to stand with her God, and their children and so we have The Divine Feminine, The Divine Masculine and all their creations, including all of nature. This is a religion based on seeing sex as sacred rather than as evil or sinful. This religion is based upon loving all that is natural including the needs and wants of the body. The body is seen as the sacred holy temple of the divine light of the soul. All races and sexual orientations are welcomed and loved in The Goddess Relgion as sacred. The Goddess Religion respects that all people have a different lens that they understand the divine through and so many God and Goddess archetypes and templates are given symbols, rituals and scriptures to help us to all rise towards our divine nature; towards the highest aspects of one’s own specific divinity or soul.

Unlike the patriarchial religions that preach women’s bodies, wombs, menstruation, breastfeeding, childbirthing and ovulation as dirty and unclean; The Goddess Religion will honour the miracle and the wisdom in the life and death giving powers of the feminine body. Saying ” There is power in the blood,” will take on a new meaning. The Divine Masculine and the Divine Femine will come together once more in sacred worship. The war of the sexes will end when sex is sacred and bodies are not dirty but of love and light.

In The Goddess Religion no one will be put above others as it will be a cirlce of light rather than a ladder of success to climb in the wordly sense of powering and ego tripping above others; those who are self taught, and wise seekers will all be able to lead and organize the worship.

It will not be a place of business or of social competition as this will take away from the zen, peace, manifesting and inner soul work. It is a place were all are welcome and filled with energy not stripped of it due to wordly ventures.

Being that the church has to be established the first services would be held in rented halls; community buildings or private homes, backyards and parks. The problem with establishing the religion is getting enough people together who are brave enough to stand against the social stigmas and who have the will power to put in the time and effort to organize and execute. We have to understand that the main force behind the patriarchial religions was to control and conquer masses of peole and it still is the main force behind it. The force behind The Goddess Religion is love and acceptance or true spiritual healing vs world domination; so would that be enought to get people together to actually make it happen?

This is an organized model of a Goddess Gathering or Service

Music and singing to welcome the worshippers – they all say together under the priestess and priest ” We all come together in the Divine Light of the Eternal Mother and Father ” as this is a unification and a invocation or invitation that the God/ Goddesses join us

There would then be introductions and hugs and announcements of births/deaths/engagement/weddings/birthdays etc.

More music or even a solo performer and then there would be prayers and a guided meditation.

There would be writing and or scriptures written of the specific God or Goddess that would be a part of the specific spiritual lesson or ritual of the service. There would be symbolisms used and those making living testimony of their own spiritual experiences towards the message or meaning of the God/Goddess choosen for the worship.

More praying or specific ritual towards that diety as to close the service

An offering would then take place to support the church

The worshippers would then be sent off with more singing and music to be dismissed towards coffee and refreshments for more unformal socializing afterwards.

The services would be held in the evening of Friday 13 as this is the day of The Goddess or the feminine. There would be specialized gatherings for new and full moon rituals as well as astrology and other spiritual but not patriarchial beliefs would be included in much of the worship and ritual.

Same sex marriages would take place and open sexual relationships would not be judged. Misogyny, emasculating and child abuses would not be tolerated as all members of the church would be treated with respect and equality.

” Do unto others as you would have done unto you.” would still stand as valuable spirituality.

Of course the reality is that this religion doesn’t exist today; we still have male religious leaders giving women allowances over their bodies like ” It’s ok to breastfeed discreetly in church but don’t have abortions or use birth control.” we still have churches that refuse to let women minister and churches that refuse to include gay and lesbian people. But wouldn’t it be wonderful if this relgion existed and you could taylor God and your worship of God/Goddess to be just as unique and special as you are? It would be lovely to see us all in heaven.. but what if we created some heaven on earth?

Just maybe one day this will happen.

Justin Trudeau and the Patriarchy


Dear Mr. Trudeau the patriarchy is a system of society or government which men hold power and largely exclude women from it. The patriarchy is also religions based on the rule and worship of male gods that exclude female gods. It’s interesting how what we believe governs us from above manifest as governing us on earth. The worlds first spiritual or religious practices were governed by both female and male gods. The seat of religion, historically is the Middle East; this is were the three most powerful worlds religions were formed and of course were there is the highest concentration of war and violence today due to these religious beliefs or dogmas. But before Roman Times ; Gaia was believed to have been the first God or Goddess to have given birth to the cosmos and all of it’s creations. When the Middle East and Rome began to grow and expand it’s empire through war, Zues the god of war began to take over the belief systems of mankind. With the belief of all male gods men on earth began to use violence against women and their children to enslave them into being property vs being equals. We see that to this date in dogmatic beliefs that make women sex and sexuality evil, tempting, seducing and distracting towards causing men to rape them, beat them and or miss treat them. Women today in our western and eastern cultures are blamed and abandoned by a male based society that vitimizes them and then chastizes them for being victims.

To this very day men of power like yourself use women issue;s like feminism as a means of self promotion to then further control women by promoting patriarchal religions like Islam, Christianity and Judaism ( just to name the three most powerful ) as being pro- feminism or pro- diversity when in fact, the fact of their specific and fundamentalistic dogmas, these dogmas written into their scriptures as a belief system; these religions and others like them are anti-woman, anti- gay and full of hate speech – is a speech which attacks a person or group on the attributes such as race, religion, ethinic origin, sexual orientation, disablity or gender – yet you have termed the phrase Islamaphobia as a potentially hate speech to label those who appose it’s sexism or misogyny, or terrorist attacks done in it’s name as racist. What you are attempting to do is to silence freedom of speech, freedom of thought and to disolve democracy – a system of government by the whole population – there is a reason why government and religion must remain separate. Clearly government and religion must remain separate because the dogmas in religion cause hate and division by causing inequality. That inequality obviously all ready existis in this so called modern society that isn’t really modern or evolved. Women have yet to see equal pay for equal work, the law has yet to be equal or fair to women as sexism and sexual harassment exist deeply within our judicial sytems. You have yet to address in depth the sexist judges, police and courts who still further victimize women and girls for being victims of men. Yet you use your time in power to further relgion that is sexist, enslaving and violent towards women and children.

Canada is still a country that doesn’t support it’s women in children with far wages, child care and programs that help average families with, health and education so that women, children can flourish, and so that all of Canadian’s can experience a greater quality of life. It seems to many of us that you are more concerned with your own social, global profile towards other world elites than you are concerned about the health and safety of every Canadian citizen. This isn’t a populatity contest this is real life. Most Canadian’s were not born to privilege like you and it seems that you have never understood that you are not a King you are a Prime Minister of Canada, this means that you work for the people. It seems you need to be reminded of the fact that our tax dollars pay your wages and that accepting gifts of vacations from your filthy rich elitist Muslim friends ( Who of course is a man ) has erroded the people’s confidence in you. You have not put all of our interests into perspective but simply a select few whom you can use to further your own political goals and strategies. Going by the history above it is easy to reason that your goals along with the other powerful men of the world is to keep the power over women;  by confusing them into believing that patriarchial based relgions support feminism by having women internalize misgyny by being brainwashed and slut shamed by their dogmas. Having women believe that they are responsible for enticing men by exposing their bodies or expressing their sexuality is misogyny. It starts in the school system by sending young girls home for wearing shoulder bareing dresses; saying they distract the boys while teaching them that they cannot be distracted by male sexuality. These are double standards and they are inequalities; this is sexism. The government or system is teaching boys that they are not responsible for restraining themselves but that girls and women are responsible for being sexualy harassed by what they are wearing or doing. The system is not teaching men and boys not to rape but is teaching women and girls how not to be raped; this then leads to victim blaming that we see in the relgious and court systems when women and girls are raped or abused.

Religion isn’t spirituality. Spirituality is truely diverse as it doesn’t judge or condemn by dogmas as everyone has a right to believe in what they like as long as it doesn’t infringe on the personal rights and freedoms of others. Religion doesn’t allow freedom to those who don’t follow it’s dogmas; those dogmas are to condemn and to cause physical harm to others who wish to be free of them. Religious freedom is an oxymoron as it doesn’t allow freedoms to those who do not follow it or even to those who do. Religion hates women as it condemns them for their wombs blood and sexual pleasure.

If you were a true feminist like you profess to be you would not be promoting religion over women’s rights or gay rights.

The only thing that you should be speaking out about is that everyone deserves not to be terrorized by religion or for their beliefs but also no one should be able to use their religion to take away the fundamental rights of others. People do have a right to speak out and to protect themselves from anyone or group that wishes to take their rights and freedoms from them in the name of their relgion or god.

If you really want diversity than how about we include some female gods in the state holidays. On my calendar I only see holidays that pertain to male gods and male worship. But that might just be too feminist for you?

Seeing Through The Spiritual Bullshit/ Spiritual Warrior


My personal spirituality started in a very humble, simple and quiet way. As a child I had very vivid dreams, my dreams were so real I sometimes didn’t know if I was awake or dreaming.. so did I really see and hear angels or is my memory playing tricks on me? Ancient images spoke to me so that’s why I taught myself how to read tarot cards by studying multiple books. I taught myself  how to decifer dream images. I taught myself yoga through old books and even as a small child I enjoyed nature walks alone to commune with the Earth Mother. But now all of that has changed. Spiritualiy is becoming a trend on social media and in the publishing world. Now to be trendy you have to pay to do yoga and be seen doing yoga. You have to be a certified reader by someone whom has been published by Hayhouse. Everything in the media influenced Spiritual Community has become ego driven rather than driven by the purity of The Divine Spark Within. Just like religion we are being taught to look outside of ourselves rather than within. Spirituality is really rather simple; it is being present in the moment and being your true authentic self. There is really nothing flakey about spirituality. Tends make spirituality into flaky, bullshit.

I got caught up in the bullshit too, and I know many people in the spiritual community have been and are caught up in the shit. It is shit because it is based on greed, ego and competitive fuckery. Last year this time I worked as a reader for a YouTube famous astrologer. I really liked her and things were going well with our spiritual relationship until she hired a media assistant to work for her. This lady wanted to promote me as well as her other readers but she wanted me to be anything but authentic, she wanted to promote tinsel rather than truth and so we clashed. To make a long story short, I quit and went to work out on my own. This lady is now working with another YouTube famous astrologer and so soon she will have him cleaning up his act and lossing himself in his ego rather than shinging his authentic self. I saw my own ego through this and that was the spiritual lesson and I also saw what I didn’t want to become and that was another spiritual flaky fake. At the time I was competing in Women’sBodybuilding, I learned about my own ego this time last summer and about how the ego can lead you away from true spirituality and inner peace. I was not living in the moment and I was not comfortable in my own skin. I had let a male trainer seduce me by using my own ego to get his high and money from me, to feed his ego.My zen type fitness turned into stress and pressure rather than a simple pleasure that gave me happiness. I became wise to the fact that working toward things for others approval was a certain way of falling off the spiritual path; and that path is the true path to inner happiness. True Happiness is simple, just like real and authentic spirituality it doesn’t need any special bells and whistles. 

I think the flakery in spirituality is when we think everything is a special sign from God or the Divine. Simply, this reality exists with us and without us. Most of the time we become truly intuned with or we commune with The Divine when we have reached a state of humility, gratitude or when we are in our greatest need. Not everyting, including the stars exist to please our every whim and whimper.

I know for a fact that even without paying for an expensive yoga class or reader certification that we all have the ability to commune with the spark within and the cosmos outside of us, I know for a fact that you don’t need and app for that. You don’t need an app to contact The Divine within or in the Cosmos.

You don’t need YouTube, you don’t even need cards or images, you don’t even need me as a reader to read you, you just need to meditate and pay attention to your dreams. You just need to get outside in nature, shut your ego mind down and do a few yoga poses on a mountain. I am not saying don’t listen to astrology or don’t get a reading from me or someone else, but I am telling you to put it into perspective. Spiritualists are people too,so don’t go for all the hype and media candy; that is the bullshit.

As a spiritual person it is my first perogative to lead you towards the real light rather than the shining spotlight of the ego. We all have the priest and priestess within us just waiting to be called upon.

My main focus now is to get real with my own bullshit; and to ignore or rise above the bullshit online. I belong to very few spiritual online groups, I just can’t stand watching all the fake and flaky, egotistical guru Facebook videos people post constantly wanting to be the next biggest thing in the spiritual community.. selling snake oil much? 


I find myself detaching more and more from the flaky spiritual community off and online. There have been times that I have walked through a spiritual fair to feel like I was Jesus walking through the Temple full of thieves.. not everyone that owns a deck of tarot cards and crystals has a gift, everyone does have the ablity to tune in but not everyone has that extraspecial talent. Spirituality has become a trend, its now what you wear, what you eat and even how you talk. It has become a costume party for some.

I have learned a lot about letting go. I just can’t pretend to be what I am not. I believe being a true alchemist is done by accepting your humanity and human experience as your spiritual walk and lesson on this earthly realm. It really is that simple. We are here to make mistakes, have fun, cry and yes even suffer to experience the fullness of life and death. It’s just not that complicated or grand. This life and it’s lessons are humbling and in that humbing there is great beauty and love.