Archive for March, 2015

The Female Orgasm

 

What makes a woman orgasmic and what causes her from orgasming or achieving quality orgasms?

Women fake orgasms because they are probably to tired/ill/depleted and too sexually repressed to have them.

The subconscious and conscious thoughts of a woman who hasn’t had an orgasm, has trouble reaching orgasm or has poor quality orgasms are self defeating thoughts. Often they feel unattractive for varying reasons, I am going to touch on.. and they sexually repress themselves by ingrained social and religious stigmas; thoughts like ” Only slutty women touch their vaginas. Only women without morals actually like sex and want it.” or thoughts like ” I am fat and ugly, I cannot even place myself in my own sexual fantasies.” .. {she has low self esteem.}

The woman that cannot reach orgasm is usually a martyr .. she puts everyone ahead of herself. She sees her self worth by how others view her to be a good woman, to be a ultra submissive, servant to family and friends.. she is too nice, too kind, too giving and allows others to drain her over her energy.. she doesn’t ever say no. She doesn’t set healthy boundaries. She is exhausted and drained of her vital life force, and so she hasn’t anything left to put into her orgasm.

The woman who cannot reach orgasm doesn’t feel safe in her life. Her basic needs for love, acceptance, finances and even her physical safety may be at risk constantly.. she hasn’t any resources to call on for help; or feels so lowly about her own worth that she stays in a horrible relationship that drains her of her feminine essence.. once again it comes down to self worth.

The woman who is orgasmic.. holds herself in high esteem .. she will not tolerate abusive behaviors by anyone in her life. She takes care of her body. She is very aware of whom she gives her time or energy to. A woman who is orgasmic takes time for the pleasures in her own life; how ever small they maybe she takes time for her alone time.. to recharge. A woman who is orgasmic will stay single and on her own until she meets the right man that will treat her with the love and respect she treats herself with.. Yes there are women who will sleep around, and sleep with unsuitable men ..that treat them without respect; that do have orgasms but they are not quality orgasms.. they are shallow and only serve as an addiction to sex, that is used to cover up the lack of self love within them. The woman who has deep, sensual quality orgasms has a deep sense of herself and her worth. She doesn’t take on societal shaming or religious shaming of her sexuality. She has the wisdom of knowing her sexual fantasies are her own mysteries into the depths of her passions..she embraces even her darkest needs. She knows that her mind can entertain many deep dark, sensual, gritty fantasies without having to act them out in reality..she has no shame. She sees her imperfections .. as uniqueness.

 

The woman who experiences intense orgasms is more than in touch with her body..she is in touch with her soul through creativity.. she plants gardens, writes poetry, makes babies, decorates, sings, collects beautiful things.. she exercises her choices..she has a voice and she uses it with out apologies..she takes up room..she takes up space..she has a presence. She is decadence in form.. she seeks out pleasure to be pleasure..she fills her cup to over flowing… the woman who is void of this.. who is empty from over giving..of giving herself away.. hasn’t anything to give to herself.. she is a barren landscape that must be healed and re-nourished by the pursuit of her own pleasures.

As you can see the female orgasm starts long before she ever touches her own body.. she needs to give herself permission to be open to receiving pleasure even from her own hand..she must submit to pleasure for pleasure..she must give herself the allowance of decadence.. she must allow her fantasies..she must allow her imperfections and see them as unique beauty to be aroused of herself, before she can ever be aroused by a lover.. she must spend time alone with herself away from the busy world that demands all of her energy, to find and replenish her own self worth.. then she is ready to begin exploring her own body.

The most important epiphany any woman will ever have is that she is of herself.. she is not defined as a mother, daughter, sister, wife, friend.. she is not defined by anything or anyone outside of herself..she isn’t defined by society or religion..she is defined by her own will and spirit.

When she has defined herself.. when she touches her breast, her clitoris.. when she finds her G-spot.. when her mind and heart are cleared of all outside forces she will be able to be present with her orgasm.. she will have a cosmic connection to the divinity of her femininity ..

I do believe that when women become awakened to this desire ..the desire of self exploration the entire universe will shift with the awakening of the divine feminine within each and every woman that chooses her Inner Goddess over The Martyr.

If a woman is orgasmic but cannot have an orgasm with you ( if you’r a man reading this post ) it is probably because she doesn’t feel safe with you, or you are not present with her in her orgasm.. meaning you are rushing her through it.. you are not into giving her or helping her achieve her orgasm.. in essence you are being selfish and lazy. For a woman to totally open up to you, you must be into her pleasure as well as your own pleasure.. if you are just wanting her to orgasm to appease your ego ..she may feel this as a pressure to perform for you and then again you are being selfish. So if she doesn’t have problems reaching quality orgasms on her own.. you will have to find away to be with her and totally enraptured by her.. ravishing her for her desires to experience her orgasms with her.

To read more about The Goddess in you.. please go to Balboa Press to purchase my book ( The Goddess, an Expression of the Divine Feminine ) by Gracie Ackerman

Original Content

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I better be very careful from now on about what I write because Mary Lawver is watching over my blog and reporting me to the RCMP.. I must realize that she has total control over the content of my blog and mind.. or Mary is going to tattle tale on me for writing vile content. I am a mother, so according to Mary I am not allowed to use vile language .. like the words ( fuck, fuck you, fuck off, bitch, cunt.. etc ) because Mary is the blog and online police.. if I don’t keep within her standards of tattle tale approval I will be reported on to Mental Health, my local papers, The Mayor of Kelowna, Google, Youtube, Facebook etc.. etc.. because I must do as I am told ..or according to Mary if I don’t follow her censorship I should have my children taken away from me and I should be forced into the mental ward.. and then I should be forced onto medication.. until I turn into Mary..

If I was to be like Mary.. I would behave like Mary online.. and post unoriginal content.. Yes nothing groundbreaking or artistic.. original or remotely controversial.. nope.. I would be keeping pure and safe.. and then if anyone should dare write about sexuality.. post any images of artistic nudity.. I would jump on that like a busy body.. and report that vile offender. I would then condemn them to be locked up and shunned by society.. yes that is what I would do if I was Mary.. and then I would secretly know that they were condemned to burn in HELL!

If I was Mary.. if the wicked sinners crossed me.. if they dared to stand up to my ultimate self righteous demands on their behavior and lifestyle.. I would call them bullies and a stalkers.. while I bullied and stalked them relentlessly under a fake name and image online.. because if I was Mary I would see myself as the supreme authority on all vile, sickos daring to call themselves feminist and artist.. secretly as Mary I would find gay people disgusting. As Mary I see mothers as being only mothers; they are not allowed to have dreams and goals past their children. If I saw a single mother being sexy and sensual online I would report that little bitch.

As Mary I have no original content.. so don’t know how to mind my own fucking business.. and because my mind is void of all creativity I cannot tolerate such crazy behavior online. I don’t know how to mind my own fucking business because I don’t have any creative hobbies of my own. As Mary my hobby is making you miserable .. you pathetic creative, crazy, sexy, freaks you make me uncomfortable with your liberal thoughts and attitudes. I cannot stand the thought of you having great sex when I am afraid to touch my own girly parts.

As Mary I haven’t ever had an orgasm.. because that is vile and evil.. that sexual energy and compulsion to wither about .. that is the work of the DEVIL.

All of you artist have multiple sex partners I know it! You have threesomes, and orgies .. I will have none of that! I will see to it that all unknown, sexy artist will be emotionally destroyed before they reach mainstream and taint the world with more FILTH! I fill fixate and hunt you all down by contacting your rivals and competition, to secretly have others do my dirty work for me. I will make sure they all know how disgusting and sickening your sexuality .. your orgasms on canvas, camera, screen, musical recordings, writings and withering dances are.. I will clean up the morality on this planet for the good lord commands me to do so as his good Christian Soldier .. I am Mary.. I am right.. all these sexy little artist and their sexual ways remind me of the withering pits of hell..full of demonic orgies .. Satan sitting on his throne of fire weaving his magic lust over his sexual slaves of creative compulsion!

I am Mary..and so I am like Mother Teresa .. I think AIDs is a curse from God.. to smite the wicked orgasming sinners.. those who fornicate outside of marriage and with same sex partners in orgies of artistic passion!

I am here to clean the world of such filth.. there will be no dancing.. no paintings of nudes, no lyrics sung or written of sex.. I will have all the artist and creative genius.. locked up .. medicated.. sterilize ..and their children taken from them to  be raised by me! ~ Mary

Cause haters gonna hate!

And the best way to deal with it.. is to have a good laugh at their expense.. all in the name of artistic expression.

 

Why is feminism becoming the F-word?

First off.. happy birthday to Gloria Steinem.. she is an Aries just like me.. it’s interesting that I a writing this post on her birthday.

 

Definition of feminism
noun

 

1.

the doctrine advocating social, political, and all other rights of women equal to those of men.
2.

(sometimes initial capital letter) an organized movement for the attainment of such rights for women.
3.

feminine character.
As you can see the definition is pretty simple. But for some reason I am finding a new definition of feminist online.. and it is a bitter, man hating, ball breaking bitch. It seems that women seeking equality are branded as wanting to destroy men or take away the rights and freedoms of men by gaining equality. I suspect the reason that feminism and feminist are being labeled as the new F-word is based on fear. All bigotry is based on fear. It seems men who label feminist as ball breaking bitches fear that giving women the same earning power and sexual freedoms would make them less as men.  One can reason that they glean their manhood by the control of women. It seems that in order for true equality to take up root and grow,  men need a different definition of manhood. That definition would change from being commander and chief of his woman .. family or community towards building true partnership and community by the equal sharing of responsibilities.  If a man defines his masculinity by violence, brutality.. being unemotional and in control of everything and everyone around him.. he will see a woman seeking equality as a subordinate seeking to undermine his manhood. A man who defines himself through control and power over others as being a man.. will see a feminist as a threat and then punish her and demean her to get back said control. I think that is why many women fear stating or standing as feminist…because they fear the punishments inflicted on them my macho alpha males.. I know this for fact.. So many women will bash feminism and feminist to gain male approval and protection from this punishment.
Feminist are also bigoted by how they are perceived to look..I have been told that I am too feminine or pretty to be a feminist..I have had both men and women inform me of this. I have been told feminist dress like men, where no makeup… look like butches and are lesbians. The stereotyping is insane!
Many people don’t realize that men can also be feminist..and not be overly feminine in appearance. Any man that stands for, believes in and seeks out justice and equality for women is a feminist.
Feminist want control over their own minds and bodies.. just the same as men. We want access to safe abortions and birth control. We don’t want to be slut shamed for our sexual history, we don’t want to be judged as sluts for dressing sensual.. our bodies, our choices.. just the same as men.
It’s really simple stuff actually.. we are tired of religious dogma trapping our wombs and bodies with the outdated concepts of the world’s virtue and purity being placed on our sexuality..we are sick of our sex and sex lives, or virginity..or lack of it..being used to place worth upon us.
We are really sick and tired of entire industries holding us captive by using.. and over sexing or bodies to sell product..industries that are run by macho men .. telling us what to look like and how to present our sex to them to please them and not ourselves.. we are tired of being owned by our husbands.. by industry and religions. We want to make equal pay and have equal say so that we are not bound to abusive men by  the necessities of financial survival.
If you are a woman and you want to see these things happen in your life time.. if you are a man and you want to see these things happen in your life time.. if you are a person who wants to see equality in your lifetime for yourself and for future generations.. you are a feminist… you are not a bad word..
You are a decent human being.

Married again?

 

After my nasty divorce; after having been married to selfish, mean man, I never thought I would ever consider marriage again. I realize now it’s because I have been afraid the same thing would happen..because I would unknowingly attract the same sort of man into my life again. More than it wasn’t; I didn’t trust men or ever hated men, it was that I didn’t trust myself. Back then I didn’t have the sense of self worth that I have today. I didn’t love myself. I found it very difficult to be alone, I was lonely alone with myself; not anymore. I really enjoy my own company. I take good care of myself for myself. I am not desperately seeking anyone or anything. I haven’t given up on love I just understand what love is now. I know the difference between, romantic love, lust and passion vs an endearing long lasting love. I don’t date men whom I don’t think qualify as long lasting.. meaning I don’t go on many dates. I am selective.. I am looking for quality but not perfection.

I am not qualifying men by looks or money alone; I am looking for a man with heart and soul.

When I do meet him many things will be different from my first marriage.. not just that he isn’t my ex.. but we both will be mature. There will be no babies, no toddlers.. we will have more freedom to do other things. It’s an entirely new dynamic.

I am a different person than I was way back in 1997 when I met my ex husband. I was in a rush, I was 27 and I wanted a family.. I wanted babies and so I overlooked many of his flaws that were more like red flags. He took no responsibility for his short comings, he blamed others for his faults and weaknesses instead of facing them head on and dealing with them. He didn’t want to cook or do any domestic chores; he was controlling. My fault was giving myself away; being too willing to throw myself at his feet because I wanted to be a mother and he was willing to be a father. I have grown so much as a person. I know who I am ..and I know that my strengths can also be my weaknesses. I am very passionate, high spirited, dramatic, emotional, a nonconformist. I need someone who can stand up to me but also let me go .. set me free, accept the artistic, sexy little freak in me.. I know it’s a lot to ask for.. to find that in a man, and to be attracted to him physically, mentally, emotionally and soulfully.. that’s why I am still single!

But I believe for the right guy I could commit for the long term.. I think what is meant to be will be, when it is meant to happen it just will..

I think that putting romance into perspective is the key; it isn’t just about a pretty ceremony .. ( although I would love that again ) it’s about looking at things long term.. being best friends is the key.. knowing you have each others backs equally..

Life is to short to be bitter and to not hold out hope for someone and something better.

The sigma of mental illness and suicide

Crease Clinic/Riverside Vancouver BC Canada

 

I think this will be one of the most vulnerable posts I will ever write; and so it will leave me open to personal attacks online;I will have to prepare myself for such. I came upon another blog about a female performance artist.. she was testing out human nature. She put herself in a crowd of people, topless.. exposed and vulnerable, with various objects beside her on a table. She vowed to remain motionless, exposed to the crowd. She was treated with cruelty. Her experiment reflects on the online world, or mobs of people.. I have proved as much with my blog, with exposing my vulnerable-ness, by being open and honest with the human journey or struggles… many have seen my open heart and mind as an open target.. but it is for the greater good.. to show by actions how to be more human..to have compassion towards the self and others.. so here we go again.

Me at 1 year

My mother and her identical twin sister were stricken with schizophrenia at the tender age of 14, that same year my grandfather, their father died of black lung..my poor grandmother. My mother was a very beautiful woman from the inside out.. a tender heart much like myself. My father was an abusive man; he made her illness much worse, but than I suppose it is easy to reason that a cruel person would be drawn to an easy victim. I think my mother would of spent a lot less time in the hospital and off of drugs; and shock therapy treatment if she wasn’t terrorized in her own home. I had a very tough childhood. I have been shamed and judged by others for it; and to remain silent about it.. I married a man that shamed me into silence.. I was unconscious to the fact that I married an emotionally abusive man.. like a toned down version of my own father.

me and my sisters.. Sharon to the left..me in the middle..Christina on the right

My mother spent a lot of time in Crease Clinic in Vancouver or Riverside .. I remember it very well. As a child I attended one of the best Halloween parties at Riverside; as it was held for the female patients and their young children.. this was the place were my mother eventually took her life. My father had moved us hundreds of miles away from our mother; he was cruel and selfish. My mother had to travel with a social worker or nurse to come and visit us; my father never took us too her. I think social services was also at fault; I think they allowed the emotional abuse by allowing our father to move us away from her. With government funding cut backs, my mother hadn’t seen us in a year. That time away from her four children pushed her over the edge. She had written letters to us that our father hadn’t given to us. We read them years later. She expressed how much she missed nurturing us; her children.. my mother’s astrological sign was a Cancer..she loved to cook and clean; she loved being mother. She told us how she missed baking apple raisin pies..she missed seeing us wear the mittens she knitted for us. The letters were heart breaking. Without us her life was dark; meaningless..and the voices in her head took over. My mother hung herself by the sleeves of her shirt. I had just turned 13.. as she was committing suicide hundreds of miles away from me.. unknown to me.. I had an unexplained panic attack.. I know now it was because children have an unexplained connection to their mothers.. I know that now as mother; it’s just a knowing. When the local preacher came to our house to tell us the next day.. every time I closed my eyes I felt myself falling..

My Mother March of 1983..she took her life April 27 1983Rest in Peace Mommy

My father took us to go and view her body lying in state. She looked as if she was sleeping.. I hadn’t seen my mother in so long. I longed to be held by her and to hold her.. but it was just her body.. she was gone. On her finger she wore a ring that I had given her. The ring was out of a Cracker-jack box; it was a gold northern star. I had told her we were all just stars; that we were just human for a little while and then we all just went back to being stars ( the wisdom of a child ) I remembered how she let me put it on her little finger. I pulled out some of my hair and placed it in with her when no one was watching; because I wanted some of me to go with her. I will never forget how I longed for her to come back to life..how unreal it was to see my mother’s body. My father didn’t let us stay for her funeral; I think it was because he was truly ashamed of what he had done to her.

There were happy times between them; when my mother was on an upswing .. when my father wasn’t being a beast.. they both made a princess birthday cake for me.. I had wanted the moment to last forever

 

But moment’s like these were far and few between..love was very rare in hour home.

Now fast-forward to my marriage 1999. I had thought I was marrying a great guy obviously. I was unconscious to the damage of my childhood..but I also know that there isn’t a single one of us that isn’t damaged or that hasn’t been broken.. I had a lot of things go wrong all at the same time.. it was like a catastrophic natural disaster. My husband had started having an affair when I was pregnant with our last child, our son. He became frustrated and angry with me because we had four miscarriages after having our two daughters. One of the miscarriages was quite far along .. five months into the pregnancy. I had gone through horrible grieving and depression; my husband checked out emotionally then..and began to blame me for his inability to be present emotionally though the lows in our marriage. By the time I was seven months into the pregnancy with our son.. he was totally gone emotionally..he didn’t even show up for the ultrasound. I saw him talking with her outside in our yard through the dinning room widow when they didn’t know I was watching.. it was clear by their body language and loving, lustful looks that they were sharing that they were intimate. But I had to push it down into my subconscious to stay pregnant ..to give birth to a healthy full term baby..and so the affair continued unchecked by me..I couldn’t confront it.

My mother and her children.. I am the one in the tree with the flowers!

When my son was born I went into a deep dark postpartum depression ( I wonder why? ) I spent many hours talking to the Pacific Postpartum Hotline ladies.. they coached me about self care..the guided me towards getting myself and my husband into marriage counselling.. but then my sister was diagnosed with a stage four brain tumor .. My son was still a nursing baby and my sister was dying.. It took all my strength to keep her in the hospital way from her abusive husband..so that she could die with proper care and dignity. It was January.. and I would drive an 1 1/2 hours in horrible conditions to spend hrs with my sister..to care for her..to spend her last hrs with her.. my husband resented being left with the baby and our two very young girls.. he resented the attention that I was giving my dying sister and then the attention that I was giving the baby and children over him.. he was doing house renos.. and he wanted to get shit done.. me and my sister..the kids were keeping him back ( and stopping him from having sex with his mistress ) The day after my sister died my ex husband emotionally abused me.. he screamed at me because the bottom of our son’s playpen had scratched the new wood flooring he had just put in.. he called me a selfish bitch..

My marriage was over.. even with marriage counselling.. with me getting talk therapy for my grief.. I was sick and depleted .. I didn’t know I had celiac .. I was a burden to him.. he left me to got to Mexico..with his friends ( mistress ) I put myself in the hospital so that I wouldn’t take my own life..I willingly had myself committed to be here to write this story..

Life is like that.. for many people.. one day everything can just crash and burn.. it’s like a bad country/western song.. his dog dies, his girlfriend leaves him..he looses his job.. and he is thinking of just putting one bullet in his gun.. just for him..

The point is this.. it can happen to anyone of us.. the wheel of fortune can take a horrible turn.. your child could be born with mental illness.. anything good or bad can happen..

I am also pointing out the differences between a deep mental illness and depression.. depression can be treated.. circumstances can change for the better given time and work.. some mental illnesses cannot be treated the same way.. my mom’s identical twin is still in a care home..I just went to visit her a few days ago. She needs to be kept safe from herself and other cruel people in the world that would hurt her because she is vulnerable..

If you are reading this because you are depressed and feeling suicidal.. please know you are not alone.. many people have the same thoughts and feelings.. you are not crazy or a bad person.. you are a person that needs TLC.. some love and compassion.. please have compassion on yourself and tell somebody.. anybody..and keep telling people until someone listens..it’s not weak it is brave to get help.. you are just experiencing an intense low in your life.. it will get better..it doesn’t seem like it now but time does heal all things..time and work..

If someone comes to you asking for help.. call 911.. call the crisis line or the hospital..they will guide you towards helping them..

I ask people to stop shaming people who ask for help.. stop shaming the mentally ill that need to be in care homes.. they need compassion not judgement.. they are vulnerable..they need to be protected.

The craziest thing in the world is the lack of compassion and tenderness.. the lack of humanity.

Written in loving memory of my mother

Men are stupid

 

I just figured out what the glass ceiling is all about.. it’s cause men are stupid when it comes to women.. and they are driving me fucking crazy. Even you guys will agree to this.. what causes the male IQ to drop below ground zero faster than a speeding bullet? .. we all know the answer.. every single one us in puberty or past it knows.. it’s BOOBS!!!

BOOBS.. turn men into BOOBS..and big babies.. they drool and fall all over themselves… it makes them feel vulnerable.. ( nailed it ) I just nailed it! It is why men want women to cover up.. dress appropriately and be proper ladies.. because they fear acting out like drooling, stupid idiots in front of a woman who is sensual and sexy.. so they have placed the ownership of their sexual vulnerable underbelly onto us .. So that’s why a woman who is dressed ( what any man my deem as too sexy ) isn’t to be taken seriously.. because by doing so she ( according to society ) is giving him permission to treat her like a walking rack of BOOBS.. So the glass ceiling will keep us in our PLACE until the majority of men can grow the fuck up.

Guess what? In my book I show my boobs.. so guess what? That makes men treat me like a bimbo.. and of course according to society I am asking for the disrespect..

So in order to break this glass ceiling women have to dare to step out of place.. but as usual it’s the circle or cycle of ” damned if you do, damned if you don’t” really sums up what its like to be a woman in all aspects of life as female.. because the male run societies of the world have us trapped in a call back loop.. you know what mean? It’s like an answering service.. that only uses computers.. you never get though to an actual person.. that’s what it’s like as woman living in a male run world.. I sure have found that out trying to promote my book.. it’s like.. impossible! I have to have a man champion me and my cause to make headway.. it’s like headway being a penis.. penis head..get it? I have said it many times..” I wasn’t born with a dick but I need a dick ( man ) to help me penetrate the male world” I know it’s like homosexuality.. I don’t have problem with that..but it’s a boy’s club.. I am so fed up! I am going fucking crazy!

I could give so many examples.. even in the fitness world..I am not taken seriously because I don’t man up.. I don’t look masculine..if I looked super muscular than men wouldn’t get so stupid..because I wouldn’t be so curvy and my boobs would shrink down to almost nothing.. so they could control themselves better around me.. and it’s like that in the professional world too.. you have to suit up.. if you’r too pretty and too feminine then you are a distraction.. even in grade schools the girls are being taught not to show bra straps so they don’t distract the boys.. ( Thanks Stephen Harper.. you really know how to train youth about sexual repression, rape culture thinking, and you are teaching young boys that they are not responsible for their own sexual impulses..but girls are? wtf? )

Taking a look at media promoted sexuality ( that is male sexuality.. because the world is run by men.. a huge majority of high powered positions are held by men world wide.. and so they use their money to build all industry including the sex industry and sexuality in general.. like the fashion industry and the fitness industry.. and of course the porn industry ) looking at the sex industry or sexuality in society in general.. as a metaphor.. we can see it behaves and runs just like the male sex drive.. it’s porn or puritan.. because when men are turned on they are turned on.. so we have the Madonna/Whore complex imposed upon all women world wide.. very elementary..but so is the male sex drive.. the only way a man cannot get it up, is if he feels to much pressure to get it up or he is sick.. other than that just looking at a voluptuous woman.. tree.. piece of fruit.. a strong breeze with get most healthy men hard and ready… and stupid..

So this is what is causing all my frustration ( pun intended ) It drives me absolutely fucking crazy.. because men are stupid.

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When Facebook asked me for Gov ID (NO)!

I was blocked off Facebook for the entire month of February.. for reasons unknown to me and not given by them ( someone reported me for something I guess ) then after I was allowed back on to participate in the Facebook world I had an image reported by someone ( ??? ) I was then blocked for 3 days.. I was on for 24hrs when someone ( ??? ) reported an image of my book to Facebook.. a cellphone pic of me in my book as Athena.. { Yes it was a topless pic..but a pic of a pic ) anyway I was informed by Facebook that I have been blocked for another 7 days..then as I followed the prompts I was told that Facebook needed a scanned picture of my Gov ID.. WTF??????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mark Zuckerberg you have gone crazy! Facebook isn’t a country.. I am not traveling to Facebook land.. you are a fucking networking site! Mark you are not a dictator you are a dickhead! I went and I Googled Mark and his insatiable need for others personal information; it turns out that Mark has lied about keeping past personal info of his users private.. as he then takes our info places it in databases and sells it ..so what next Mark? Are you going to sell our info to the Governments of our countries so they can have a good look in our underwear drawers? Facebook has no right to ask for this very personal info.. just so we can have the privilege of using Facebook.. my answer is NO! Take your entitlement and shove it Mark!

It not easy for me to say ( delete my account ) I have 7 years of my personal life on my Facebook account.. I have pictures of the last 7 years, of my children and myself..a record of 7 years of my life..but it isn’t worth giving up my personal freedoms to Mark Zuckerberg and his now Facebook Cult.. it’s the principle..it’s about principle of personal freedom.. your not selling me back to myself.. your not pimping me and my kids to Government Agencies or advertising agencies..fuck you! I also learned that if I give Facebook my Government ID they will change the info on my Facebook account to my legal married name..this puts me and my children in danger; because the topic of my book is about women’s sexuality.. that puts us in the line of fire for perverts and creepers.. just like the drag queens that took Facebook to court..for wanting to delete their page if they didn’t give their real names and identification .. it put them in the line of fire of gay bashing.. but I cannot afford a lawyer to fight for me in court..so delete my account.

It seems to me that Facebook or Mark Zuckerberg is counting on the fact that Facebook users will give up their personal ID to keep their accounts and the record of their lives.. There is this post going around Facebook about leaving your Facebook account to family members after you die ( its brainwashing ) it’s brainwashing because it makes people think that their Facebook accounts are more important then they are..so when they ask you for your personal info you will give it up in a panic..it’s bullshit brainwashing! Even Facebook asking for your personal phone number to secure your account is bullshit. It’s all bullshit..they say they want your real info to stop online trolls from bullying..to hold people accountable..but I haven’t experienced that at all..it doesn’t matter if people are using their real ID or image they still harass, report bullshit on you and send you dick pics.. nope Facebook wants your real identification for themselves..they are making money on us..selling us back to us.. by giving our info to media that will use it to profile the public..as to what we will want and buy.. and we get nothing out of it..but further brainwashing and harassed by Facebook or Mark Zuckerberg by being controlled, censored and dictated to. I have been punished by Facebook over and over again for being a feminist, for promoting healthy sexuality, women’s rights and issues.. Facebook is sexist and homophobic.. Facebook needs policing my the Human Rights laws.. Mark Zuckerberg has gotten to big on himself ( tripping) .. it happens over an over again throughout history.. when a dictator pushes people to the edge they push back.. Mark needs an ego check.. I am done with you Mark Zuckerberg.. your like an abusive boyfriend that I am breaking up with..setting healthy boundaries down.. we are done..get yourself some help.

My life was fine before Facebook..I believe my life will be better without it. I have been harassed and bullied by Facebook and by Facebook users. I have done some experimenting myself to see if using Facebook has made a difference to the traffic on my other online media..like my website, or YouTube vids.. it has been marginal at best.. not that big of a difference..what I have found is that Facebook has been nothing but a pain in the ass.. people making stupid comments to argue for the sake of nothing more than to argue..it hasn’t done anything much more than to annoy me.. The Faebook groups lead to pretty much the samething..and I have found that I cannot share my link or things about my book to News media and I just ignored by celebs..so fuck it..what is the point?

Then there is the fact that Mark Zuckerberg gets rich off my info and my work and our info and your work on Facebook while giving nothing back but an invasion of privacy.. and that is why I started up on this new network that gives back    https://www.tsu.co/GracieAckerman

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What is truly ironic is that today is International Women’s Day.. and I was reported on by someone ( ??? ) because of the image from my book that is about women’s equality and right to sexual expression..

Really stupid Facebook ( Mark Zuckerberg )

 

 

Censorship

Define your own beauty.. I have always believed that a woman should define her own vision of herself.. a beautiful woman is a woman who has the courage to stand her ground and be present in her own skin.. fuck society.. fuck it all.. don’t let anyone present to you the perfect personification of femininity.. because perfect is plastic.. Be healthy, raw, sensual, deep, authentic, unique and real.. Nurture and love your body.. nurture your soul, mind and emotions.. Don’t fear the depths of your sex and soul.. Touch your own body with love, sensuality and kindness.. explore the depths of your own being.. become one with the Earth Mother.. The most vibrant woman..the most alive woman.. is the most imperfect woman..who has been broken again and again.. but she takes those broken pieces to continually remake herself.. The most broken and imperfect are the most magical.. A Goddess is raw www.sexassacred.com

I was reported on by some troll again .. I keep my Facebook wall open to promote my book ( The Goddess an Expression of the Divine Feminine ) so anyone can troll it.. seems many religious fundamentalist love to report me.. it’s fucking crazy that it’s the year 2015 but women’s sexuality is still subject to abused and bigotry.. that’s why I wrote my book in the first place.

As you can see this photography is art.. it’s isn’t pornography.. it just verges on erotic..  so if your looking through a perverted lens natural nudity can be labeled as porn.. but who has the problem? We could label a babies nudity as porn.. if one was perverted enough.. going by the child brides in the Middle East and in other parts of the world I would say the world is full of pervs..

That is the issue with fundamentalist.. they pervert sexuality from normal and healthy.. from our natural biology to dirty and sinful.. that is why arts are censored .. that is why we don’t actually have freedom.. as women we don’t have the freedom to own our bodies as we are labeled by outdated, prejudiced beliefs that say a woman’s sexuality is sinful..her body dirty and so it needs to be controlled and owned..her sexuality sold back to her through this perverted perspective.. our sexuality is so damaged .. society is so damaged on so many levels.. because if the base of a structure is weak.. everything about that structure is damaged..

Seriously it’s time we matured so that we can heal the damage and strengthen the core of humanity..

If fundamentalist and conservatives don’t like my Facebook.. stop looking at my Facebook.. block me.. bury your heads in the sand and de-evolve without dragging the rest of us back to the 1800s.

My profile picture was reported as well.. it stayed up because clearly I am not totally naked ( gawd forbid )..but I have been blocked from posting for 3 days

 

When Terrorist Win

 

I had a really creep night last night. I had a male religious fanatic join my Facebook and make comments about women’s sexuality. Basically he believed in the bible at a very fundamental level. He believed that women’s sexuality and the women’s movement was the Anti-Christ..and therefore I was the Anti-Christ. He believed that sex outside of marriage was the cause of all the loose morality in society today..and that women were responsible for that because, they were not following the world of God by seeing or believing that they are subservient to men, because God created them to serve men. Because he was from my local area; my red warning flags flew high. Because his beliefs were and are so intense.. and because they dehumanized me and other women who stood for equality.. I believed he was capable of harming me so I called the local police. I was glad to have gotten a female officer; as it stood to reason she would be more understanding.

But I found some of her responses to be disturbing as well. She thought that because I was writing about women’s sexuality, and because my profile pic and other pics were sexy..that I was attracting the wrong attention. She also thought I was putting my children in danger by having their pictures up on my Facebook. I do understand why she came to these conclusions. But I don’t think a woman is responsible for attracting an abusive man by being too sexy or sexual.. I think an abuser is attracted to what an abuser is attracted to.. this man was attempting to terrorize me by placing the blame of his actions on me by a form of social and religious entitlement. The female officer was unaware of how women are brainwashed..and men are brainwashed into rape culture thinking. I informed her as politely and as factually as I could that I am not responsible for his actions.. that being sexy or sensual doesn’t make me a bad mother..nor is it my fault that any man or person should think they have a right to abuse me or my children for practicing my rights and living within my rights. You see women are harassed by weirdos like this simply for walking down the street.. I have been my entire life..and I know many other women that have as well.. as a woman you can stay home..stay locked in and still be raped, or molested. You can be raped by your father, brother, grandfather, priest, family friends.. etc. etc. So playing small or over protecting will not keep a woman or child safe from sexual abusers.. in fact the abusers win by taking away your freedom by scaring the shit out of you.. That is the way it is for all terrorist .. for all fundamentalist that believe you have to behave within their rules of conduct to be kept safe from their bigotry or hatred.. that hatred is really a deep seeded hatred for themselves and it is stemmed by their own fears.. the fear of death and what is or isn’t past death’s doors.. so they use control of others to attempt to control what they don’t have any control over..

The point is playing small to any form of bullying or abusive actions or to the people committing them.. only serves to promote the abuse and to create more abusers..as the pay off is the control.

The only way to step out of the mental and emotional prisons is to live freely in spite of them..

One thing is for certain.. there are some seriously messed up, crazy people in the world.. some of them very mentally ill who do have influence and power.. who can and will oppose you; but life is risky, not a single one of us is getting out of this alive; we have to be wise to these creeps ( that’s why I called the police to scare the shit out of him ) but we also have to balance being defensive but not overly protective.. Terrorist win by mind control..they manipulate emotions by causing us to fear for our lives..but most of it is smoke and mirrors; mixed with some reality.. but if I was to hide away I wouldn’t be living anyway..

That’s why there are walks for women like ” Take back the night”  we have a right to take back our freedom from terrorist.

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