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The Right to Rebellion

The Right to Rebellion.

The Right to Rebellion

If you want Disney..go watch it..if you want reality..read my stuff..if you want shallow fluffy crap..don’t read this..if you want to go deep and get real..read it!

I am not going to sugar coat it..I am not going to hand you fake pretty words that mean nothing..my life is everyone’s life..my struggles..my successes..my hopes..my fears..belong to the human race..as a woman I am every woman..that I explained in other post..I have been over weight..and called names for it..and I have been the pretty girl and been hated for it..I am so sick of women doing this to women..stop it!..We are all in this together..my story is your story..my love and hate is your expression as well….it is just that simple..

I rebel for you..I walk a different path so that others will see not to be afraid to do the same thing..I face my fear and I face down those who oppress me BECAUSE I WILL NOT BE OPPRESSED!!!!! I refuse it!

I refuse to stuff myself into little tidy boxes just so people can stay in the comfort zone of conformity cause they are to scared and lazy to do the work of CHANGE…

My God our society has become so fricken face with labels..we put labels on everything including people…cause we are so immature!

NO! I refuse to wear a label…I refuse to walk the beaten path CAUSE IT’S BORING!

I want to branch out all over the place..I want to explore my mind..my soul..my world..people in my world and I want to make more of that world by creating more everyday!

I am a rebel!

And if that makes me crazy………….Than I am Fucking nuts!

My Right & Your Right to Self Expression & Creativity

My Right & Your Right to Self Expression & Creativity.

My Right & Your Right to Self Expression & Creativity

Every person on this planet wants to be heard and seen…everyone has a story to tell and a piont of view…mine is important and yours is no less important than mine..I am finished with trying to explain this to small minded and ignorant people…it seems that their fear keeps them back and they wish to inflict fear upon me to keep me back from my full expression and creative thought and action..

I am through being nice and soft and sweet to these people who do not deserve my kindness any longer as they are not returning it with kindness..I have a right to express myself..I have a right to blog and to use facebook and other social media to express and share my thoughts with others..

I am so feed up with those who fear their own sin..their own imperfections that to read about mine freaks them right out..so they wish to shut me up….to them I say fuck you…FUCK YOU…

Don’t you tell me what to write,,don’t you tell me who I am and most of all DO NOT TELL ME TO GET OVER IT….FUCK YOU..

I will get over it however I see fit to get over it and I will get over when I fucking get the fuck over it…

If you don’t like my pictures.. My sexy photography from Miss Sassy Pants..you get the fuck over it!

If you don’t like my artwork..than you get the Fuck over it!

Do you like me telling you what the fuck to do?

Nope I didn’t think ya did!

So why the hell are you trying to tell me how to live my life..why do you think you can tell me who I am?

Get the Fuck over it!

Facebook Crap

Facebook Crap.

Facebook Crap

This is just some of the shit and abuse that I have gotten over the writing of my blog and my book…I am sick and tired of people tying to censor me..to basically be my book burning crew..so for all of them this is for you….I will write more about this crap and what I think about it…after you digest this first hard core bit…

• From my sisters friend Diane
o Hello Grace, just sending you a note that the comment that I sent to you on Wednesday was sent out of heartfelt concern from myself from spent 9.5 yrs as a single mom. It is a very hard life and for sure can be loney and depressing. However I know for a fact that those issues are not met solely in a man. I have taken you off my friend list because of the content of your entries. However if you would like someone to talk to I am available for that. Thinkiing about you.
• From My Sister to the preacher ( Doug)
o • Hi Dougie Doug Doug, (LOL)
I agree with the but…I do love my sister…maybe too much, that is why sometimes it hurts when I see her reach out to ungodly means to get answers quickly. It hurts to see our old family Bible amongst spell casting book or books in her bedroom and books on how to read terriot cards and crystal powers. I really didn’t mean a “but”. I love her unconditionally, I just was trying to be honest and express some hurt I have about choices she makes. I know we are all not perfect and often make mistakes and I am sure she gets concerned with mine (like not going to the doctor when it is serious) amongst more I suppose.
I don’t know if you ever read that book How to Listen to God by Charles Stanley. When I read it I already knew that was how I was getting my answers and how God had a unique plan for my life. I just have to follow the adventure he has for me. The Holy Spirit is within you and you can see all the answers by the presents and often Miracles the Holy Spirit provides for you. I always make a point of thanking God each time. The Holy Spirit is amazing often making a way in your life at times where it seems there is no way. I only wish that Grace would slow down and not rely on her own understanding or means to get answers as to how her life or future should or will go. I really want that for her, I want her to feel how awesome God’s love is for us by giving us the comfort and direction of the Holy Spirit.
o I only want good for my lil Gracie and hope she will completely surrender herself to God. I wouldn’t want her to miss the bus or the experience of what God has in store for us when we give all of ourselves to him.
Now I admit stubborn runs in our family and going with God is a learning experience every day. Trust me I have no clams of perfection. I often get ideas and think I am making a right decision without that feeling, that feeling you get when you know God is telling you it is right. Sometimes we have to surrender bits and parts every day, things we may not be aware we have issue with. In the end we will always learn if we don’t do it God’s way it will never be the right way.
I think you are positive person in Graces life and I really prayed for someone or something to influence her to change. We all need positive influences and I know God often places someone in your life to give you some direction.
I hope you are patient with Grace in remember in God is so patient with us. I just think about people that have lived a Godless life there whole life and come to God on the eleventh hour. God still accepts them. Sometimes the last will be first.
P.S This message needed no modification to fit your screen, but if you are reading it on your little Blackberry it might take some time…
• My sister to me about my blog
o Grace people on your friends list and that I know to keep messaging me as they are concerned ( or worried that you are crazy or something is wrong with you ) a lot of men and women as well. Some are thinking about telling you are talking to you themselves and others say they just don’t say nothing but it is sick stuff that comes up everyday when they go to their FB home page when they sign in, most are thinking of or don’t know how to approach you about stuff so weird.
I don’t read much of your blogs anymore but the bits and peices I have read on my own are pretty sick and discusting. The little pics of you in the dress were cute and tasefull but the rest is TMI (to much information) and most people have those pictures whether self taken or studio but they don’t share it. If you look at your comments there are just a few repeating customers 4 at most and a couple more once in a while. On your blogs you barley have comments just a couple of your FB people (some of which you used call down when you were younger and into your adult life) and a few guys from POD.
You are really grossing out my kids and they are embarised about your strange behaviour. ANd what the hell is this of your that Jesse found.

http://www.thegic.org/profile/GraceAckermanMorin

Grace you are not a prodogy or supper psychic you have never been good at sensing people, and you write about stuff that is hypocrocy as you can go back through your work and see contradictions. Your moods are up and down and all over and I feel you need to see a Pschyratrist and not dribble him BS with galant talk and smoke an mirrors but be yourself. You seem really manic then really depressed and seriously narasisitic. I am worried you are lossing it more and more, you need to get on some meds again. You are not a reality TV show that anyone is really interestred in. Just please get help and enjoy being a mom, put your energy in that, but get to a doctor.
I love you sooo much and don’t want to see you drowned yourself.
o Grace Ackerman- Morin’s Page – Global Illumination Council
www.thegic.org
Grace Ackerman- Morin’s Page on Global Illumination Council

Doug ( the preachers judgement of me)Share
 You are not free, you are in bondage. If you look at my writing there are no I’s, your’s is I I I I I? Where is the dieing to self? You think that you are smarter than God himself? You are in for a rocky ride. Your book does not replace the Holy Bible. Just humble yourself. My chest was tight around you because I sensed the spirit of pride, hate, lust,anger, jealosy controlling you. You are not in controll of them! All one has to do is observe your behavior to see that. I know you want to be an enlightened person. People smarter than you and myself have tried. The trueth is you tried to get me to think that its okay to love Jesus and all these other spirits. You know what the word says about that ” woe to you that keep even one of my children away from me, better that a millstone be tighted around your neck and cast into the sea.” I’m not quite sure what that mean but I don’t want to find out either. I’ve been telling you what the word of God says. You tell me want you think. Trueth is not negativity, negative spirits are negative.

o you are destined for greatness!

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o Thanks

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o the art is deep

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o thank you again

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o have you ever had lessons?

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o no I can’t follow rules LOL

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o it would help you be better

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o nope it makes it worse I get frustrated.. I like my own flow
o you were in Judo right?

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o yup

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o you hav a twin sister?

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o helpisnt bad
o thats correct

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o yes I remember you well you had a temper just like me lOL

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o i got help

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o haha not me lol

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o may be a problem

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o i like my temper.. it keeps me creating
o it give me fire
o I like it

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o i dont know not for everyone

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o Dean how about we do this again.. my kids get me up at 6am so I have to get to bed but I would like to talk to you again

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o if i can help you get help its cool

December 15Sent from Chat
Grace Ackerman- Morin
o no I am fine thanks you have a good night sleep well

December 15Sent from Chat
Dean Johnson
o get helpgood night

A Conversation…between two men at the gym

A Conversation…between two men at the gym.

A Conversation…between two men at the gym

“Your in a good mood.”

“yup” he says as he searches for the right machine…he starts to whistle and sing to the music playing through the gym.

His buddy asks him bluntly..” So did you get some?”

“Yup” he says as he sits on the right machine..and starts his reps

“Must of been good?” his buddy says… you can tell he wants details..cause he isn’t getting it himself…

“Yup”..his friend says with devilish smile and a chuckle..

“WOW” says his friend..

“Ya” says the lucky guy ” I got it just like I like it.” you can see by his expression that he is going over it again in his head…

His buddy asks him ” What did you do to get it the way you want it?” he is seriouly wanting to know!

” I did the dishes the way she wanted me to.” he says matter of factly

“Oh so you Fucking caved..buddy.” his friend starts to laugh..

“When was the last time you got it all night?” his friend says pissed off..” asshole…I didn’t fucking cave..I did the damn dishes and she when freak on my all night.”

“Oh……” his buddy says shocked

” ya so if you wanna get laid real nasty..go do the fucking dishes.” then you can see by his face he is remembering the night before as he says..” Man I can hardly do this today..she wore me out!”

Of course they didn’t know I was listneing..I am small and I was behind a big wieght machine LOL ;)

This Little Light Of Mine……I am gonna let it shine…..

This Little Light Of Mine……I am gonna let it shine…...

This Little Light Of Mine……I am gonna let it shine…..

When I look back at my life…as a story..I see a small child that wanted to love….I see a grown woman that still wants to love…my ownership in my heartache is simply this..I refuse to to close my heart..because others have broken it…some protection is needed..but to totally close my heart would be to become bitter and cold like the others who broke my heart.

To be strong one must leave one’s self open to failure…many see failure as loosing..but failure is just practice for sucess…many great inventions and theory…failed and met great resistance before they were seen and known as success.

My heart is the purest part of who I am…when I love someone I love as a small child…I will love you inspite of your failures or sucess..I will love your light and your shadow..because I will love you as I have wished to be loved.

I love children because I love the way that they precieve the world..I love how they love…with trust..integrity…courage…and forgiveness….who can love you more than your child..who can love you more completely then a child can..with absolute honesty..as they see all of you and love you inspite of you…..this is how I love.

The men that have hurt me…would snuf out my little light..they would extingush my soul….if I chose not to love this way..as this is the expression of my soul….so my fault is to meet failure…is to keep trying until I find the love I seek to feed my soul…

As this love this true unconditonal love is the love every soul in existance seeks out..craves..longs for..prays for..lives for…sings and dances for…creates for…cries out for…this is the love that creates the contradiction..of light and dark..

How can you or I know our light..the little light that shines out through the heart center..the light of the soul…if the darkness of sorrow doesn’t encompass that light..to make that light all the brighter when it knows true love…

The sorrow of the soul…makes the joy of love all the greater and all the sweeter..

And so I will continue on…to be human to make mistakes..to trust, those who are my failures so that one day I will have success.

This is my success…to love my true self..to love inspite of the risk…

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