Last night I went out with a old high school friend.. Mikey. He used to be friends with my little brother so he is four years younger than me. We had been chatting on facebook and then by text for awhile. I was a the mall and asked him by text if he woould like to meet up for a coffee. We text messaged back and forth for a bit.. I started to get bord and the mall so I text messaged him telling him I was going home; as he couldn’t seem to get away from his parental responsibilities to meet with me.. Text me back with ” I here” hahah he was driving into the parking lot.

Mike and I met for coffee at the Timmy’s.. we had plenty to talk about.. We both had ex spouses that were immature and lacked responsbility and that had been selfish. Both of us had been on Plenty of Fish and we had horror stories to share. Mike talked about my blog that he had been reading and out my boudoir photography images. He expressed to me how men are all pigs.. how many of the women on POF had many of the same experiences as I had.. the nicer looking women; being sent pictures of penises and being asked just for cold hearted sex with no strings attached.

He told me how most of the women on the site were single mothers like me; who had just left abusive relationships or relationships that were lacking in love and respect.. then he told me about the crazy women on the site.. that would offer up sex like it was nothing.. we would send him explicit pictures and talk nasty to him in the first few seconds of conversation.

We talked about school; about how all the guys at that time were only interested in getting laid.. as many times as possible by as many girls as possible.. Mikey told me I was a bitch to all the guys in school and I told Mikey it was because I knew that all the guys wanted to do was have sex with me and then brag about it.. that’s why it never happened in school.. I didn’t have sex in high school because I knew thats what would have happened.

Mike and I went out to the pub and had wine and nachos.. we talked about our kids and about our past.. I rembered him when he was a little boy.. he always had an edge to him.. he was very physical and driven.. you could see he wasn’t to be messed with. But there is a sweetness about him that he tries to hide.. that I can see.

Mikey told me that he didn’t read alot of the spiritual stuff on my blog only the funny real life drama.. I wish he would read the spiritual stuff.

I write about my real life to pull all my readers into the spiritual writing.. I truly hope that you read it.. the post WISDOM was hardly read.. it is the most important post.

The reason for me writing is simple.. I am a DREAMER and I wish to help humanity to grow-up spiritually.. this is the time in history that we are able to concieve of a fresh and new way of percieving ourselves and helping peace and harmony and balance come into being.

I am going to quote to you my favorite song..From John Lennon


Imagine there’s no heaven, it’s easy if you try, no hell below us, above us only sky, Imagine all the people living for today.

Imagine there are no countries, it isn’t hard to do, nothing to kill or die for and no religion too, imagine all the people living life in peace

You may say I am a dreamer, but I am not the only one, I hope that someday you will join us and the world will be as one.

Imagine no possesions, I wonder if you can, no need for greed or hunger, a brotherhood of man, Imagine all the people sharing all the world.

You may say I am a dreamer, but I am not the only one, I hope that someday you’ll join us and the world will be as one.

I am sad today.. because I am concerned that people are not getting what I am trying to do with this blog and with my writing.. I know my pictures are sexy.. I know my stories and writing can be racey as they are meant to give you reality as they are meant to grab your attention.. but the real meaning is in the spiritual writing.. I am trying to show you my humanity in the process.. so that the spirituality can be understood by all.

Please read the deep and heavy stuff too.

As for me and Mikey.. I hope we both find love..or that love should find us.. it may not be together that we find love.. but I hope that the cold hard brutal truth of the world doesn’t ever trump love.. that is my overcome the coldness of the world.. the cruelty that humanity has expressed up until this piont in time.. it’s time for love to rise to the top of all our intentions.